[MuddyBoots]

I feel like there are two personalities inside me: a sociopath who thinks "don't care about anything and you can do anything" and deep hidden down a ball of pureness that is using that sociopathy for protection because it's been hurt a lot and is sick of it.
Idk maybe it's more of a trauma thing now that i think about it.

[Soupe du jour]

I think it's possible for you to experience such feelings. Certainly we all have our manic or mixed manic selves, stable selves, and the depressed self that we know isn't us at it's baseline. I've heard others describe it as a sort of multiple personality. I don't see it quite that way for me, though. I recognize the same self in all of those states, but see it more as "the best of me", "the tortured me", and the "baseline me". Obviously when I'm manic I'm out of control with an impulsivity that does lead me to do and say things I wouldn't do in other mental states. I certainly wouldn't say that everything I did/said when manic was reflective of my true desires or feelings. I'm definitely no ultra pure angel in any state. Frankly, I wouldn't want to be. No fun! But I'm also not the polar opposite.

[*Beth*]

Hey there, Boots. I'm voting for...that feeling is the result of trauma. I have it, too.

[Fuzzybear]

Hey MuddyBoots. I think that the feeling is the result of trauma (I have something similar)

Good insight, thanks for posting this!