Bipolar check-in #67

I haven't posted or followed much in quite some time. I think many will not recognize my handle. I read than some folks are in recovery periods, some hitting low spots, and those in stasis...or whatever you call it. I've been down & very up since I was here last. Must have been February I went through a vicious depressive spell. May was my no sleep, spend on the internet & stay awake for days month. Lessons were learned...for now.

I don't hang around as much because my partner of 19-years retired cat the end of last June & I've found it harder to justify long periods in front of the computer screen. That, & I want to stay out of the doghouse. I think of all my friends here on a regular basis, but unless I follow religiously, it's easy to lose context. I guess you could call me a "peeker."

Wherever you are, & whatever space you're occupying, take care!

Mike

I accidently posted this on the old one.

The hida scan came back normal. No clue where the pain is coming from and why its happening. The doctor is prescrbing something I take 4 times a day and says to avoid fattening foods. My mom is super pissed he doesn't seem to be taking this seriously. But GI doctors are notorious for not taking people seriously. The last GI doctor I saw once and never went back because he was an asshole with bad bedside manners. Anyways I'd rather take a pill to get rid of this then go under antheseia or have surgery. Maybe I'm so currently calm about the situation because I took an Advil a couple hours ago and only had vegetables to eat in 20 hours. He didn't tell me to lose weight though. Or that it would help.

I heard on this podcast that you don't mess with a big persons food and you don't mess with a small persons food and she was talking about how some of her soy something or another was missing. I think this person is just a secret fat phobic but she is kinda right when she says you don't mess with that stuff. I got super pissed this morning when I thought my vegetables from yesterday were missing....

I'm pretty sure I have ADD. I just don't know where to begin to get a diganois and possibly meds. I can't concentrate on anything. I turn on the TV and see an episode is 45 minutes and I know I can't deal with it. I haven't watched AGT this year because I can't stand concentrating on a show for 2 hours. Same with reading. I really like the book I'm reading. I just can't focus for me then 15 pages. Theres so much I want to do and watch but its just I can't focus.

I haven't posted or followed much in quite some time. I think many will not recognize my handle. I read than some folks are in recovery periods, some hitting low spots, and those in stasis...or whatever you call it. I've been down & very up since I was here last. Must have been February I went through a vicious depressive spell. May was my no sleep, spend on the internet & stay awake for days month. Lessons were learned...for now.

I don't hang around as much because my partner of 19-years retired cat the end of last June & I've found it harder to justify long periods in front of the computer screen. That, & I want to stay out of the doghouse. I think of all my friends here on a regular basis, but unless I follow religiously, it's easy to lose context. I guess you could call me a "peeker."

Wherever you are, & whatever space you're occupying, take care!

Mike

Lots of things can cause you not focus as well. Especially anxiety which you seem to have a lot of. If you had add they’d probably have noticed it before now as it is something pretty complicated and it’s more than just inability to focus.

My sister called. Dad now needs a heart catheterization and then a bipass. I firmly believe that if I hadn't insisted that we send in the police that he would've died- if not that day then soon after.