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#121
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I understood what you meant. I just saw an interview they did on CNN. Apparently the shooter was arrested back in 2021 for making bomb threats at his moms house or something. I guess Colorado Springs is a really unfriendly town and this bar was a safe place for these people. It is really depressing and it does worry me about my own safety even though I've never had any issues in any town or any state I've been to. __________________ Ridin' with Biden Last edited by Mountaindewed; Nov 21, 2022 at 08:07 AM.. |
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#122
I wonder if spleen damage can repair itself or if I should be concerned. I have pain in that area along with nausea and loss of appetite but, I don't want to go to the ER because of all the flu and RSV cases. I just overdid the working out last week.
I just saw the news and they said the flu cases are at a decade high and they are running out of beds for kids with RSV and there are staff shortages. Nobody wants to deal with a 29 year old guy who worked out too much when other people need the ER a lot more. So I'll hopefully be able to rest it off. __________________ Ridin' with Biden Last edited by Mountaindewed; Nov 21, 2022 at 08:36 AM.. |
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#123
Yeah, it's 15dF out as I type this. Little bit of flurry action yesterday that made for a fun ride home. I like snow, but I must say I'm glad I'm not in Buffalo where there's not even any downhill skiing! I guess there's always snowmobiling...
Feeling pretty weak and lightheaded after this morning's HIIT. I'm probably just dehydrated. Sending loving vibes to all __________________ Live life for nothing but that sweet sweet melody. |
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#124
Been a few days off, but what a few days! Saturday was the concert I'd been waiting for! I went to see a blues/blues-rock/rock artist perform at a small bar and grill venue with a stage and dance floor down in the nearby city. Small being about 100-150 during the peak. I also got to see two friends, a husband and wife team, who are band promoters and helped promote this particular event. I've been attending their shows in some form since I was 19, so I've know them over a decade now. COVID put the kibosh on a lot of chances to meet and catch up in person, so this felt like a homecoming!
My mom drove yesterday! Eight months ago she was effectively blind and now she drove herself (and me) to Sunday services with no real issue. A couple of "getting back into practice" moments that made my blood pressure go up, but nothing that made me think "Pull over! I'm driving!" Once we got there, I made sure people knew about my mom's achievement, since she's too modest to say anything! Brainstorming ideas for my writing contest story. I've got until the 29th to come up with a short story that fits the "mystery package at your door" prompt. I've got an idea coming together and with my day off, I might just get a draft finished! __________________ "I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain." -Litany Against Fear (Dune) |
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#125
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In all honesty, I'd be concerned if I were you, too. There are just so many hate-filled nutcases. Follow your instincts. __________________ |
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#126
I meant to mention, @Soupe du jour, that I think acquiring a pet is a wonderful idea, and a cat would be less (though certainly not no) maintenance, and as pets go, a peaceful being to share your home with. That said (and again, from my own experience...but I do have plenty of in this area), I'll throw out there that perhaps you might consider waiting until your own health is a bit more stable? The idea of having a pet sounds all-good and all-comfort. But really, there's sleep loss involved and a lot of worry (and of course, expense), stress, and sometimes unexpected major hour-to-hour anxiety + enormous commitment (for example, if a pet is diagnosed with diabetes - which is not terribly rare).
Rather than a moving, breathing stuffed animal I tend to liken a pet to having a preschooler around the house. Precious? Absolutely? Gives life meaning? Without a doubt? Sometimes exhausting? Yes. Just thoughts I'm tossing out there. __________________ |
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#127
Last Friday was the 1 year anniversary date of my wife's death. My daughter and I went to the Oregon coast and spread some of her ashes as different beaches along the coast. I am so depressed today.
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#128
I just came back from almost 4 hours at immediate care. Almost 2 hours just waiting to be seen. I thought I messed up something from working out too much. I was in so much pain. Also they thought it might be something cardiac because my blood pressure was kinda high and my heart was beating a bit fast. I'm ok. They gave me a shot of some pain med and did a chest xray and an EKG. Everything was ok so she said it was just muscular and told me to just take the working out easy and not do much for a few days and take OTC pain meds. The EKG lady was pretty sick, I hope with just a cold, and I wanted to say "don't they give you sick days?" But I didn't. Anyways I'm home now feeling decent mental health wise after getting my meds in me after being a few hours late. Physically I have to figure out food since I've barely eaten since yesterday or something. Probably part of my issue. This is the one time I'm glad to be between therapists because I'd get torn a new one for these last few days of restricting and over excercising.
A baby did get diagnosed with RSV while I was there. I'm eating oatmeal for dinner but I'm not hungry yet not really in much pain. So Idk. I know my overall anxiety was decent today. I went out grocery shopping this morning for the first time in awhile and this afternoon I had my North Face Pride shirt on and stuff and I wasn't very worried. I was just focused on my physical stuff mainly today. __________________ Ridin' with Biden Last edited by Mountaindewed; Nov 21, 2022 at 06:09 PM.. |
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#129
I luckily live in a very welcoming community. None of my doctors care that I'm trans and I've never had any issue in public. I do worry a bit about going back to work though but its not just being trans that worries me about returning theres other stuff.
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#130
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Hey, there, otroo. I posted to you weeks ago, asking how you were feeling with facing the holiday season. I'm so glad you've checked in. I hope that having your daughter along on the coast eased things a bit. The first anniversary is probably the hardest one to go through. I hope you do check in, just let us know how you're doing. __________________ |
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#131
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I'm amazed at how supportive your doctors are. That makes me feel happy. Hopeful. How strange that the EKG lady was sick. I'm very sure she has plenty of sick days. I read that Colorado Springs is supposedly a liberal town, a lot like Austin or Boulder. I dunno. I was in Boulder, people kept telling us "Oh, Boulder is like Berkeley!" Uh, no. Boulder was nothing like Berkeley, at all. But the shooter wasn't from Colo Springs, was he? __________________ |
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#132
Just battling this depression. It will seem the Topomax is kicking in and helping a bit, but all it takes it one tiny thing and it's like a house of cards, or building blocks tumbling down. I saw my t today; it was helpful to talk things out, gave me some relief. She told me that the optimal dose of Topomax is WAY higher than where I am with it. Obviously, I need a med that can be increased more quickly.
I have an appointment with med ding-dong tomorrow, but they messed up the time, which fortunately I caught. I hate that place. I'm going to lie and tell him my therapist suggested I ask him about Emsam. I need to do anything I can to deal with this, and it's not like he'll bother to contact her. I'm also telling him I'm having intermittent demon issues. I REFUSE to accept that someone has to suffer with treatable mental illness in 2022. The high on T-giving will be 68df/ low 40df. Great temperatures, if only the day was long and nightfall didn't come at 5p.m. It gets dark, I have to think about going to bed, and then I get so scared. I am going to try using CBT affirmations. Remembering them is tricky. But I can remember breathe in, breathe out, I am able to handle this. I was talking with a friend who has MDD, describing some of these symptoms to her. She said, hmm...these are not symptoms she's familiar with. I guess these are some ways in which BP and MDD differ. __________________ |
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#133
Soupe ….. I’m glad you were happy to have your husband home. Sometimes it’s good to have some hours a part. Steve really was lonely when I was working he said. I would get home and he’s all chatty and I’d be mentally hoping for so quiet lol.
Steve isn’t as improved as we had hoped for since he started back on the Spriva medication. Winter is here and cold weather can make breathing hard at times. He hurts all over most days. He’s so much better that a ways back where I literally thought I’d lose him at any minute. Life with diabetes can be a huge challenge. I hope you don’t wind up with it. It’s taken a long while to kind of get things on track. Lately I have been eating things and portions getting larger which I certainly know better. But stress of life can make it a challenge some days. I’ll keep my fingers crossed for you Beth… I’m sorry you have a ongoing situation with your med dude. I think sometimes they kind of run into a corner and not sure what to do to be honest. Not that it’s fair for you at all. Could you come up with a list of all meds you have tried over the years ? Maybe one of us can find something you haven’t tryed ??! Otroo.. I’m so glad that you took a trip with your daughter to celebrate your wife by spreading her ashes. Beyond.. are you feeling better being back home no fish to worry about ? I’m sure Abby is thrilled your back home ! Hugs to anyone I missed ~~~~~~~~ Tomorrow Im heading to the grocery store to pick up stuff I need to make Eggrolls on Thanksgiving. Here hoping they have it all ! I so don’t want to have to go to other stores. We shall see. Oh boy…. Having a puppy is soooo much work ! This Mutt is into everything and then some Since Steve can’t help when she first wakes up I manage it all and feeding. Once he’s up and able to manage I looked at Gus and ask him if he wants to go to bed. He jumps up fast and off to the bedroom we got for a nap ! I didn’t sleep today but it was nice to just hang out snuggling with Gus and him not worried the big black goof ball will get in his face. They did play more today outside. So progress. In a couple weeks Gus will be okay. Where did this year go ?! Like how can it be almost December ??? I remember my elderly family members use to say how time just goes so fast . I of course thought they were silly ! How true it is now that I’m older. Beds calling ! I hope to fall asleep early tonight. Hugs friends Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#134
Yes, I'm much better without the swimming dead fish in my life. Abby is very happy I'm home now that she forgave me. She wasn't thrilled I went to see Rick today but she seems to be over it. She's taken to getting in her toy box and throwing toys down the basement stairs. I'm glad she's having fun although she does startle me sometimes with the noises. Thanks for asking!
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#135
I'm depressed but optimistic we put in application 1 of 2 today. Not a place we want. It's not walkable and we can't afford our car, our pet fee, parking fee, and increased car insurance. I've been trying to Zone out playing GW2.I'm eating like one toddler meal a day. I hope we get it.
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#136
I almost cried. This morning, we had an online grocery service delivery. When unpacking the bags, one was particularly heavy. When we looked in, it was full of bags of carrots ("mrkev" in Czech). A lot! I accidentally ordered 6 kg (13 1/4 lbs) of them. I believe I know the issue. In Czech, the word "kus" meaning "item" is abbreviated "ks". I saw that and the photo above it showed one individual solitary carrot. Plus, the price seemed very low. However, the "one item" turned out to be a 1 kg bag.
Something like the above happened with bananas, when I thought I was ordering 3, but got three bunches. It also happened with fresh tuna. Instead of a tuna steak, I ended up getting a long slab the size of a full tenderloin of beef. Unlike the carrots and bananas, the tuna mistake was far more costly (won't say how much). The whole 6 kg of carrots only cost $3 (75 czk). Individual bananas are only about 35 cents (8 czk). I wish we could shop in physical stores more often, but Hubby hates going to them and I've grown lazy. Update: Hubby came up with the idea of contacting the parrot lady zoo employee neighbor of ours. She has at least 100 parrots of various types she takes care of just on her property. He said we may be considering adopting a new parrot in the future. A strategic starter so she didn't think us weirdos. Then he made the offer of the carrots. In any case, she accepted them. We'll bring all but one bag to her tomorrow. __________________ Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 600 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. Last edited by Soupe du jour; Nov 22, 2022 at 07:38 AM.. |
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#137
@Soupe du jour I can definitely empathize with the carrot issue. I've got my own stories of mistranslations bringing about... interesting results. Fun of travelling!
I was shopping in a Russian grocery store getting items for fried egg sandwiches. I wanted mayonnaise to put on it. I found the mayonnaise, grabbed what I thought was mayonnaise, put it on my sandwich... and found out rather dramatically that I bought horseradish. The ironic thing is mayonnaise and horseradish are not even close in Russian (майонез vs хрен), so it's conceivable I was nowhere near the mayonnaise to begin with! Ha ha! The other one involved me in a French speaking Swiss bar ordering what I thought was a half-pint of beer. In France, it translates to demi-litre. In Switzerland, demi-litre is exactly what it sounds like! So, I get a big whopping glass of beer at 3 in the afternoon and I was too polite to refuse. I finished it, but was well and truly buzzed! Glad you were able to offload the carrots to someone who needed them! __________________ "I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain." -Litany Against Fear (Dune) |
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#138
Yesterday was pretty uneventful. I saw my PsychNP via Zoom, told him of my writing (and writing) of which he asked if he could read a sample. He was pleasantly surprised with what he read from his reaction. Today is going to be equally dull. I might, depending on if she's still in our neck of the woods, visit a family friend today. Apart from that, I'm just homebound today!
Tomorrow, I get a work shift courtesy of my boss. I would have had a two day work week without it, so I'm definitely grateful! Today though, plenty of time to kill! __________________ "I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain." -Litany Against Fear (Dune) |
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#139
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__________________ Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#140
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__________________ Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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