Bipolar check-in #68

I’m on a few medications that take away my appetite and I’ve learnt that I have to eat anyway because I was getting pretty sick when I wasn’t eating. Zero energy, low blood sugar, headaches, muscle weakness that made it hard to walk or pick things up. literally feeling like I was going to die and then the mood changes on top of that. To be healthy and keep your mind and body going you need to eat whether you have an appetite or not. And for weight loss the less you eat eventually the less you lose.

Then go Saturday.

The sleep study went ok. I fell asleep at 6:30. I woke up once at 8:30 for some reason but got back to sleep immediatly. Then at 9 something I woke up in the middle of a Lady A song because I was spooked by all the wires and the oxygen thing. For some reason the first thought I had was "something suddenly came up" from The Brady Bunch. I got back to sleep around 10:30 and then slept until 5:15. I know I woke up a few times but then fell back asleep immediatly but I am pretty sure they have enough info. I'm not sure what the results will be to be honest.

Anyways I ordered a couple pairs of similar jeans from Hollister. They were on sale and I had a 20% coupon and a $5 reward. So I'll take the Old Navy ones back.

I feel fine today. Tired from last night since I didn't sleep as good as I have been but my moods and anxiety are still fine. My mom asked me this morning if I wanted to see my pdoc in person in September. Which means going out of state and staying in a hotel. I did really want to see him in person but I didn't want to bring it up because we are already going on vacation in the middle of August. But if she is suggesting it then I'm totally on board.

The pharmacy is filling my valium now without an issue. I'm glad I had no issues getting by without my normal dose for a couple days but I was starting to feel things a little bit with just 1.5 mil. Just some physical side effects I think are withdrawels. They don't normally have an issue filling it 2 days early. I may try to stick to 2 a day instead of 3 though.

Much love to YOU dear Beth

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Originally Posted by Nammu @Beth n Yeah I think wildflower is ip Ouch, my arms are so sore. I had my second shingles shot in one arm and a pneumonia shot in the other. After that I had to submit to the mammogram machine. Then last night I tried the edible gummy’s again. This time two of them, I was slightly buzzed but it didn’t help with sleep. I’ll give it another try maybe next week? I think if I try 3 times I can say I gave it the old college try. The insurance refused to cover the 1.75 mg of ambien and it was over $150 dollars for 14 pills. So I’m going from 2.5 to nothing starting Sunday night. But so far I haven’t had any physical withdrawals like I did when I tried myself to go off. So I’m hopeful. Sending calming peaceful vibes to everyone here. ✨

Thank you for the vibes ~*~

I'm so sorry about your sleep. What a misery.
Insurance...I won't even get started...

I didn't have a single reaction from the covid vax, but I sure did from the shingles vaccine! Had a fever and felt like I had the flu, felt super sleepy. Fortunately, the side-effects lasted only 1/2 a day, maybe a bit longer.

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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom My guests are finally leaving. We ran out of money for gas haven't seen miguel in 2 or more weeks. We see him tomorrow. I'm so excited.

They're finally leaving!!! Wohoo!

I would definitely (and gladly) make the journey to the mental health drop-in clinic, but my car is at an 1/8 of a tank of gas, gas is just under $6. It would cost me minimum $24 to make it on gas. And I have enough quarters to do laundry, that's all I have.

The GREAT news is that I took 250mg of Lamictal last night (I'm prescribed 200mg) and woke up feeling like a functional human being. I'm not crying, I feel that "more objective" feeling that comes when med is doing it's job.

I will take the same dose tonight and see if the improvement continues and call the clinic Monday morning. The challenge will be to convince med due that the increased dose is necessary, as he's convinced that 200mg is tops. But I have been on 300 mg before. He is a reasonable person, though, so hopefully he'll be flexible. However, I'm guessing that he's going to suggest adding in either Depakote or lithium, neither of which I'm thrilled about.

Ugh. This has been a bad one.

As for hiring someone to care for the cats, there are vet techs who are familiar with feline diabetes and who will come to a home. The major issue is $$$$$. It's just plain not available. I can't afford gas, let alone a cat sitter, which sounds to me at this point like a rock star dream.

So x fingers crossed x that the Lamictal does the trick.

Much love all around and hopes for a super Saturday for all of us!

And thanks to each of you for the friendship and support! Wow, does that help.

I have a job offer! It's the 30-ish hour job, but set in a different city. The interviewer says she can promise more hours there! Luckily, it's about the same drive to the new city.

I get onboarding stuff in on Monday!

@Aurelius710 congratulations 🎊🎈🍾🎉

Congrats on the new job, Aurelius, you'll do great!

Been feeling pretty good lately. But today I'm just feeling bad towards my job and my relationship and just wanting to lay in bed. I felt great this morning. Just came on all of a sudden a few hours ago.

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Beth !!! Are you feeling any better ???! I’m very worried about you. I understand that distraught feeling. Catch me on Facebook anytime !

Soupe so you found a place you like ?? That’s great ! Sure moving is stressful but at least it will be your home !

Jennifer… you Amaze me with your goal of finding what you need to fill your days.

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It’s still raining a but we just hit what my Dad always called a “ Gully washer” almost 40 mins of heavy rain. We are under a Flood watch . We live on a ridge so no way will we flood. The temp dropped over 20 degree! Feels amazing. We have steady rain over the next 4-5 hours !! My internet is cutting and out and that’s just fine !

Well a contact person called me about the Voc Rehab. It’s a unbelievable process. I have a case worker that I need to talk to next Thursday. But.. They are sending me medical release forms. She said it takes 45 -90 day to get medical records and verify I truly fit there criteria to help honestly I think I just need to get a job on my own I simple can’t wait that long nor do I want to jump through 117 hoops. I’m going to talk to Richard on Wednesday then this case worker Thursday. I think it’s just going to be a waste of my time. Maybe that case worker will tell me how we will explain away years of my not working.

PSA… People check with your insurance. My Pharmacy said they can file to get 1-2 Covid tests a month for me.

Better hit send before my internet cuts out again !

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Yes I got four boxes of home
Covid tests for free with my insurance! Ask about it!

Did you ask pharmacy or the front counter people?

Thanks!

Will wonders never cease? Every time I go somewhere I ask mum if she needs anything. Usually I have to be watching out for stuff she needs. Like 2 years ago her slippers had a hole in them, so I bought her new ones. But today she spoke up and said she needed new slippers. So I bought two home for her. They didn’t have any ankle high ones but I’ll keep my eye out. Soon fall stuff should be hitting the stores. Mostly they had slide ones and she likes a full slipper.

I’m doing ok. Tired still waking all hours tonight is my last night at 2.5, then nothing. If I’m not sleeping by the time I see pdoc I’m going to ask to go back on the ambien at 10 mg. That’s less than half of what I was taking but the Bella something doesn’t sound much better.

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Originally Posted by Aurelius710 I have a job offer! It's the 30-ish hour job, but set in a different city. The interviewer says she can promise more hours there! Luckily, it's about the same drive to the new city. I get onboarding stuff in on Monday!

***Fantastic!***

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Originally Posted by Nammu Will wonders never cease? Every time I go somewhere I ask mum if she needs anything. Usually I have to be watching out for stuff she needs. Like 2 years ago her slippers had a hole in them, so I bought her new ones. But today she spoke up and said she needed new slippers. So I bought two home for her. They didn’t have any ankle high ones but I’ll keep my eye out. Soon fall stuff should be hitting the stores. Mostly they had slide ones and she likes a full slipper. I’m doing ok. Tired still waking all hours tonight is my last night at 2.5, then nothing. If I’m not sleeping by the time I see pdoc I’m going to ask to go back on the ambien at 10 mg. That’s less than half of what I was taking but the Bella something doesn’t sound much better.

I think the 10mg. is a great idea

I’ve had two friends die in two days. Three friends in two months. This is too much