Cool Insomnia Club #3

Mountaindewed · Dec 13, 2021 at 01:58 PM

I had this strange dream where I was with 3 friends from elementary school and we were adults and the 3 of them were pregenant and I looked down and I saw my flat stomach and remembred "oh yeah you cant have kids." I dont know why I've been having that thought lately. Enough to have a dream about it anyways. I never wanted kids and I dont even like them. I didnt hesitate at all signing that paper my gynecolgist gave me before my surgery.

Breaking Dawn · Dec 13, 2021 at 04:20 PM

This morning after breakfast I fell asleep & slept, I think, a couple of hours. It seems like the body is trying to get itself back on track. Five years ago I didn't have any problems with my sleep schedule.

Mountaindewed · Dec 14, 2021 at 07:37 AM

I took one melatonin with my usual night meds and I had one mug of sleepy time tea. I kept almost drifting off but people were being loud I finally did fall asleep pretty early though. I woke up around 2 and I thought I was going to be up but then I got another hour of sleep around 4:30.

Mountaindewed · Dec 15, 2021 at 01:58 AM

I went to bed so hungry. I was really close to breaking my diet but my new melatonin works well plus I had just taken my geodon. So I fell asleep quickly from about 5:00-9:30. I woke up feeling ok but soon after I got hungry. So I had a maple Coke, a rice cake, and an orange vanilla Coke zero sugar. That got me past midnight and now I'm listening to music and just hanging out. I'm drinking unsweetened cherry iced tea and I took another melatonin but I am fine if I do or don't fall back asleep.

Mountaindewed · Dec 15, 2021 at 06:45 AM

I got about 4 minutes of sleep after 9:30. I don't feel terrible though. I didnt know I had 12+ hours of music I liked or that the battery on the phone I was using would hold up so well. I had my music on all night. I don't think I'm manic I think I just made poor food choices last night then tried to fix it by drinking zero sugar soda and 2 large iced teas instead of eating something. Right now I just want to take a shower.

Breaking Dawn · Dec 15, 2021 at 10:52 AM

I just never know when I'm going to fall asleep or for how long. There's no pattern these days, whether day or night.

Nammu · Dec 15, 2021 at 11:38 AM

Oh, that’s hard Dawn.

In my dreams, I was back at the huge mall that looks like something out of Blade Runner. There was a teacher who fixed up sick animals and then released them into the wilds of the mall. Was confusing but kids in the class room were releasing animals before they were ready so we had to go catch them again. I think some of them were badgers. Ugly things and some were beavers and gophers. They had their own little pod. It was a cool dream even if the school kids were unruly.

Mountaindewed · 07:39 AM

I fell asleep last night at 6 which I thought was an ok time after being up since 9:30 Tuesday night. But then I woke up wide awake at 12:30 for no reason and I knew going back to sleep would be useless again. Things are for sure screwed up. I had a maple Coke, 2 orange Vanilla Coke zeros, and a mug of black tea. That equaled to 140mil of caffeine total. I want to avoid coffee and matcha tea today so I can avoid taking excess meds again. Yesterday the large latte I had helped me not be tired or crabby but it made me anxious and the sleep and meds and coffee messed up my diet.

So I'm just trying to ease up on the caffeine and hope I can keep things under control on my own with maybe just another zero soda or 2.

I ended up falling back asleep for 5-10 minutes but it helped.

My days are all mixed up and that doesnt usuaully happen until after Christmas. Both yesterday and today felt like a Friday.

MuddyBoots · Dec 16, 2021 at 11:11 AM

Had a nightmare where

Possible trigger:

I saw someone get stabbed and have their innards raped

so that was fun to wake up to.

Dec 17, 2021 at 08:46 AM

have survived the week, and not only havon't I slept, but I've not even yawned or felt the need too.

****ing imsomnia

Breaking Dawn · Dec 17, 2021 at 09:47 AM

I woke up this morning & it was dark, & I know I dreamed, although I can't remember the dreams.

Mountaindewed · Dec 17, 2021 at 12:05 PM

I fell asleep around 6. I was slightly nervous about falling asleep at that time based on the last 2 nights and I had also taken a nap too yesterday afternoon. But I couldnt stay awake any longer. But I slept through the night from 6-7:30. I feel better then I have in days. Ideally I'd like to sleep from 10PM-7:30AM each night but its tough to get in that routine along with my meds and food. I'd have to fix everything and I'll have to think about how to do that.

Nammu · Dec 17, 2021 at 01:33 PM

I had a great nights sleep. I didn’t eat supper last night. I went to my granddaughter’s recital and that was from 5:30 to 8:30 so it was too late to eat. My night meds must have knocked me out. I didn’t wake til late.

Dreams of course! I was a maid at a huge old Victorian house with 1940’s styled cabins behind it. I was some kind of detective too, I think this was the influence of all the cosys I read! Lol

~Christina · Dec 17, 2021 at 04:14 PM

Sleepy hugs !!!

Mountaindewed · Dec 18, 2021 at 10:49 AM

I ate dinner around 5:45 instead of 3 and I took the last of my meds around 7:30 instead of at 4. I fell asleep at 11 and I woke up at 7:30. I was hoping to start getting into this pattern although 11 is a bit late I think to fall asleep and I did need some extra melatonin to help me get to sleep. I'd like to be falling asleep at 10. But for my first night doing this it went good.

Nammu · Dec 18, 2021 at 12:12 PM

Had trouble falling asleep last night, not sure when I finally slept but I’m guessing around 2 or 3. Sir woke up up at 10am. He doesn’t like me staying in bad late or laying down during the day. Too many memories of the depressions.

Because Sir woke me I don’t recall dreams, just vaguely remember hats, like 1940’s hats.

~Christina · Dec 20, 2021 at 08:45 PM

I follow someone on YouTube and I just love her really funny. I watched 2-3 right before bed and she popped up in my dream which was so damn fun until I was standing on a cliff and one of my cousins pushed me over the edge. I haven’t spoken to her in almost 20 years. She’s a vile scumbag washed up hooker that treats her mom horribly. Hope that’s the end of that !!!

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Nammu · Dec 20, 2021 at 08:50 PM

Oh ouch 😓 funny how falling and flying are so different in dreams but they are close to the same thing. Ooo falling, shudder. Sorry Christina

Mountaindewed · 03:52 AM

I'm so groggy I feel like I got hit by a truck. But I didnt do anything out of the ordinary. I fell asleep with my light on around 6. I woke up sometime before 11 but I fell back asleep. I'm still super tired so I may go back to sleep.

I feel like I did something super bad for some reason.

scatterbrained04 · Dec 21, 2021 at 06:39 AM

Fell asleep around 10pm. Woke up twice during the night and finally said forget it and got up at 3am this morning. Been experimenting with 10mg melatonin, teas, and taking .05mg clonidine, and upped my gabapentin to 2000mg. I did get about 8.5 hours the night before. Honestly, I'm happy as long as I get 5+ hours and don't have panic symptoms.

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Mountaindewed Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2016 Location: Where the sidewalk ends Posts: 36,226 (SuperPoster!) 7 8,779 hugs given	Dec 14, 2021 at 07:37 AM #423 I took one melatonin with my usual night meds and I had one mug of sleepy time tea. I kept almost drifting off but people were being loud I finally did fall asleep pretty early though. I woke up around 2 and I thought I was going to be up but then I got another hour of sleep around 4:30. __________________ Ridin' with Biden
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Breaking Dawn Legendary Member Since Sep 2019 Location: USA Posts: 16,689 (SuperPoster!) 4 42.2k hugs given	Dec 15, 2021 at 10:52 AM #426 I just never know when I'm going to fall asleep or for how long. There's no pattern these days, whether day or night. __________________ "Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot) "Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller) * * * * * *
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MuddyBoots Monster on the Hill Member Since Sep 2020 Location: by the river Posts: 4,142 (SuperPoster!) 3 4,848 hugs given	Dec 16, 2021 at 11:11 AM #429 Had a nightmare where Possible trigger: I saw someone get stabbed and have their innards raped so that was fun to wake up to. __________________ Live life for nothing but that sweet sweet melody.
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Anonymous32451 Guest Posts: n/a	Dec 17, 2021 at 08:46 AM #430 have survived the week, and not only havon't I slept, but I've not even yawned or felt the need too. ****ing imsomnia
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Breaking Dawn Legendary Member Since Sep 2019 Location: USA Posts: 16,689 (SuperPoster!) 4 42.2k hugs given	Dec 17, 2021 at 09:47 AM #431 I woke up this morning & it was dark, & I know I dreamed, although I can't remember the dreams. __________________ "Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot) "Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller) * * * * * *
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~Christina Legendary Wise Elder Community Liaison Member Since Jul 2011 Location: Tennessee Posts: 22,450 (SuperPoster!) 12 12.7k hugs given	Dec 17, 2021 at 04:14 PM #434 Sleepy hugs !!! __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~
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Mountaindewed Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2016 Location: Where the sidewalk ends Posts: 36,226 (SuperPoster!) 7 8,779 hugs given	Dec 21, 2021 at 03:21 AM #439 I'm so groggy I feel like I got hit by a truck. But I didnt do anything out of the ordinary. I fell asleep with my light on around 6. I woke up sometime before 11 but I fell back asleep. I'm still super tired so I may go back to sleep. I feel like I did something super bad for some reason. Last edited by Mountaindewed; Dec 21, 2021 at 03:52 AM..
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