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#21
So all that long rant about not having bipolar2, well, I'm starting to experience some of those hypomanic tendencies or things leading up to it. Last 3 or so days I've been waking up at 8am unable to go to sleep again, even if I'm tired or went to bed at 2am and tossed and turned all night. I'm also more chatty, i feel this restless energy, and I'm really obsessing over an actor too. Oh and the accompanying restless mind and ruminating thoughts and musical earworms...
I'm not spending money or driving recklessly, but i have more fear of spending money, stronger than any impulse, and i don't drive anymore, so i don't speed (anymore. But i use to) I've never ever really gone on any large spending spree, so that's mostly why my pdoc disregarded my symptoms. I don't know. Maybe I'm not hypomanic, but it surely feels familiar to the days when i had insomnia for 4 days and felt euphoria for like the first time in my life. I'm trying not to do anything too exciting today, although that got kinda depressing so i looked up happy pics of that actor and felt better. Oh yeah, and I'm struggling to eat today, despite being hungry. Just not really interested, but I'm trying to force things down now. Thoughts? __________________ Celexa (Citalopram) 20mg Levothyroxine .75mg Liothyronine 5MCG (2x daily) Probiotics And a whole slew of vitamin and herbal supplements. |
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The label (diagnose) is not so important. It is that you get the right help adapted for your symptoms that is important. You can read in DSM V at the library. Your GP has the opportunity to use the Unspecified ... diagnose in the bipolar category if he is in doubt. It can take years to diagnose bipolar. As far as I have come to understand it "large spending spree" is not part of bipolar II. Write down your symptoms and make a new appointment with your GP and be active (talk). You can seek another doctor for a second opinion if you feel unsure. I hope that it is not your husband's attitude that have had impact on you. Mental problems (sickness) is just as real as physical disorders. Am sending good hopes your way! __________________ There is always hope ... |
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Rosi700, I'll reply when i get home
Right now, H and I are taking him in to the hospital to figure out why he's been suffering so much with his sinuses. We think it's a virus. He hasn't been breathing well and even mentioned like shortness of breath last night (I'm a little worried) plus the whole coldflu like symptoms. Really hoping it's not too serious and more importantly, that they have something he can take to feel better as soon as today. Could use some good thoughts right now. Hugs __________________ Celexa (Citalopram) 20mg Levothyroxine .75mg Liothyronine 5MCG (2x daily) Probiotics And a whole slew of vitamin and herbal supplements. |
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First off, thank you so much for your good thoughts about my husband. He got some antibiotics, and we're hoping that will help some, but unfortunately, it sounds like he's going to need another surgery and possibly more every 5 years or maybe even sooner! It's been a pretty depressing day, to be honest. Which makes it even harder now for me to reply to your first post (cuz i'm in a mood and already stressed about his health and the travel and the costs). I mean, I had legit concerns, but I probably maybe shouldn't have posted about it unless it was super concerning. I mean, because I've been sleeping better now (i mean, i did stay up late last night and was forced to wake up early today to go to the docter, but I was still feeling sleepy like I could have slept AND I took a long nap today and even a short one last night) But yeah, I kinda worry about people's opinion of me here in this subforum, to be honest. I don't want them to think I'm making light of bipolar if I don't have it but I keep whining about "symptoms". But more to your post. Yeah, of course hubby's opinion has an influence on me. I mean, as much as I wish he wouldn't say things the way he says them, he does have some valid points. Like the cost and the legitamacy of the care here. And unfortunately, I've had experiences to both of those things. Like ...oh i'm too tired to go into much detail, but one example is how my one therapist basically just read word for word from a book for our DBT therapy. Like geesus! I could do that at home, for free, on my computer! And because she was a specialist, she cost even more than regular therapy (which was actually better, but still had it's own issues for me) So like, it's me too that struggles with wanting or having to use the local mental health care system here. And unfortunately, I've talked to my GP about things and while he's helped some, he keeps referring me to see those who specialize in the subject...and he suggested those closer to home (cuz he's like an hour away). So yeah, frustrating! But again, I'm feeling better now, so I just feel stupid about my original post (i mean original to our conversation). *facepalms __________________ Celexa (Citalopram) 20mg Levothyroxine .75mg Liothyronine 5MCG (2x daily) Probiotics And a whole slew of vitamin and herbal supplements. |
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I hope that your husband will become better soon! Take your time, giddykitty, to get used to live with your special difficulties, either it has this or that diagnose. The only "thing" that matters is that you have the best life that is possible for you. You can go back to your GP later if you think that bipolar is the most right for you. May be it is an idea to search at Amazon for a self-help book? Don't worry about if it was right to post "that post". We all have our days when we posted something we regret. If one shall use money on therapy, at least one has to feel that the therapist is right. Sending good thoughts! __________________ There is always hope ... |
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#27
I'm not really sure where to post this
but i'm feeling ignored today not necessarily on here, I actually mean on my social media account, but it could be here too. I realize not many people read my blog posts i'm feeling really depressed today. I'm feeling really sad about the fact that certain things in life I'll never have or never achieve, because I'm a loser. I feel stupid. I get easily frustrated and lose sight of goals... that is, if i even have goals in the first place. Everything seems so like i don't even know. I'll shut up now. Not like anyone wants to hear me speak anyway. __________________ Celexa (Citalopram) 20mg Levothyroxine .75mg Liothyronine 5MCG (2x daily) Probiotics And a whole slew of vitamin and herbal supplements. |
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#28
ok, some of that was just ********
the **** that comes to mind when i'm feeling down the truth is this well, i thought i could have some fun in the community with fellow fans/stans of this actor, and I'm ok as long as I'm replying to their posts, but if i make my own posts...silence. It's about being ignored in the community. it's making me feel bad for my obsession. i really don't think i obsess or behave any different that others in the community. why do they have so many likes and I get the silence? __________________ Celexa (Citalopram) 20mg Levothyroxine .75mg Liothyronine 5MCG (2x daily) Probiotics And a whole slew of vitamin and herbal supplements. |
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Don't be so hard on your self.
This forum is pretty large and there have been some post to you. not many I supposed,I am sorry that you are having a rough time right now. things will change as they always do. We are living in constant flux. nice to see you post here. bizi __________________ 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, 4-5 peri-colace for chronic constipation multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine at noon PRN Remeron 15mg at night, zyprexa10mg under tongue, requip2mg. |
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thanks @bizi @Fuzzybear !
things have actually been looking up lately. and I was mostly talking about a different community that I was struggling to make connections (the actor's fan community) But now things have changed. I've met a few really friendly folks and have chatted nice with many more. It's been fun! Oh yeah, so about H (husband). Sounds like he will need another surgery (?) Well, he actually saw the specialist today who prescribed a different kind of nasal spray, but unfortunately, our insurance won't cover it. So I actually don't know what the plan is now. Yeah, it's a bit disheartening... He has seem to get a bit better though with the antibiotics. Today might be his last day on those. Hopefully the worst is over...again tho, probably looking at more surgery and that's a huge pain! :'( But before all of that, we are going out of town again this weekend and then next weekend, we'll be back and have a house full of guests for the next couple of months. So this is kinda like my farewell for now post. I'll be pretty busy and not sure if or how much time I'll have for the forums. We will see, I guess. But I want to wish all a happy summer! See ya around when I get some time again! __________________ Celexa (Citalopram) 20mg Levothyroxine .75mg Liothyronine 5MCG (2x daily) Probiotics And a whole slew of vitamin and herbal supplements. |
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#32
Hi!
Popping in for a quick minute. Been sick with the cold flu for the past like 4 days. Been pretty out of it. Thankfully, my sister-in-law could hold down the fort while H and I go through this. Today was better though. I'm hoping I'll be nearly over this tomorrow. Have been having fun with the family. Haven't done any long travels yet, but we took a trip to the mall about an hour from here one weekend, and did some local trips to the library. Not to mention, we (well, they. I slept in that day) went to the July 4th parade, and we watched the local fireworks shows. Got the inlaw nephews in touch with my sister's kids. They get along well. H and I have plans to take them to our alma mater (which is a few hours away) one weekend, and an amusement park another weekend getaway. There is also the other site we want to take them too that we found in our neighboring state. Hopefully, we'll get it all in before they leave. I think they have like 4 weeks left. Oh geez! I completely forgot that my last post was about H requiring additional surgery. Well, now I've been to the doctor about this ganglion cyst that I've had on my wrist for a few months now, and it sounds like the solution is to get it cut out. So I'm scheduled for surgery too. Oh God, I hope it's nothing as bad as H's was, but it will still be an inconvenience, because I'm always using my hands, even my left (non dominant) one! I'm nearly ambidextrous now. But yeah, I'll be unable to use it for a few weeks. The whole thing is stressing me out and making me wonder if I even should go through with it! I have been wearing a wrist brace and the doc says that's been helping to shrink it...what if it goes away on it's own? I might still be left with the wrist pain though, but what if the surgery doesn't even take away the pain, ya know? ok, i think y'all are pretty much all caught up on my life __________________ Celexa (Citalopram) 20mg Levothyroxine .75mg Liothyronine 5MCG (2x daily) Probiotics And a whole slew of vitamin and herbal supplements. |
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#33
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My thought on it is to get it done and over with so you don't have to stress with it. Because the cyst can always return. Donna |
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Hmm maybe. But my concern is if the cyst shrinks too small, how will they even know where to cut? Also, what if it doesn't take away my pain, and i go through the pain of surgery for nothing? (I'm scared based on H's past experience. I can't lose use of my hands! 😭 )
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I was gonna write more, but I'm too depressed or something. I dunno! Mostly recovered from the cold, but have this stubborn cough that's really irritating me and i dunno what people are cooking, but it's aggravating the cough and I'm just already in a mood! Bleh!
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#36
Hi!
Well, I'm exhausted again and also flaring up (from the heat affecting my condition). It sucks! I'm not gonna write a lot Just that we went to the science museum today and that I love my inlaws, especially my little nephew. I want to keep him, he's so sweet and precious! <3 goodnight! __________________ Celexa (Citalopram) 20mg Levothyroxine .75mg Liothyronine 5MCG (2x daily) Probiotics And a whole slew of vitamin and herbal supplements. |
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Well, summer has been over for me for a month now and it's been really hard for me to get into a "proper" routine (just like before we had guests). ugh! it sucks! it's depressing!
but I will keep trying. before I got sick last week (stomachaches for like 3 straight days), I had gotten into a proper exercise routine. i need to get back into it again now. um, oh, my surgery has actually been cancelled. turns out my primary doctor was concerned about recovery for me, since I'm on a high dose aspirin regiment and can't go off it for even a day...well, the going off it was the typical protocol for the week before surgery, but even if i could keep taking it, it could interfere with recovery meds or with me bleeding too much and not healing properly. scary stuff! so yeah, it's not worth the risk. i'm getting ignored again on socials, but thankfully, not completely. I still have a few folks that take care of me. and this isn't to say that people aren't nice enough to me when i seek them out. it's just that people are mostly so consumed with their own selves, they don't have time to care about me or my needs. sigh and I had a website where I could watch old television shows, but tonight, it doesn't want to work. so i don't have a fun, relaxing thing to do tonight...only chores. (always chores ugh) __________________ Celexa (Citalopram) 20mg Levothyroxine .75mg Liothyronine 5MCG (2x daily) Probiotics And a whole slew of vitamin and herbal supplements. |
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#38
When you said socials did you mean social media?
I would say screw them! bizi __________________ 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, 4-5 peri-colace for chronic constipation multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine at noon PRN Remeron 15mg at night, zyprexa10mg under tongue, requip2mg. |
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bizi,
yeah soc media. i havent like done anything drastic like unfriend them, but i'm keeping them at arms length. i'm focusing more on the people who do show me love. __________________ Celexa (Citalopram) 20mg Levothyroxine .75mg Liothyronine 5MCG (2x daily) Probiotics And a whole slew of vitamin and herbal supplements. |
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Hey everyone!
This is gonna be short for now cuz it's already after 3am Eek! But I just got an email from this forum about a thread update and was missing folks and wanted to say hi. (oh, actually, technically the email was for neurotalk, but the folks i spoke to had to move here, so i am here) Hope everyone is doing alright! Love and hugs! <3 __________________ Celexa (Citalopram) 20mg Levothyroxine .75mg Liothyronine 5MCG (2x daily) Probiotics And a whole slew of vitamin and herbal supplements. |
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