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Legendary
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#461
Victoria has decided to withdraw from school. I want to do something special for her. I know she didn't graduate but she's done a lot and has fought hard but her teams leaving and she's going back into PHP because 3 years of suffering without relief is ridiculous.
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#462
I got a bottle of Emetrol nausea tablets and I took 2 around noon. That stuff worked so well. My nausea and vomiting dissapeared. And it doesn't make me drowsy or hungry.
I am improving my diet. I didn't have any coffee today or candy.. I started eating fruit the other day.. With like 3 or 4 tablespoons of whipped cream the calories aren't bad. I've been eating hearts of palm noodles. And drinking a crap ton of water. Its been making a difference in how I feel. I can't really afford to eat this way. My medical bills are high and I have therapy every week and then Spotify which I need in order to sleep decently every night. And I'm on a med that costs $450 for a 3 month supply. But hopefully things work out. __________________ I'm Blue |
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Wise Elder
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#463
@Mountaindewed Is the $450 med name brand or generic?
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#464
My anxiety is really bad today. Klonopin didn't do anything today and my 72 hour antiperspirant lasted just 2 hours.
I think I'm starting to get paranoid. I'm watching everyone around me and suspecting things. Trying to counter balance that with reality checks. __________________ * Dx: Unspecified Bipolar and Related Disorder * Rx: Remeron, Prozac, Klonopin My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#466
I was just wondering if you'd have an option for patient assistance but if it's a specialty pharmacy unfortunately you won't.
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Bizi is bizi
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#468
I had a good appointment with my pdoc today. He prescribed me 45 2 mg tablets of risperidone for the month so I can play around with the dose a bit as my body figures out its new normal taking the meds my gyno gave me. I've got some stuff that typically triggers symptoms coming up too, so this gives me the flexibility to take care of this as needed. The plan is to stick between 1 mg and 3 mg, but he said even going up to 4 mg if absolutely necessary would be okay. I'm so grateful he trusts me to play with my dose of risperidone a bit without more supervision on his end than necessary. I imagine not all pdocs would be willing to let me do this, especially without having more appointments than normal. I see him again in a month.
A second highlight of today is my depression symptoms weren't so bad. I finally tackled a very simple/short work task that I just couldn't get myself to do until today! __________________ Lamotrigine: 300 mg Bupropion: 150 mg Risperidone: 3 mg |
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Bizi is bizi
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#469
congratulations jane so happy for you.
keep up hope that your life continues to be lifted up so you feel better and better as time goes forward and you have better control of your meds and life. bizi __________________ lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#470
I have work tomorrow at 10am. Not sure how long the shift is probably about 5 hours again. I get my schedule finally tomorrow as well. I went to bed super early, like 7pm so it's going on midnight now and I just woke up. I'm probably up for the day. I need to be up early to mop before I leave for work cause my apartment inspection is at 11am while I'm at work. I've been cleaning the past 5 days to catch up on it since I slacked a lot on it while I was depressed. After I get home from work I'm gonna get on the treadmill for 45 minutes to relieve some stress.
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Wanderer of Distant Stars
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#471
Just an up and down day. Probation was awful. I really hate doing this every month, it's sickens me. I had a harsh dose of reality today in romanticizing my relationship with my ex. That man had all his charges dropped and I have to carry all the charges plus a horrible criminal record. I really hate him. I just hate everything about him even though I know hate is a strong word. I battle with feelings back and forth all the time about how I loved him, but really was all of that really love, or just a codependent toxic mess? Just cried and screamed for most of the day today when I found out I may have to go back down to the horrible jail again to do fingerprinting and DNA. This will be the THIRD effing time they are asking for that. I did all of this nonsense the day I was arrested, and I just went back in April to do it AGAIN and now it's not showing up in my probation officer's computer. I can't take this crap I really can't. And that's a word I haven't used in a while, "can't."
My boyfriend is amazing though, he really got me through it. He reminded me I have a lot of people in my life, and I shouldn't go through this alone. My story is an inspiration to so many others, and I am living the life I had always prayed for now that I am clean and sober. But still, it was a painful day. Glad I was able to call some friends and watch a movie tonight. Now I am just talking to my boyfriend and trying to enjoy the rest of the night. __________________ Tales of Love, Motivation, and An Interesting Journey - Please Subscribe to my Website on WordPress: Inspired Odyssey's Path to Wellness and Love |
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Monster on the Hill
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#472
Looking for work again and everything around here is either a coffee shop or at the mall (no fccking way am I working in a mall unless it's over$20/hr and THAT isn't happening).
Pissed man. My CM yesterday kept drilling me on housing apps, but I'm pretty fccking sure I've applied to every single income-based housing in NH there is. Apply to every state in the US I guess? __________________ [Insert thought-provoking and comedic quote here] |
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#473
I don't feel good today. I got an iced lavender matcha from that coffee shop and then I just started puking it up almost immediatly. Then I went to the bathroom a couple times too. I had therapy in 45 minutes. But I knew I'd have to switch to virtual. She was nice and we decided on in person on Thursday instead. So I got into bed and puked a few more times in my bucket. And now I just feel blah. My stomach still hurts and I'm a bit anxious too. I took 2 valium and my Geondons early. I ate pretty healthy though. Its just an off day I guess.
So none of my meds stayed down and I'm not real happy. I'm pretty down right now __________________ I'm Blue Last edited by Mountaindewed; Jun 25, 2024 at 02:32 PM.. |
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#474
Finished onboarding today at work. I got my locker, gloves , vest, box cutter, badge etc my first full day will be Thursday from 1pm to 10pm so a 9 hours shift. Including my commute /bus wait time that’s about an 11 hour day
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#475
I'm still feeling pretty good. I went to the dentist today because I needed an adjustment on my temporary crown. After lunch, I had to take my daughter to the doctor for her annual well checkup. She had to get a vaccine, so she was anxious about it. My daughter's doctor is a bit of a drive, in a more congested area I don't care to drive in, but I did okay. Not too much driving anxiety; we listened to music on Spotify in the car. Still, it's good to be home and done with appointments for the day. Now, I can wind down and relax a bit before cooking dinner.
__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#476
Ugh. My therapist called me and told me she's really worried about my hypomania. She asked how much sleep I've been getting. She said she's worried about me crashing. She told me she really thought I needed a med adjustment. She told me to call the nurse line. I don't want a med adjustment though! I feel GOOD. I was depressed for so long! I'm not going to crash. I'm not doing anything wrong. No risky behavior, no delusions, etc. All I'm doing is loving up Husband. All I'm having are strong hypersexual urges and lack of sleep. So BOOHOO. I told her I would call but I'm not going to because I don't want to.
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Poohbah
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#477
I went to the gym today for another workout. I worked out a little of everything - legs, arms, back, core, etc. Lots of sweating.
My anxiety is much better today because I didn't really have to do anything - didn't have to drive anyone anywhere or get anything. I still took a Klonopin at about 2pm because my stomach was giving me trouble. Depression is still the same. I had my appointment with my T today. It was productive - lots of insights and discussion. I like sessions like this. I know they can't all be winners but this one was really good. Lots to think about from another perspective. I leave for my cruise on Friday. I'll have WiFi on the ship so maybe I'll post from the great white north of Alaska! Looking forward to seeing the American and Canadian sights. I hope to see a whale, a bear and a glacier - if I see those things everything else is a big bonus. __________________ * Dx: Unspecified Bipolar and Related Disorder * Rx: Remeron, Prozac, Klonopin My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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Bizi is bizi
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Wise Elder
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#479
I'm totally complaining here so please don't read if you aren't up for some negativity.
I got stung by a hornet Friday. My doctor gave me antibiotics to start if it wasn't better today. Good call; I'm pretty sure I have cellulitis. It looks awful and is about the size of the palm of my hand plus a bit. I just generally don't feel good, which makes sense if I have an infection. The hydoxyzine helps but makes me sleepy and I think cranky. I don't fall asleep on the hydroxyzine, I just feel very tired. I have no idea how long it will take to feel better. I want to go see my pdoc in person (vs virtual) Monday but I am too afraid to change the appointment in case I still am feeling crappy as it's 2.5 hour drive each way. I need to decide by tomorrow. My therapist told me today he's having a hip replaced and will be out for an undetermined time in the fall. He said we may be able to do virtual appointments or I can see another therapist, he hasn't figured this all out but regardless things will be off for a chunk of time. Frankly I'm scared. And I'm tired so I'll stop complaining, apologize again and get off here. Thanks for listening. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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We were at the park and these stupid group of teenagers shot off a gun three times and the police came and barricaded the place and asked us a bunch of questions. 😒 Fukking teenagers. I guess we're never going to that particular park again. Afterwards I was like, "Great. I was just at the park with my twelve year old daughter and someone shot off a gun near us three times!" No one was hurt at least.
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