Bipolar check-in #63

Nammu · Mar 23, 2022 at 07:24 PM

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Originally Posted by BethRags

Yes, it is like that here, especially now. Recently, psychiatrists have to be classified with "medical" not with "behavioral health" as they used to be. The pdocs, therapists, and patients I've spoken with are not pleased about such a change.

Ohhh that’s new. Labeling them as medical. Interesting, why would they object to that. It’s the whole body that should be addressed not behavior.

*Beth* · Mar 23, 2022 at 07:32 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Ohhh that’s new. Labeling them as medical. Interesting, why would they object to that. It’s the whole body that should be addressed not behavior.

Exactly. At the clinic where I receive all of my healthcare the psychiatrists have had to move to the "medical" side of the building. The psychologists and therapists are on the opposite side of the building ("behavioral health").

It's ridiculous. I'm sure that money is involved, somehow.

Mar 23, 2022 at 07:51 PM

I felt good about my ZOOM support group at the time but now i feel remorse. I worry that something i said was cruel to a guy who is already suffering. I feel ashamed of the things i said. Shame was attacking me so i tried to meditate. I'm experimenting with meditation. I bought a month of the "Calm" app.

Wouldn't you know it but my dog chose that moment to destroy a plush toy and that's a swallowing hazard for dogs, which i know from a stomach upset when she was a puppy that cost $1700. You all know how poorly i deal with vet bills. So there went meditation out the window.

I know meditation is a skill that would really help me but i have this fussy dog and i can't stay with the breaths for more than a few moments. But 'non-judging' is a tenet of mindfulness meditation, as is 'patience' and 'non-striving' so i will just absorb the experience and not get frustrated.

Had fruit, veg and protein for the second day in a row. No detectable improvement in energy but it may take a while.

@Sapien:

Have you considered meditation as a hobby while your hip heals? Here's a simple ten minute body-scan meditation that's free on YouTube that's easy and pleasant. In fact, i'm off to do it right now! See you there!

~Christina · Mar 23, 2022 at 08:54 PM

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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Checking in. Hello all! I’m deeply depressed today. Things look bad but at least I know that’s not reality. It’s just my mindset or the chemicals in my brain.

I talked to my friend for 3 hours last night. I’m questioning myself as to whether I’m getting close to the line in wanting to get back together with him. My therapist would have a fit. I believe it’s boredom, depression or restlessness speaking but I can’t say for sure. This is the relationship where I got badly burned just recently. I DON’T want to go through that again.

I’m having difficulty finding someone to evaluate me for a correct diagnosis. My former psychiatrist is firm in his belief that it’s Bipolar 2. I don’t really have $175-260 for an evaluation at this time as I just paid $645 for a crown and I need to come up with $400 for surgery on my tongue. I had a taste bud get inflamed and it started to grow. It needs to be removed and a biopsy performed. My daughter is the one pushing for the evaluation.

It’s raining cats and dogs here. I think I’ll skip bible study and lunch with friends and stay in today and work around the house. I have therapy today thank goodness. Tonight the church brings meals over.

I need to make some changes in my life for better mental health. I’ll make a list and get started.

Hugs to all!

Hey Jennifer !

Lots of flooded areas around it was big rain here and now wind that’s going right through me. It’s always something hu ?? Soon you can be floating again.

Please do not start up a relationship with him. I’m a firm believer ex’s are ex’s for a reason. You don’t need that red flag littered drama !

Keep up your self care

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~Christina · Mar 23, 2022 at 09:07 PM

Hey everyone thanks so much for the concern over this dumb tooth. I have an appt Monday.

I want to reply to everyone individually but I just don’t have it in me tonight.

Much love my friends

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*Beth* · Mar 23, 2022 at 11:58 PM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

Hey everyone thanks so much for the concern over this dumb tooth. I have an appt Monday.

I want to reply to everyone individually but I just don’t have it in me tonight.

Much love my friends

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And much love to you, Christina

Crazy Hitch · Mar 24, 2022 at 02:25 AM

Feeling extremely overwhelmed and like I could punch my insides out of my body. Day 3 new AP and I hope it kicks in soon.

Soupe du jour · Mar 24, 2022 at 06:42 AM

I'm sending well wishes to all that are experiencing physical and mental distress. Though I've only had a chance to skim posts lately, I've noticed many have such issues. I have mostly just physical gripes. Perhaps not as significant as some. Gastro "stuff" has always been an intermittent issue for me, but right now I seem to have the works. Plus sinus stuff, which is also intermittent throughout my life. Boo hiss!

Tonight I have my Czech zoom class. Unfortunately, my enthusiasm for it has dwindled and dwindled. I'm mostly just waiting for the trip to the US, and sort of to get it over with. I want to move forward, but at the same time have little motivation to do so and am dissatisfied with where I am.

Yesterday I made a stromboli for the first time. I had leftover homemade pizza dough from last week. It's something commonly offered in New Jersey Italian restaurants and pizzerias. I am looking forward to some things I can't get here.

I'm struggling to decide if I should contact my old psychiatrist for a possible time to drop by and say "Hi" for a few minutes, when in New Jersey. I'm pretty sure he'd offer one. I won't expand on this, but I feel awkward about it for a few reasons.

Sunflower123 · Mar 24, 2022 at 06:46 AM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

Hey Jennifer !

Lots of flooded areas around it was big rain here and now wind that’s going right through me. It’s always something hu ?? Soon you can be floating again.

Please do not start up a relationship with him. I’m a firm believer ex’s are ex’s for a reason. You don’t need that red flag littered drama !

Keep up your self care

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Hahaha! Your message really got me laughing! Red flag littered drama indeed. We make much better friends. I do love the guy as my best friend. I wasn’t thinking things through. I’ll stay in my lane. Thanks for setting me straight.

Thank you for your care and concern

Sunflower123 · Mar 24, 2022 at 06:48 AM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

Hey everyone thanks so much for the concern over this dumb tooth. I have an appt Monday.

I want to reply to everyone individually but I just don’t have it in me tonight.

Much love my friends

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I’m glad you have an appointment Monday. Dental problems are the pits. I’m sorry you’re going through that.

Sunflower123 · Mar 24, 2022 at 07:04 AM

Checking in. Hello all! I’m feeling much better this morning after a rough day yesterday. After a painful therapy session, I just shut down. I turned off my phone, locked myself away and went to bed. I did eat my meal from the church first. Lasagna, garlic toast, salad and tiramisu. Good stuff.

Today I have an appointment with my med provider. I’m having to see her every two weeks because I misused my medications after a bad break up. HUGE mistake for a lot of reasons. That will never happen again. Hopefully we can start spacing appointments out after this.

I’m staying in my lane with my best friend. Anything else would be madness.

Hugs to all!

MuddyBoots · Mar 24, 2022 at 07:04 AM

Someone in the addiction subforum suggested I may be experiencing PAWS (Post acute withdrawal syndrome).

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Opioids: Whether prescription opioids or illicit versions like heroin, these drugs can lead to post-acute withdrawal syndrome if they are not tapered off properly. People who experience the full intensity of acute withdrawal are more likely to develop PAWS, which includes cravings, exhaustion, and cognitive impairment that does not go away for a long time.

(From Post-Acute-Withdrawal Syndrome (PAWS): An In-Depth Guide )

Explains why I feel stupid, tired (but can't sleep of course) and irritable.

Soupe du jour · Mar 24, 2022 at 09:45 AM

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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Checking in. Hello all! I’m feeling much better this morning after a rough day yesterday. After a painful therapy session, I just shut down. I turned off my phone, locked myself away and went to bed. I did eat my meal from the church first. Lasagna, garlic toast, salad and tiramisu. Good stuff.

Today I have an appointment with my med provider. I’m having to see her every two weeks because I misused my medications after a bad break up. HUGE mistake for a lot of reasons. That will never happen again. Hopefully we can start spacing appointments out after this.

I’m staying in my lane with my best friend. Anything else would be madness.

Hugs to all!

That meal does sound ultra yummy!

I think what you did to cut/turn off the stress was a good strategy. When we can manage that it's good. It sort of reminds me a little of how Buddhists sometimes try to achieve a type of "nothingness". Though not what I'd strive for as a general rule, it can be a heck of a lot better than psychological stress.

I'm glad you're feeling a bit better today, Jennifer!

Soupe du jour · Mar 24, 2022 at 09:49 AM

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Originally Posted by Sapien

Someone in the addiction subforum suggested I may be experiencing PAWS (Post acute withdrawal syndrome). (From Post-Acute-Withdrawal Syndrome (PAWS): An In-Depth Guide )

Explains why I feel stupid, tired (but can't sleep of course) and irritable.

I hope you will discuss this with your doc. I think it's pretty common when one stops a substance after dependence/abuse. I believe I had some long-term symptoms even after my alcohol detox. That was about 15 years ago, though. It was a hard time that I'm glad is in the past. I hope you start feeling better soon, Sapien.

Pinny · Mar 24, 2022 at 11:09 AM

Hey everyone, I hope today is a good day for you!
It was a bit of a ropey start for me with my leg this morning but the painkillers I’m taking seem to be helping a little and there’s some bleeding/bruising coming out which is always a little sore before it’s out properly!
I booked a physio appt for next week too to get on top of the scarring/healing so I’m not more likely to injure it again!
I feel like such an idiot!
I made it to work today which went well, I’m in 3 times next week so hopefully that will go well!
Sending lots of hugs and positive thoughts your way!

*Beth* · Mar 24, 2022 at 02:19 PM

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Originally Posted by Sapien

Someone in the addiction subforum suggested I may be experiencing PAWS (Post acute withdrawal syndrome). (From Post-Acute-Withdrawal Syndrome (PAWS): An In-Depth Guide )

Explains why I feel stupid, tired (but can't sleep of course) and irritable.

I totally agree.

*Beth* · Mar 24, 2022 at 02:38 PM

People, it's too freakin' warm. 84 degrees. I say "warm" because before I know it we'll be in the 90's, then 100's. That will be HOT. *sigh* I suppose there's no getting around setting up at least 1 fan today. Fortunately, I bought new fans last summer, and they're very easy to get out of the closet. It's all about the psychological idea of needing a fan in March. I will say, however, that the scent of the orange blossoms remains absolutely gorgeous. L'orangerie! Oh, I wish.

I'm patient with children, I'm patient with animals, and I'm patient with people who are suffering. I am NOT patient with what's going on with this war. War crimes are being committed and have been for the past month. WTF? I like the strength and resilience of the Ukrainian people, and would like to see NATO countries follow suit. I will stop here for fear of "discussing politics" on the forum.

Well, that's all from me for now. I'm thinking of each of you and sending hugs and balloon bouquets in your favorite color

Pinny · Mar 24, 2022 at 03:04 PM

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Originally Posted by BethRags

People, it's too freakin' warm. 84 degrees. I say "warm" because before I know it we'll be in the 90's, then 100's. That will be HOT. *sigh* I suppose there's no getting around setting up at least 1 fan today. Fortunately, I bought new fans last summer, and they're very easy to get out of the closet. It's all about the psychological idea of needing a fan in March. I will say, however, that the scent of the orange blossoms remains absolutely gorgeous. L'orangerie! Oh, I wish.

I'm patient with children, I'm patient with animals, and I'm patient with people who are suffering. I am NOT patient with what's going on with this war. War crimes are being committed and have been for the past month. WTF? I like the strength and resilience of the Ukrainian people, and would like to see NATO countries follow suit. I will stop here for fear of "discussing politics" on the forum.

Well, that's all from me for now. I'm thinking of each of you and sending hugs and balloon bouquets in your favorite color

It’s just awful, isn’t it? I can’t believe that it’s happening sometimes. I feel so sad for those affected, it’s just horrible

And wow we never get those temperatures here! I’m glad your fans are easy to access!

Sending lots of hugs back @BethRags

Pinny · Mar 24, 2022 at 03:13 PM

Well my dad who was supposed to be driving up from England this eve has had a car accident (he’s ok, thankfully) but the car isn’t. So now we have to wait to see if he can get it fixed tomorrow to drive up. It’s such a shame.
I think my mum was really looking forward to seeing him as we haven’t seen him since Christmas.
But my mum would never admit that….
I’m currently lying in bed (it’s just after 8pm) but I think I might just go to sleep, I’m still sleeping a lot but I’m making it through the days without sleeping which is a bonus!
I also feel a little less anxious about… well, everything! Which is good!
I hope you all have a restful night! If anyone is struggling to sleep I highly recommend a pillow spray! I LOVE mine, it really does help relax me!
Hugs!!!!

otroo · Mar 24, 2022 at 03:26 PM

Went and met with my new psych doc today. He took me off of Geodone(sp?) And put me on something with a V. He wants me to quit taking my Ambien in the next month or two and start something else. He also wants me off the Seriquil.

He seamed like a nice guy I don't have problems with female care givers as I am able to open up towards. This guy seamed a little lit in the loafers but I was able to open up to him and I was very honest with what I said to him. By the way I am not prejudice against someone's sensuality I don't care who a person chooses to be with.

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~Christina Legendary Wise Elder Community Liaison Member Since Jul 2011 Location: Tennessee Posts: 22,450 (SuperPoster!) 13 12.7k hugs given	Mar 23, 2022 at 09:07 PM #1005 Hey everyone thanks so much for the concern over this dumb tooth. I have an appt Monday. I want to reply to everyone individually but I just don’t have it in me tonight. Much love my friends Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~

Crazy Hitch ɘvlovƎ Member Since Nov 2013 Location: Australia Posts: 18,638 (SuperPoster!) 10 12.8k hugs given	Mar 24, 2022 at 02:25 AM #1007 Feeling extremely overwhelmed and like I could punch my insides out of my body. Day 3 new AP and I hope it kicks in soon.