Bipolar Check-in #80

Beautiful day today. Went to the coffee shop with Husband and Daughter, then went to the park, which was a lot of fun. 😁 I was honestly probably having too much fun because Daughter kept on hissing at me to be quiet and stop. Lol. She's getting to that age. Will be 13 in October. I came to the realization this is probably our last park summer. 😭 😭 😭 I can't see her wanting to go to the park with mom and dad next summer. I'm going to be full of so many feels when she starts middle school in the fall. She won't be in elementary school anymore! 😭 😭 😭 I'll probably be all emotional. Luckily it's a Tuesday, so Husband has off of work and can hold my hand while I cry. Lol. She's growing up so fast!

Husband is really stressed right now. I asked him if there was anything I could do to help him (besides adult fun time stuff) and he told me he just wants me to keep on taking care of myself, so I've decided to go back on my full seroquel dose. I once had a therapist who helped me through some of my worse, non mood related psychosis, and once I'd come out of it he told me he didn't think I'd even last a week without an AP. We don't need psychotic raspberry. I don't think Husband could handle it right now, and I love him SO much, and he's told me multiple times he doesn't care if I've gained weight. He's just happy I'm stable and home with him and not at Winnebago. And he told me I look better with a little weight on me. 😊

Thursday night Daughter is hanging out with her babysitter for a while at night, at her house, so Husband and I will have the apartment all to ourselves. ❤️ Date night! I'm so excited. And during the day Husband, Daughter and I are going to a farm and get to feed goats and pet chickens and cats and hold ducklings and baby chicks. Aw. That should be fun too. We're trying to figure out an end of the summer trip for us to take but are drawing blanks. I'm sure we'll figure out something.

@Blueberrybook

That's great you got your keys back! I still don't have control of my meds back since my accidental gabapentin OD, even if I'm not suicidal and don't want to hurt myself at all. I'm quite happy. Sucks you had to wait so long at the dentist. I hate the dentist!

@LadyShadow

That's exciting about meeting William Shatner!!! I'm a Star Trek geek too. Lol. Husband actually turned me on to the series and I have fond memories of binge watching Next Generation, Deep Space Nine, and Voyager with him while eating Nerds when we were in our early twenties. I hope you have fun at the convention!

@BeyondtheRainbow

Sorry to hear about your fall. Chin up. I'm sure things will start looking up in the future. That's the beauty of bipolar. A down episode, leads to stability, leads to an up episode, leads to a somewhat episode, leads to a somewhat down episode, and I've learned bad things usually come in threes too. 🫂 ❤️

Saw my brand new pdoc today. Going to see her once more, and then I move outside the area they take patients from I'm excited to move. Legitimately move, not just bounce from one parent's house to another's to a friend's place to shelters and keep bouncing all around. They said I could have a dog or a cat too. I'm not going to bring Bo because I think he's heading out and he probably wants to spend his last days in a familiar place, but I'm considering adopting a dog once I get settled in. I don't know; I'll play it by ear. Yesterday I told my CM about checking this place out today, and she said to tell her how it went when I see her next week, but I think I should call her and leave a message so she has a little more time to set me up with my new CMHC a little more smoothly than other times I've moved zones.

I've already encountered the town drunk though. Just driving around there was some dude stumbling around the middle of the road. Nice.

I got back from my trip yesterday. All in all, it was a good trip. My POTS symptoms held up pretty well, but I don't feel very well today. Yesterday's travel probably knocked me out. There was about 8 or 9 hours between when I was dropped off at the airport to when I finally got home. Thankfully, I'm still on summer vacation so have time to rest up.

I got disproportionally irritable/angry at people on my plane ride home, but my mood has been fine today, so I think it was just me getting restless because of a long day of travel/a longish flight.

I head back to work in just over a week and the students' first day is just over two weeks away. Even though, in some ways, it has been a rough summer, t's hard to believe it's already time for me to get a new set of students.

I’ve been gone all day. I had trouble getting to sleep so slept past when I usually wake up and had to rush to get going. Went to my daughter’s house and treated her and my granddaughter to the movie Inside Out 2. Then hung out at her place. She made an excellent dinner of Chilean bass, some kind of biscuits with shredded cheese in them and green beans. Then I had to hurry back for 500 night here.

I really treasure what I have here. I know most of them would try to stay friends with me if I had a depressive episode but I’m not sure about a manic episode. That worries me because I really love how good my life is right now. I don’t worry about family though because they are still with me after everything I’ve put them though.

It was a long day I’m pretty sure I’ll sleep tonight. It was fun catching up on everybody’s check in today. Hugs to everyone

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Bipolar Check-in #81

It was a busy day for me.

I had my T appointment and it was helpful. I like sessions like this where I gain insights and get validated.

I spent the rest of the day helping my mother with the basics like shopping and getting around. She did really well today and stood for a long time.

I read the report from the hospital and it confirmed what we suspected, that she had y heart failure.

My anxiety is still really high - I'm really activated. It's causing problems with my stomach, too. It has been several weeks now. Trying to take things one step at a time and taking my Klonopin, but the anxiety is really strong.