Bipolar check-in #64

Take your time.

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Originally Posted by Sapien I ran today! First time running since I broke my hip, didn't even hurt that much! Of course I only ran about 200 yards but it felt good. I can't wait until my car repairs are done so I can go hiking! Tomorrow I think I'm going to run around the block which is about a quarter mile. --- sending hugs to everyone who's struggling

That is ***wonderful!***

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Originally Posted by Nammu Oh yeah, Beth I remember the 80’s too, they just threw benzos at everyone back then. My first diagnosis was ptsd and I was so skinny from the anxiety and lack of sleep and they had me on that long one that you could snap into three tiny pieces. Can’t recall which benzo that was but I’m so surprised I could walk on the amount of meds they had me on back then. I became so dislocated because of the meds. My night meds caused me to sleepwalk. I’d get picked up by the cops and somehow they knew to take me to hospitals instead of jail. Thank god. I don’t know how I avoided getting physically hooked on the benzos from those days I was on them for years. I was on all of them at one time or another. Seemed like it was the med of choice back then. Since I recovered from the ptsd my anxiety has been much better and no one has suggested meds for anxiety since about 10 years ago. All that therapy paid off.

It is a blessing when therapy helps that much.

Yes, the breakable benzo is Xanax. And that was something notable - benzos were made to be easily swallowed, they taste slightly sweet, and they are easy to break.

Ahhh yes the cost of everything is crazy but it sounds like you’ve been busy but enjoyable.

I will check that person out. It’s pretty shocking just how many people die of Heroin over doses. Very sad.

I was only to NYC once back in my 20’s a friends daughter lived in NJ so we went into the city for a couple days. Was very enjoyable. We walked our feet right off lol so much to see and do.

When do you head back ? Have you any plans to make a trip to France in search of a real home ? I hope you can find a great place to settle.

Hugs !

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed Today is my normal therapy day and I'm about 20 minutes away from my transference T's office. How ironic. I'm feeling some things I'm not gonna lie. Not just about her though. Just about the move in general. Its been almost a year. May 11th. Today has been good. Just the normal shopping I do when I'm in my homestate. Later we have dinner plans at a familar resturant with my uncle and his girlfriend. I've always been very close to my uncle and nothing changed between us when I came out. He actually called me to talk to me after my mom texted him and he told me how accepting he was of me and stuff. Anyways, I've been close to his girlfriend too and she is accepting but not quite understanding. She still accidently deadnames me and makes iffy comments but she means well. I hope it won't be a late night.

Wow, your uncle really loves you. That's what life is about. I had an awesome uncle, I really miss him. Enjoy your dinner.

Thanks for checking in, Rainbow!

Hey all!
I should probably make a separate thread, but i'm pressed for time and also not feeling great.
Just had a thought or question, rather, do many of you have your bipolar in check? you don't have to answer if this is invasive. I'm just wondering because ever since being on a stabilizer, I have not gone up. Is this normal? I seem to recall hearing a lot of stories to the contrary. That's what I was getting at. I understand meds don't work for all, but is it normal to like never go up? I don't know. I kinda miss being high (since I'm always just kinda low now)

Beth ! Just going to hug you tight okay ?

Nammu I hear you on the throwaways. So much stuff is so cheaply made yet expensive that it winds up needing to be replaced. Sad

Wild. I’m glad that you’re not worse that actually means alot ( I know the feeling)

Bluebird. Yay ! The day has arrived you are expanding your family ! I can’t wait to see pictures

Pinny. Good for you going back and things going well. Yes I’d not give a damn about what others think. Take care of you.

Whatever. I just kept eating last night after dinner. I was so mad at myself this morning when my blood glucose was elevated. But I can’t change what I did to myself. So I’m giving myself kindness and grace. Don’t beat yourself up too bad

MM wow I can’t believe Miguel is finishing college. I remember when he was just a lil boy. Time is flying !

Jennifer. Oh I’m so sorry your Mom is going with you on vacation I agree you need a full break. Are you still out and about with friends ??

Rainbow.. so great to see your post. You take all the time you need . You know where I am day or night

I saw Richard today. We started a new Type of Therapy called Internal Family Systems ( IFS ) few weeks ago….it’s really interesting. It’s confusing at times but so far it’s okay. Im hoping that it will continue to help me understand myself better. I’m really interested in continuing it.

Steve worked a lot on my car the last week it’s been needing lots of maintenance work. I glad it’s done. I still have no idea how we will ever fix the truck we owe almost 1 1/2 years left to pay for it so not sure how we can afford a new engine until we no longer have a truck payment. I hate having just one vehicle.

I am pulling out a frozen pizza for dinner. It’s a mushroom and truffle oil and it’s very tasty…. I just have zero ambition to actually cook a “ meal “

Started season 3 of Stranger Things last night. Amanda bought us the series for Christmas. It’s a oddly enjoyable series.

Hope everyone is having a good day. The weather here is glorious low 70’s and sunny. All our trees are coming back so pretty. Love it ! I’d prefer no pollen tho lol . I have allergy meds and Sudafed so it’s tolerable.



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Originally Posted by giddykitty Hey all! I should probably make a separate thread, but i'm pressed for time and also not feeling great. Just had a thought or question, rather, do many of you have your bipolar in check? you don't have to answer if this is invasive. I'm just wondering because ever since being on a stabilizer, I have not gone up. Is this normal? I seem to recall hearing a lot of stories to the contrary. That's what I was getting at. I understand meds don't work for all, but is it normal to like never go up? I don't know. I kinda miss being high (since I'm always just kinda low now)

Hi gkitty, When I was on a higher dose of Lamictal I had no "up" at all. It felt flat to me and I hated that feeling. Now I'm on only 150mg of Lamictal and I don't have that flat feeling anymore. Of course, I don't feel quite as stable, either.

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Originally Posted by ~Christina Beth ! Just going to hug you tight okay ? ..... I saw Richard today. We started a new Type of Therapy called Internal Family Systems ( IFS ) few weeks ago….it’s really interesting. It’s confusing at times but so far it’s okay. Im hoping that it will continue to help me understand myself better. I’m really interested in continuing it. Steve worked a lot on my car the last week it’s been needing lots of maintenance work. I glad it’s done. I still have no idea how we will ever fix the truck we owe almost 1 1/2 years left to pay for it so not sure how we can afford a new engine until we no longer have a truck payment. I hate having just one vehicle. I am pulling out a frozen pizza for dinner. It’s a mushroom and truffle oil and it’s very tasty…. I just have zero ambition to actually cook a “ meal “ Started season 3 of Stranger Things last night. Amanda bought us the series for Christmas. It’s a oddly enjoyable series. Hope everyone is having a good day. The weather here is glorious low 70’s and sunny. All our trees are coming back so pretty. Love it ! I’d prefer no pollen tho lol . I have allergy meds and Sudafed so it’s tolerable. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Thank you so much, dear Christina. I love your tight hug.

More and more, I've heard about IFS. I am looking forward to you letting us know how you feel about it.

Pizza sounds so good right now. Enjoy!

Ugh. David and I raised the kids with only 1 vehicle in the family. I don't even know how we did it. I don't think I'd have the energy to manage that now. Having to pay on the truck while it's not running is a shyte position to be in. I feel so bad for you, especially because you're in the country.

I saw something about Stranger Things. I'll check into it. I need a new show.

Have a beautiful evening. How's your pain level been?

Growing up for a long while we had just one car but my father worked an hour away and it was impossible for my parents especially if myself or brother had a Doctor appt. I was forever sick with ear infections so we had a second car which no one had 2 around me back then.

I am really hyped with IFS it’s a different approach. I will let you know how it goes.

Glad my hug helps somehow

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Dinner was great. My uncles girlfriend didn't come. We had a table way in the back next to the window so I didn't have much anxiety. The food was really good. I had a grilled steak salad with some kind of citrus dressing.

When mum first had my sister she was out in the country and didn’t know how to drive but they did have a bus that went into town and over to other nearby towns. There were trains too. But then everyone had two cars and they stopped public transportation. Now people have no choice but to have a car.

Gkitty I’ve been lucky with latuda it’s kept me very stable without the flatness of lamictal. I do understand what you mean by missing the ups but I’m happy not to have them now as they are terribly hard physically. Sure mood wise I’m spinning and happy but it’s too hard on me physically to be manic as I don’t sleep.

New check-in thread, Bipolar check-in #65.