Bipolar check-in #61

Yesterday I took a bit of a step forward. I sent an inquiry to a Czech language for foreigners school. I'm planning to finally start formal studies asap. I haven't yet heard back. Perhaps the main contact person is still on vacation or the school itself is "on break" still. I asked Hubby to call them in a few days, if I don't get an email response. I've been totally bored since the holidays passed. I must do something new and constructive and stop the procrastination/excuses. I plan to initially study online, then switch to face-to-face when covid numbers go down further.

We're looking for a new general practitioner since our current one has been a hassle and absent-minded. We'll go for one not advertised as speaking English. Chances are if they're young, they will anyway. Plus, it's not mandatory that they do. Hubby can translate for me on the rare occasions I actually go to their office. The one we're interested in administers the covid vaccines at his office. The old one doesn't. Given the difficulty I'm having getting my third covid booster, it may be easier to get it from a GP than through the centralized channel.

I got up at 3:30am to an anxiety attack. It's still going on after an hour and if things go as they usually do, it'll last for a few hours.

I was feeling better on Trintellix, but that lasted just a week. I see my pdoc in a couple of weeks.

But Zopiclone is - if I got this right - only banned as a commercial substance in USA. It is however controlled substance (with all right reasons) and can only be bought via prescription when a psychiatric doctor gives it to you. As it is in Sweden too. Or did I perhaps misunderstood something?

Skickat från min iPhone med Tapatalk

I think what's more commonly prescribed here is Lunesta/ eszopiclone. I keep reading conflicting info on zopiclone saying it's not approved, etc. Idk I've never been on either and I've never heard of anyone taking zopiclone in these parts.

edit: apparently it's schedule IV and yeah they just prescribe lunesta instead

I’ve gained some clarity and perspective and it feels wonderful! I’m going to thoroughly enjoy the way I feel and move forward if appropriate.

I wrote a pleasant email to my therapist yesterday morning terminating therapy and later that evening I got a long response in reply that absolutely shredded me. It really upset me terribly for a few hours until I realized that her response wasn’t professional and it was her projection and problem and not mine. It still does sting a bit.

I hope everybody has a peaceful day.

Jennifer I’m glad you recognized that the therapist was just lashing out. How unprofessional. And you didn’t let it ruin your day.

I contacted my pdoc, I don't think I can wait a couple of weeks to increase the Trintellix. She's just back from holiday today but hopefully she'll get back to me soon.

I had stomach issues all last night and a little bit this afternoon after drinking a lemonade. I'm just uncomfortable physically right now but my stomach pain is gone. My anxiety is also kinda sucky because I didnt stay ahead of my anxiety and I took my valium after I was super anxious. I got my shot early this morning at 8 to help with my moods. I'm annoyed at my mom because I am going to have to do another remote session tomorrow. She has an eye appointment but she knew about it since October. She told me about it on Sunday. So I tried contacting my therapist asking if we could switch to another time or day. She didnt respond to my email and this morning I found an out of office email in my spam box. So I called the office and the only other opening was another remote. Its just I really needed this appointment and I don't get how hard it is to tell me 2 weeks before instead of 2 days. Shes just getting older and its bothering me.

I feel better now after taking some of my meds and my valium and eating my first legit meal since yesterday afternoon. I know my mom really needs this eye appointment. She ran a red light yesterday. I just worry about going back to remote soon and knowing that I had an in person session set up that I now can't do just kinda kills me.

At airport— pray things go well and no cancellations!

I hope your plane leaves on time winds that blow.

Tonight is kind of rough.

I'm pretty sure I am just super bummed about not being able to do my therapy appointment in person. My mom went grocery shopping with my brother and picked me up some tuna and pop tarts and candy bars and I was ok anxiety wise today but I was down mood and depression wise all day.

My shot can also cause this type of issue. Normally it does the night I get it. I ate soup for dinner. It was one of those instant campbells microwave bowls. But I just dumped the soup into a soup mug with a handle and heated it up that way. It was tomato.

I dont know what to tell my therapist in the morning. I mean I wont tell her everything because I dont want to go IP but I'll spill my guts enough so that I'll feel better after.

Well the frustration with getting my sleep meds is over for another month. Still no refills so I’ll have to go though all the phone calls again in 30 days. My first doctor would just give me 5-6 refills so I didn’t have to go though this every month.

Oh goodness. I am so sorry you hate having to go through this I can’t imagine. I wonder if you could just get a few days worth of your medications since your truly stranded. Do you use a National pharmacy ?

I will pray that your flight isn’t canceled and you can get home.

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Oh the joys of getting refills on stuff. That stresses me out if I have too many balls up in the air at nice. Hope you get that appt soon

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Sorry Covid got you. Hope you don’t feel to awful. For what’s it’s worth my middle step son and half the wedding guests tested positive but his wife is fine. More than half the other people didn’t spread to other family members. Enjoy binging

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Well that’s just bad luck with everything mucked up with address change. Hope that gets sorted quickly. So happy to read Gabapenten is helping !!! Yay !

Hang in there !

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Sorry that you woke up anxiety attack that is so miserable hopefully your able to get back to getting benefit from the medication

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

That nuts that your Therapist acted that way ! Why could she not just wished you well ?? Try to just blow it off . I know easier said than done but you can

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

I’m dealing with tons of anxiety today. Jaw hurts and headache from Clenching my teeth.

Massive hugs my friend

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk