[Victoria'smom]

So much anger and hate in me. What if someones propose is to seem nice but they're really evil and even they don't know it.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I think that questioning if you are evil is a sign you are not evil. I think an evil person just doesn't care what they do or say.

MM, you aren't evil. Really. I've never seen you so much as lose your temper on here in many years I've been on here.

[bizi]

I agree with beyondtherainbow....

You are not evil.
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[Fuzzybear]

I also agree, you are not evil

[Victoria'smom]

So with my intrusive thoughts I'm thinking I'm evil. The anti-christ (not saying I'm him/her) is to be perceived as nice.

[Victoria'smom]

H says I'm not evil. I'm having trouble believing it.

[Crazy Hitch]

Sorry you’re struggling with these thoughts. Your H is right though. You’re not evil.

[Victoria'smom]

We had a serious talk about how thoughts can't make you evil it's actions that matter. I told him I wish it was more logical and made more sense. He told me we don't need my delusions to make more sense. That would be worse. I don't even normally believe in evil but here I am debating if I am evil just for existing.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm atheist so I don't believe in demons.... But what if they believe in me? Could one technically get possessed without believing? And if so what does said possessed person do? I'm like 98% sure I'm not possessed just looking out for that 2%

[mote.of.soul]

'Inherently evil'. Hmm. 🤔I mean some people do truly awful things, unimaginable things, deliberately, knowing full well they are what are called 'acts of evil' as we all know, but it's not until they actually do them that the label of 'evil' begins to be applied. Meaning if there's evil it's measured by the person's actions. But guard the mind and refrain as best you can from 'misdeeds' so you can look at yourself and say, hey I'm good bro.🙂👍 That's how I look at it.

Edit: not that I'm perfect at all, far from it, but I don't trouble myself about 'evil' because I just want to improve and do my best and not hurt anyone or anything. That's it really.

[MuddyBoots]

Evil people generally know they're evil but either don't care or are proud of it.

[*Beth*]

^^^ What Boots said.

I have tormented myself over worrying if I'm evil and don't know it. But...exactly what Boots said.

[Travelinglady]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

So with my intrusive thoughts I'm thinking I'm evil. The anti-christ (not saying I'm him/her) is to be perceived as nice.

True, but you're certainly not the anti-Christ. If you were abused as a child, then that would explain strong anger and hate. Borderlines can be that way at times. (I haven't looked at your profile here.)

[Tart Cherry Jam]

I agree that all that questioning and worry in you strongly points to you not being evil at all.

[Victoria'smom]

Logically I know it's a mixed with some psychosis. It doesn't stop the 3 am what ifs though .

[Victoria'smom]

I can't be evil because I had empathy last night. This whole no meds thing is really messing me up.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I can't be evil because I had empathy last night. This whole no meds thing is really messing me up.

Yes and yes.

[Victoria'smom]

So angry 😡 H isn't doing well either. I'm convinced he's going to divorce me. He even dropped out of my nephew's wedding in April. Keeps saying it's not fair to my nephew and I deserve better. I view it as one more thing that my h will hold against himself, forever. My dog wouldn't leave him alone and it's now all 3 of us on a twin mattress.

Possible trigger:

I want to show how I feel on the inside , on the outside

but I'm taking my thorizen but I'll be out soon. H wants me to get my meds but not his. I feel weird going to urgent Care and asking for psych meds. Not even knowing if we can pay for them. At this point if we don't do something fast one of us will end up in the hospital or worse. I really don't know what to do.

[Fuzzybear]

[Death of a Salesman]

How does one know if they are not inherently evil?
In my personal opinion, there is no good or evil. These are terms that humans use to judge how they see each other on a societal scale.
What is evil today may be good tomorrow.
What is good today may be evil tomorrow.
Personally, my answer? Staying true to yourself and carving your own path is what is most important.
Do not stress about what other people believe to be a standard. Remember that the person who is most familiar with you - is yourself.
I hope all is well with you. It's good to see you on here and reaching out.

[bizi]

You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
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"DESIDERATA" by Max Ehrmann

[Fuzzybear]

I love the Desiderata

[Hexagon]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

So much anger and hate in me. What if someones propose is to seem nice but they're really evil and even they don't know it.

Evil people have no empathy. They can’t put themselves in other peoples situations. Also, they are not aware of any kindness at all. They are just spreading their hate and venom to make themselves heard. So more will agree with them - nevertheless what it is about.

I’m thinking especially when some here so called “adult” swedes on Twitter or other social media use their accounts that way. To mock and humiliate other people. Even to separate refugees from refugees (MENA-refugees and Ukrainian refugees). That sort of thing. Instead of thinking that ALL refugees need help.

I doubt that you are such hateful person. Like that Florida-man (Trump) for example. Kindness opens all doors - as my mom tells me even today. The same way her grandmother told her decades ago.

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[Moose72]

Hang in there without the meds. This has got to be really tough for you. And I agree- You're not evil!

[Victoria'smom]

I may be able to get my medicine soon. We're looking at a place this week. If everything goes through we can have medical again. Then transfer the meds there. if the apartment pans out we can setup appointments. I feel like a leech on society. That I'm a ***** and am agitated all the time. So yes that leads to thinking I'm evil.