Bipolar check-in #64

Apr 25, 2022 at 07:15 PM

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Originally Posted by BethRags

I had the therapy session. I think she did a long session. Honestly, I'm having difficulty with time and place. Frankly, I think I've cracked up. I guess I need to ground myself? I guess I'll check around on how to do that.

Sorry to hear you are having such a hard time, Beth. Is it the sleep deprivation that's bothering you? Hope one of WFC's suggestions helps you.

Moose72 · Apr 25, 2022 at 08:24 PM

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Originally Posted by BethRags

I had the therapy session. I think she did a long session. Honestly, I'm having difficulty with time and place. Frankly, I think I've cracked up. I guess I need to ground myself? I guess I'll check around on how to do that.

I like Wildflowerchild25's suggestions. One of my favorite things to do is to run my fingers over a brick wall, including the mortar in between. The roughness on my fingertips is calming.

wildflowerchild25 · Apr 25, 2022 at 09:00 PM

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Originally Posted by bric

Hi everyone. I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 and a few other things after the death of my brother. I'm rapid cycling and have mixed episodes, as well as, tons of anxiety, disassociation episodes, and panic attacks.

It's been a rough 8 months, and I feel very alone. I'm high functioning so its rare for most people to even notice what I go through. To be honest, I feel like I'm in my own personalized hell. I know no one going through what I am, and I feel literally crazy at times. I wanted to talk to people suffering through the same thing to better understand my disorder.

Welcome! Feel free to jump right in. This is a really supportive group.

Soupe du jour · Apr 25, 2022 at 09:23 PM

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Originally Posted by bric

Hi everyone. I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 and a few other things after the death of my brother. I'm rapid cycling and have mixed episodes, as well as, tons of anxiety, disassociation episodes, and panic attacks.

It's been a rough 8 months, and I feel very alone. I'm high functioning so its rare for most people to even notice what I go through. To be honest, I feel like I'm in my own personalized hell. I know no one going through what I am, and I feel literally crazy at times. I wanted to talk to people suffering through the same thing to better understand my disorder.

Welcome, @bric! We're glad you joined us. As wildflowerchild wrote, do post on a topic you like, feel free to ask questions or ask support and get to know others here, as you like. We "get it"!

Nammu · Apr 25, 2022 at 09:51 PM

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Originally Posted by bric

Hi everyone. I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 and a few other things after the death of my brother. I'm rapid cycling and have mixed episodes, as well as, tons of anxiety, disassociation episodes, and panic attacks.

It's been a rough 8 months, and I feel very alone. I'm high functioning so its rare for most people to even notice what I go through. To be honest, I feel like I'm in my own personalized hell. I know no one going through what I am, and I feel literally crazy at times. I wanted to talk to people suffering through the same thing to better understand my disorder.

this is a pretty fast moving thread so until you have 5 post there will be a bit of delay. But do post. Again, welcome

otroo · Apr 25, 2022 at 10:35 PM

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

@BeyondtheRainbow

Sending healing and calming vibes your way! Do let us know when you can but take your time.

@Jennifer 1967

That is a high fever and I’m glad you have that appt today. Good luck and I am sending healing vibes your way.

@otroo

When my first husband passed away I felt the same. The fact that you did not wake up in the middle of the night for once means that yes, you are healing. Give yourself grace and kindness. Don’t hold yourself to a timeline; everyone grieves differently. I believe it took me around 2 years to stop crying on anniversaries. And I don’t cry. Sending healing vibes your way as well!

Thank you I really appreciate it.

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*Beth* · Apr 25, 2022 at 11:53 PM

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I work on grounding a lot. Some suggestions:
Hold ice or an ice pack

Use a weighted blanket if you have one

Sit in a chair and push your feet on the ground

Push hard against a wall

Five senses - name 5 things you can see, 4 you can hear, 3 you can touch, 2 you can smell, 1 you can taste. Or any combination thereof.

Speaking of taste, my therapist told me to taste something really strong to snap back to earth, such as biting a lemon or taking a sip of vinegar. I actually use the super sour classic 90s candy, warheads lol.

Counting - I have a painting on my wall that I count colors in. I’ve also done it with bricks on the sidewalk when I was triggered away from home.

I haven’t tried this one yet but a social worker told me to try to spell a word backwards.

I dunno if any of those will help but worth a try. In regards to losing your sense of time, I was/am in the same boat. Don’t really know which day it is or how long ago something happened. Sucks.

I hope you feel better

Thank you so much! This really helps.

*Beth* · Apr 25, 2022 at 11:58 PM

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Originally Posted by bric

Hi everyone. I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 and a few other things after the death of my brother. I'm rapid cycling and have mixed episodes, as well as, tons of anxiety, disassociation episodes, and panic attacks.

It's been a rough 8 months, and I feel very alone. I'm high functioning so its rare for most people to even notice what I go through. To be honest, I feel like I'm in my own personalized hell. I know no one going through what I am, and I feel literally crazy at times. I wanted to talk to people suffering through the same thing to better understand my disorder.

Welcome, bric! You are certainly in the right place. I relate strongly to each of the symptoms you've listed, as I'm sure many of us do. My precious sister died about 3 years ago...losing a sibling has been a very strange and wrong feeling to me. I'm glad you're here

*Beth* · Apr 26, 2022 at 12:17 AM

Doing some grounding helped to bring me back into this time and place, more or less. The sleep problems definitely are not helpful...but much of that goes right back to that doctor's mistreatment of my symptoms. When I was with my therapist today she told me that she has other clients with bipolar disorder who are having problems with the same woman. The problem is that she refuses to diagnose people with bipolar disorder...she's not a psychiatrist, but is a DO, so medication is not her first choice of treatment. My T is definitely going to bat for me. I feel terribly betrayed by a clinic I trusted with my mental healthcare. Due to my situation with that woman, the way she yelled at me and so on, I've been extremely dissociative and having flashbacks, etc. When those things hit it is as though I am not at all 59, but fifteen, or seventeen, or eight. The experience is frightening, to say the least.

It's warm tonight. Something I like about being on the 2nd floor is that I can open my bedroom window at night. It can't be reached except with a ladder.

My son, Noah, and my DIL were possibly coming by today, but he did the 100 mile bike ride and was totally wiped out. He said, "Mom, I realized I'm not in my 20's anymore!" He's all of 33. Oh, dear. I was sad, though.

Well, I'm going to put myself in the shower to get refreshed and try to sleep. My new med provider cancelled our appt. for tomorrow ; I'm kinda stuck with taking whatever I have on hand to help me sleep.

Beautiful, sweet daisies all around for you, and you, and you, and...

Apr 26, 2022 at 02:02 AM

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I'm home. I'm very tired and sore. .

Hope you will feel better tomorrow!

Apr 26, 2022 at 02:06 AM

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Originally Posted by whatever2013

My thoughts were attacking me this morning, every painful shameful moment from the past.

It is always a rough time when old meories knocks on the door! Hope you feel better after a good nights sleep!

Apr 26, 2022 at 02:09 AM

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Originally Posted by bric

Hi everyone. I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 and a few other things after the death of my brother. I'm rapid cycling and have mixed episodes, as well as, tons of anxiety, disassociation episodes, and panic attacks.

It's been a rough 8 months, and I feel very alone. I'm high functioning so its rare for most people to even notice what I go through. To be honest, I feel like I'm in my own personalized hell. I know no one going through what I am, and I feel literally crazy at times. I wanted to talk to people suffering through the same thing to better understand my disorder.

Blue_Bird · Apr 26, 2022 at 05:34 AM

Miss Mustachio caught in the act, this is the second time she stole the paper towel roll because I forgot to put it in a place she couldn't reach, she came running into my room carrying it again but this time I caught it in photos

Sunflower123 · Apr 26, 2022 at 06:03 AM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Miss Mustachio caught in the act, this is the second time she stole the paper towel roll because I forgot to put it in a place she couldn't reach, she came running into my room carrying it again but this time I caught it in photos

Precious!

Sunflower123 · Apr 26, 2022 at 06:21 AM

I’m on the mend and I should be happy but lack of sleep is catching up with me. I’m irritable, exhausted and pessimistic. That’s not like me. I find it impossible to nap so night time is my time to catch up. I don’t quite feel back on my feet today. That sucks.

I have a consultation today for the growth on my tongue. I’m not really thrilled about having my tongue cut on but the growth will need to be removed and biopsied. Another cash outlay. It is raining cats and dogs. I’ll have to drive in downtown traffic to a place I don’t know. Fun.

Yes, I know. Rarely grumpy. I am so far today. I’m going to work on getting a better attitude.

I hope everyone has a peaceful day. Hugs to all!

Soupe du jour · Apr 26, 2022 at 06:54 AM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Miss Mustachio caught in the act, this is the second time she stole the paper towel roll because I forgot to put it in a place she couldn't reach, she came running into my room carrying it again but this time I caught it in photos

How funny! The Bounty Bandit!

Soupe du jour · Apr 26, 2022 at 07:08 AM

@Jennifer 1967, you have the right to be irritable. Sometimes we have to fight back somehow. In any case, I hope you find the place easily and get a better night's sleep tonight.

Soupe du jour · Apr 26, 2022 at 07:11 AM

@*Beth*, I like your modified screen name. With the asterisks it looks like you have a flower on both sides of it.

unlived · Apr 26, 2022 at 07:54 AM

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

The cat is at the vet now. I hope he tolerates the anethesia well and they don't make him look too bad. I maintained my weight from yesterday. I was concerned about the carbs but it worked out. I am working on eating more later in the day then eating most of my calories before noon and basically be starving the rest of the day. So far I've done ok today with my hunger. I switched my meds around on Friday with my doctors permisson and it seems to have made a difference in my moods and anxiety but I do seem to be more hungry. I've been using a lot of distraction and drinking unsweetened iced teas. I hope I get used to the change. I have my trip tommorow and I have my dinners planned out but I'm still unsure on the rest of the days. I'm thinking all the moving around will help since I barely leave my house.

I’m losing weight at the moment and I’m having success eating most of my calories at night….. I eat like 400 calories during the day and the rest at dinner. I’ve lost 30kgs of Seroquel weight doing it this way (don’t know what that is in lbs) but I’m bigger than you to start with. I just find it’s easier to get through the day being hungry knowing I can eat at night rather than filling up early and then being hungry for hours.

Nammu · Apr 26, 2022 at 09:07 AM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Miss Mustachio caught in the act, this is the second time she stole the paper towel roll because I forgot to put it in a place she couldn't reach, she came running into my room carrying it again but this time I caught it in photos

bounty bandit indeed!

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Soupe du jour Elder Member Since Jun 2015 Location: Czechia Posts: 5,156 9 13.4k hugs given	Apr 26, 2022 at 07:11 AM #1178 @Beth, I like your modified screen name. With the asterisks it looks like you have a flower on both sides of it. __________________ Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 600 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia.