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Well I took my last valium. Now I'm out and I can't get any until tommorow. I was just spiraling real bad and it was either get relief tonight and be out until tommorow or be a complete mess tonight.
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But my therapist being weird is just messing with my mind. Especially our email exchange after. I took an extra 20mg Geodon. I'm wondering if its just my stomach and not anxiety. I've taken a lot for my anxiety to still not be under control.
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__________________ schizoaffective bipolar type PTSD generalized anxiety celexa, prazosin, risperdal and prn klonopin and helpful cogentin |
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I ended up having to go out again and walk to the library because they called to tell me I won the adult summer reading challenge at my branch. I wasn’t really expecting to win but I participated to challenge myself to read more. Anyway I won an indoor/outdoor blanket , a book, and a $50 gift card to a really good Italian bakery near here so that’s exciting! Now I’m in for the night now and not going anywhere else. I’m probably not cooking today either. I feel overwhelmed by the amount of stuff I did today.
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Oh that is so cool blue bird 🐦 I’m sorry you’re overwhelmed tho. Take care and enjoy the bakery goodies.
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That's awesome! Enjoy your goodies! __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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5 hours later and the pain pill is just wearing off now. I’m not sure it’s worth it. I don’t like that weird heady feeling the pills give me. I know that’s why people abuse them, they want that, but I don’t like it. Now I remember why I had so many pills leftover from the first surgery. It’s the same reason I disliked benzos. It disorientates me. The pain isn’t really that bad this time.
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one hour til im free from wooooooooorrrrrrrrrrkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!! then i can go home and do homework! these 10 hr shifts arent bad
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I was hypomanic for about two months and have been stable for about four weeks now, and my brain feels like mush! All I can do is sleep and listen to music I swear. I can't even read. It's really frustrating. I mean, the audiobook version of my book is finally done, so I have no excuse not to start my next project, but whenever I look down at a blank page it's like my brain is melting.
I know I just need to give my brain some time to heal after my episode, but seriously, it's been four weeks man. Come on, brain! Heal already! Is anyone else like this after an episode? __________________ The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "I'm scared. I'm old. I want to go home!" 😁 - anonymous |
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All day today I've just been lying in bed listening to music too. I don't even know if I'm repeating songs. I just feel like total crap both mental health wise and physically. I hope you feel better @raspberrytorte
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sorry yall are feelign rough. i was depressed for a good month til last week when suddenly i WASNT tired 24/7 and felt pretty productive! now im zooming
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I feel like I'm sprialing and I don't know what to do right now. I've taken melatonin. I'm listening to music and I'm lying down. I'm just like freaking out for no reason
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I know I shouldn;t be but I'm anxiously waiting for my phone to ring, hoping a principal from a primary school I applied to will ring me. But I know the chances are slim because my application examples are all high school based. Ughhhh. Maybe these coming holidays in September I'll work on making my key selection responses more suited to primary school, specific for primary school jobs I might be applying to.
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I felt that way after the manic/psychotic episode I had in December and then I unfortunatley slid into depression right after that. I had a manic episode without psychosis in early July this year, and it's been about 6 weeks for me now stable. Lately my brain has been like mush; I find myself binge watching TV a lot. But I'm able to read too, especially if I put my focus on it, and maybe once I finish binge watching all the episodes of this show I'll be over it, God, I hope so! Sorry, I'm not sure this really helps, but give yourself time to adjust to normal. You'll get back there. ((((HUGS)))) @Nammu Yeah, I enjoy that floaty feeling from painkillers WAY too much. I have never abused painkillers, but I def. see why many people do. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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