My diary: To support and help others

I slept good last night. Although I took the Zopiclone as well, but, just half of it. Seems that Zopiclone Pilum is very easy to split - even with fingers. The dose was 3,25 mg (out of 7,5 mg). And it did it’s job just as good as when it was in one piece. Would’ve say it almost had equal effect.

Woke up, with no dreams (except at i end something foggy). Took my morning medicines and went, ate breakfast and went on my walk. It was snowing now (seems Swedish weather had bipolar since 2011 too) and I went to the city for some matters to do. Few were outside, somewhat busy traffic. Afterwards, I headed home. Took a good cup of coffee, warmed myself a bit and after a while I went outdoors again. This time to the woods.

All in all it was great day too. Saw then later at night some Netflix, took my night-medicines. How I feel right now? Relaxed, calm. Ready to go to bed and at least try without any assistance by Zopiclone Pilum at all - even with just 3,25mg. Put my mindfulness-app, White Noise (Evening Marsh) on and try to jump into a dream.

Have a nice weekend, dear reader!

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Hope you slept well

I did. Thankfully! It was a very good sleep.

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I woke up after a really good sleep. Some dreams too, somewhat clear somewhat not. Ate my oat porridge, as usual. Took a good cup of coffee but always with a little milk. My dear friend would arrive since we arranged that we would go for a big walk today. So he came, and we went. On the sidewalk it was so slippery, as if someone poured the water with tons of hoses and just kept going for miles. No sand no nothing to prevent this madness.

Anyway, we went on despite this. Talked about everything, from heaven to earth. He knows that I have bipolar unspecified. And respects it. He sees me just as I was anyone else. Actually, it is hard to notice that I even have dis disease. Because you won’t notice when you speak with me or meet me. Far from it. You will however noticed this when I’m about on having massive pressure from every, possible direction. And I mean a LOT. Luckily, I have learned from my episodes that I always listen after the first signals before I get into any episodes at all.

So we went on, and then headed home. The sun was there but not that much light. It was a good walk and I think we went about 7,5 miles. Also, the tempo was but fast too. We use to walk and also to eat at some restaurants and just talk and talk, gossips or whatever it’s on the topic. However, since Sweden now have sharp restrictions and there are more than 24000 infected people in Sweden every day, we won’t take any risks to have a snack in any restaurant at all.

Now I’m just laying in my bed and writing this. It’s late but I promised myself, that I’ll help anyone here with this disease. That we learn from each other. It’s like having a stick. You can snap it just like that. But when you try to snap ten sticks who are together, that’s when they will never snap.

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Originally Posted by Hexagon Birch trees are very special indeed. You can also tap the water in spring from the young ones - very healthy water that you mix 1/2 of it in your glass with regular water and some concentrated juice. And drink. They also provide chaga, a fungus that you can collect and help the birch get rid off it. Then, dry it and blend it in a juice and drink. Or make a tea out of it. If you’re interested about it, I’ll give you a link to read about here: Chaga Mushroom: Uses, Benefits and Side Effects Skickat från min iPhone med Tapatalk

Thank you! How fascinating - I had no knowledge of this.

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Originally Posted by Hexagon I woke up after a really good sleep. Some dreams too, somewhat clear somewhat not. Ate my oat porridge, as usual. Took a good cup of coffee but always with a little milk. My dear friend would arrive since we arranged that we would go for a big walk today. So he came, and we went. On the sidewalk it was so slippery, as if someone poured the water with tons of hoses and just kept going for miles. No sand no nothing to prevent this madness. Anyway, we went on despite this. Talked about everything, from heaven to earth. He knows that I have bipolar unspecified. And respects it. He sees me just as I was anyone else. Actually, it is hard to notice that I even have dis disease. Because you won’t notice when you speak with me or meet me. Far from it. You will however noticed this when I’m about on having massive pressure from every, possible direction. And I mean a LOT. Luckily, I have learned from my episodes that I always listen after the first signals before I get into any episodes at all. So we went on, and then headed home. The sun was there but not that much light. It was a good walk and I think we went about 7,5 miles. Also, the tempo was but fast too. We use to walk and also to eat at some restaurants and just talk and talk, gossips or whatever it’s on the topic. However, since Sweden now have sharp restrictions and there are more than 24000 infected people in Sweden every day, we won’t take any risks to have a snack in any restaurant at all. Now I’m just laying in my bed and writing this. It’s late but I promised myself, that I’ll help anyone here with this disease. That we learn from each other. It’s like having a stick. You can snap it just like that. But when you try to snap ten sticks who are together, that’s when they will never snap. Skickat från min iPhone med Tapatalk

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It is all lovely...your walk, your friendship. However, be very careful on the ice! Why is there no salt or sand poured on it? Someone could be terribly injured.

Thank you for your beautiful words. Your posts are like paintings.

A smaller truck came by to the sidewalk after I and my friend was on our way back. And just poured out rough sand. Unfortunately the town can’t do this every day due to the costs.

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Today was the final “resting” day. I had a wonderful sleep, dreams too. Made some breakfast, took a cup of coffee and went out. This time my dad wanted to join and it was cool with me. We went just same distance as yesterday: 4,5 miles.

The weather was bit foggy, the sidewalks still slippery. My dad had even spikes on his winter shoes. I myself - not. I regretted a bit when I saw how icy it was. Pure ice and some sand. I did slip more than once but I didn’t broke any bones. After the walk I took some water (that’s the best fluid to drink). Then I relaxed, had some rest.

I took then a book to read. Now I’ll make myself ready for the bed. I took all my night-medicines and refilled my leather-supply. Fingers crossed that I won’t have to use that 3,25mg Zopiclone. Have a nice Monday, dear reader!

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My first day at work today. Also, I needed that half of Zopiclone (3,25mg) last night which I took. It was okay today, except for that I got home late. Meeting after meeting. It was all digital meetings but still. Exhausting. I don’t speak with some so called “colleagues”, and those I speak with are in my working team. Imagine where I always need to watch myself, so I don’t get any dagger or sword behind my back. All the time. I wish I could transfer to another job, but the situation I’m currently in at the moment won’t allow me.

Anyway, I’m doing my best to be as professional as I possible can. Meet them all with a smile and a “hello how are you”. I prepared everything today since my new colleague was away. Everything is neat and ready for tomorrow. Everything.

Came late from work (worked from 7:40am to 17:40pm). Despite that I should work less. Talked with my little nephew who will get a surgery tomorrow. I wished him all well and a good luck. He is brave, just as his uncle. Then I relaxed, took a good cup of yoga night-tea (there are such teas and they are wow!), watched the news. Seeing how this Europe of mine might get us all in a new World War one day. Seeing all these extreme right-fascists who are high politicians in both EU and counties around that want to rip entire of this continent apart. Sweden and Finland included (Putin won’t rest IF we and our neighbours join NATO - but make an fully invasion as he told today). Even in Italy are fascists on arise once again, making manifestations and singing chants from Roman Empire.

Tomorrow is a new day though. But so far 2022 didn’t done anything good at all. On top of that: Bob Saget died. He was the same age as my dad. I saw him during my childhood both Full House here in Sweden and also AFV. All episodes from both! I was a big fan of him and I will miss him a lot. Rest in peace, dear Mr Saget, and thank you for all laughs! I will always love you!

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I'm interested to hear of the happenings in Europe. We in the States are at a near civil war between the left-leaning liberals and the far-right conservatives. The far right scares me.

Today it was good day at work. But it was exhausted. I didn’t even had time to take a cup of coffee, not to tell go to toilet or even drink water (at all). Imagine that? I I got the entire day through, from 7:40am to 16:40am. My legs… I was standing all day and it felt as if I did squats on my gym, the day after feeling kind of. Still having pain with every muscle in my both legs.

So I relaxed, tuned on Netflix and watch that new movie Don’t Look Up. It was great and it’s sorely reminder of how we are so damn spoiled in our planet. Poisoning it. No comet will need to hit us. In fact, the very nature from the planet itself is already killing us every year. It just need one other virus - and we have millions different viruses that can kill us all millions times all over again. Just by three counties that include Russia and China.

Then these ongoing war-threats, the fascist-uprise in Italy, also in Bosnia and Herzegovina who actually had a war in the 1990s. Milorad Dodik and his special units, same units Adolf Hitler had - a police force named “Schutzstaffel”. Some had brown uniforms some black. Hungary and their fascist leader who gave literally 100m euro to Milorad Dodik to forge paramilitary force, all in a parade last week on Saturday along with war criminals. Then this Ukraine-situation, that is heating up (Ukrainians literally have now in eastern border trenches). Then situation in Kazakhstan. It is so damn heated than even the steam can’t find its way out of this idiotic Europe. It is just like that reactor from Chernobyl - going first down, then some morons in command wants to test the reactor anyway and it’s get heated up and can’t stop. And even if there is an emergency-button, if you hit it it will ALL explode with a meltdown everywhere. That’s the Europe right now. A big Chernobyl power plant, at the moment in its first phase. This damn Europa will never learn from ANY war. It’s cursed to have them every now and then.

I don’t want now to give you bad or restless sleep, dear reader. Or giving any unnecessary worries. I’m glad that one admiral from United States along with his other colleagues and staff knew what was about to happen in Bosnia this year. So USS Harry S Truman is stationed somewhere outside of Croatian coast, ready to operate. So the 1992s won’t repeat itself, if You know what I mean. Same goes with Ukraine. Russia is on the same path just as it was under rule by Josef Stalin. If not worse. No human rights-organisations exists, the entire justice-system is under total control by Putin - who himself have unlimited power and will rule his country for his entire lifetime.

How I’m doing? Kind of tired. Sometimes lonely, lonely as hell. On the bright side I don’t have any nightmares. And I have learned my body and brain that I can take half dose of Zopiclone (3,25mg) that will have same effect as full dose.

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A relaxing day today, dear reader. Relaxing indeed. I’m finding all the time new ways to move forward. Also, to stay focused and sharpen up my mind. When it all comes to it, it’s all about the motivation. If you’re not motivated enough to stay focus in moments that demands it, then it will always backfire on yourself. It is though a progress. And it can be different and difficult from day to day.

But that’s when that other thing pops up on my mind: the structure. It’s like building a house. You don’t build it the footing with straws, and walls out of sticks. You call for an concrete-truck that pours out the concrete to become the footing. Then you have patience till it all dries, but before that you treating it so it’s all adjusted to every little corner and space that’s left. And when it hardens, you start the build with bricks.

Same goes with our psyche and our mind. There are moments that we can be as fragile as cardboards, but then we need to do some analysis on ourselves. Think and rethink. Understand what we did, how and why. Then, after we figured it out, we start with the construction. It will be a long path, but who said you can’t take some breath? Or that you must run on that path? So don’t limit yourself, dear reader. There are no limits, just many doors that go and open possibilities.

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Thank you for your wisdom, for the updates on the situation in Europe (very interesting - very scary), and for your words about self-growth. Supposedly "whenever a window closes, a door opens."

Here I am again, dear reader. Slept few hours unfortunately last night. And early for work, that started 7:30 am. The day was, fun. Not entire day though, but half of it. Until I was about to get plan for tomorrow and such. And was forced to stay till 18:30 pm. I had - as I write now - only 2h 25 min rest, where I watched Cobra Kai via Netflix (fourth season). I loved Karate Kid-movies back in the days I’m the 1990s and I love Ralph Macchio and William Zabka. Brilliant actors. Even today. They’ve got old though, but so did I. I love though how they try to help those youngsters, have a association of (in this case) karate. One club that’s rich and the other just started from nothing at all.

Here in Sweden, associations are free for everyone and if there is a payment it’s usually a very small (yearly) fee. That means sports such as soccer (football), ping pong, tennis, floorball, basketball, even hockey. Although the latter one is expensive because of all gears you need to buy for yourself except for the helmet and the hockey pant. Also for gaiters. That’s on the club. I’m not sure how You Americans have, but, I’ve read via Zlatan Ibrahimovic (when he played for LA Galaxy) that it was expensive as hell to play soccer. Shame, cause Your nation would had such talents. I’m thinking with all those kids living in segregated areas in the US. I know how it is cause I worked in such area since 2008 (parallel with my education on university) and permanent employed since 2015. Soccer is that thing that unite us all, no matter who you are or where you’re from. Shame that Your politicians can’t do anything about that.

Anyway, I got home but late as hell, 18:30 pm. That’s 11h with only 30 min break, which was 13:30 pm. No one will ever thank me except two of my colleagues. Maybe three. How I feel now? Right now? Exhausted, with no energy at all. Unbelievable that I even could write anything here at all. I will go to bed early this evening, I need to get up early. So in about 40 min or so I need to be inside my bed, with an Zopiclone and get some sleep. Stay safe out there!

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Sports for children are expensive here, just like everything else - at least, that's the case here in California. I'm sure there are programs for low-income children, but if there are I don't know of them.

I hope you are sleeping a restful sleep at this time.

The sleep was really good. Woke up 6:25 am and even if I didn’t slept fully 8h I feel rested. Now I’m going to the work. Wish me luck hehe!

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Good luck Hexagon! Have a great day! Have we ever complimented your English skills? My niece was trying to learn Swedish a few months ago and found it difficult so I'm sure the reverse is true.

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Originally Posted by Hexagon The sleep was really good. Woke up 6:25 am and even if I didn’t slept fully 8h I feel rested. Now I’m going to the work. Wish me luck hehe! Skickat från min iPhone med Tapatalk

Good luck, Hexagon

For us swedes it’s easy to learn English. Especially since none of the English speaking movies are dubbed into Swedish (as some European countries do, like Germany, France etc.). Only children movies such as Frozen and such. But even those have option as English if you like to use. That is why we in Scandinavia speaks this good English generally, many thanks to this.

I can several more languages despite Swedish and English. All in all I speak four languages.

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Also @BeyondtheRainbow, Swedish can be sometimes tricky to learn. Not hard, but tricky. Because it have similarities with German language, although Germanic languages have (commonly) verbs as last. As for example “gemacht” (done) or “gebraucht” (brought) and so on. We don’t. We say “Jag gjorde” (I did). That is why Scandinavian languages have similar structure as English (British) and English (American). BUT, it can be difficult to pronounce the words.

I also credit you for learning English so well. I believe it must be a confusing language sometimes, because it is so irregular.

Which languages do you know (besides Swedish and English)?

That is German and one more language. But I pass the details about it. I’m thinking that I’m also on social media and if I say that last language - some outsider that is diagnosed as “normal” would perhaps find who I am. Perhaps. Or perhaps not, but I don’t take any risks. No matter where.

I had always easy for languages, and I’m very fast learner. I can also adapt no matter where I am. Even assimilate if I need to, which I do anyway.

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Today, it was relaxing day at work. Well, not literally, but still. Before I went to work I had a good sleep. I needed that. Took my coffee with bit of milk, ate my sandwich and went to work. Always on time and 30 min before. While I was preparing, I had some luck to get some more coffee on work too. With milk. The morning at work was splendid. It really was. I have also a bottle of cold (tapped) water where I always put an effervescent tablet that is fluid replacement. I bought it on a online drugstore here in Sweden. It do it’s job and beyond. I can tell you that.

Overall the day at work was fine. It’s Covid-19 everywhere and I need to be cautious. But, I can’t isolate me in a bubble. If I be infected when that day comes, so be it. I have two doses of BioNTech and they will still do their job. Which is that I won’t end up connected to an respirator. On top of that my asthma. And this disease. I take only moment by moment, and I suggest you do that too, dear reader. Live in the present. Don’t do what you think you would do, do what you need to do. And try not to isolate yourself too much. Try to get some contact, even so if it’s via online video games or whatever game you like. Or some social media-group, chat whatever. Just talk with someone!

What I will do now? Watch some Netflix, chill. I have already taken my evening-pills and I can watch some
tv even now. Although I won’t be late. I will focus to adapt my sleep and that is same as regular days. A method I needed to use long ago but, I didn’t. So 22:30 it’s bed-time no matter how many movies or series there are waiting. Or any gamers. I have my boundaries and I follow those - not what others say. Or that I park myself on a bar/pub and take that pint of beer or whatever-drink. However, I’m thinking to starting to gym again tomorrow. Thinking. Because a part of me says it’s unwise to do even that due to the omicron and that is now 28k infected per day here in Sweden. And they predict that the numbers will increase to 70k. Not so soon, but soon. Hence my hesitation.

Have a great weekend, dear reader, and state safe! Always!

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I also find languages quite fascinating.


Perhaps your decision to avoid the gym at this time is a wise one.

Have a fine week-end!

What a nice start of the weekend. Woke up 9 am (not too late, not too early). Ate my oat porridge. I took my morning-pill (Ergenyl) along with some milk. Spoke with my dad and he wanted to go outdoor with me, this time on a 8 miles long walk. It was bit grey weather today, but all dry. No ice no snow. No nothing. In Sweden! So bizarre this weather is. But hey, we all contribute with this to make our planet become bipolar. That means all the global warming and such. I pity all of those who laugh at Greta Thunberg and other activists who want to save our planet.

We spoke about lots of things, me and my dad. My job, the situation there, my mom. We saw also this woodpecker again, standing on a branch from a pinewood and just drilling it loudly. The sound echoed all over the place in that forest. When we headed home we made a short visit at my brother’s home to say short hello.

Then I arrived home I ate some food. All in all it was a nice day. Later, I watch some Netflix. Greedy as Netflix are, they will spice up the prices again. Seems as if it’s their utter yearly tradition, hence why I don’t have them all the time - two months tops. I will also get my third Covid-vaccine next week. At last! Have a nice evening, dear reader!

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