[Fuzzybear]

I guess some might be sick of my posts re DBT. (or just sick of me I suppose). I hope it might help someone who is also struggling though (but maybe not )

Rough week. Trying to keep my **** together. I'll keep my **** in this thread so as not to clog up the board (more than I already have...)

And I don't want to scream at papa bear I've been close a couple of times. ''People'' have said he deserves someone ''better'' than me. I agree.

I've sat at the screen thinking of deleting this. I don't deserve to take up any space (or maybe that's an old abusive tape)

Possible trigger:

Meds haven't been kind to me. It was probably a mistake mentioning them again. Or that **** med dude. But it might help someone else (hopefully) That's my purpose in life, to .... deleted.

Possible trigger:

Feel ****ing worthless. Wishing I had a way to remove my presence from this planet. I have 2 bottles of seroquel. I don't think they would work and I couldn't do that to papa bear.

Maybe the benzo taper is contributing to this. I think I want to stop them.

Not keeping up with the check in thread currently. Trying some mindfulness, one of my teachers tried this and it helped them... for a while.. I hadn't really tried it for long before (had meant to)

[MrAbbott]

Hi Fuzzy, I truly dunno how to help you best. Just wanted to tell you I've past a couple of extremely rough patches in my life and when the waves went back to calmness I could see the horizon again. I couldn't do much till it happened, but I hope you know IT WILL happen. I was greatly surprised to see many "friends" abandon me in those times, but those few who really mattered surprised and moved me greatly. Please don't lose hope. Hugs from Spain.

[*Beth*]

Oh, Fuzzy! You most definitely do not post too much about DBT or about anything else...in fact, I am very interested in reading of your experiences with (or questions about) DBT. I don't have much experience with DBT, but I'm quite interested in learning more about it.

From the years of knowing you I am very sure that Papa Bear loves you a great lot. I seriously doubt that he thinks you aren't "good enough" for him - and I'm sorry for the jerk(s) who have said such a foolish thing. Never mind them!

I do want to mention the benzo taper, because I suspect that it may indeed be contributing to the way you're feeling. During my 3 experiences of trying to go off benzos I found that my emotional state was a wreck - and once I was even physically impaired from a benzo withdrawal attempt (my legs were very weak and shaky; just walking around the house was extremely difficult).

I'm sending you love, Fuzzy, and I hope you can get some good, solid sleep a bit later tonight.

[bizi]

hugs and love
((((((((HUGS))))))))
bizi

[Victoria'smom]