Bipolar Check-in #82

So about 1/2 of my trip is done - long drive, returned the car, and finished security. Mostly uneventful, which is good.

I slept in the airport for about 30 min because I was so tired.

Now a 4 hour flight, customs, and find drive back home.

I had a good trip, made some new friends, and captured amazing pictures. I also learned what 110 degrees feels like

I’m at Pdoc office waiting room. So scare. What if Satan attacks me through him?

Just an emotional couple of days - I don't talk to my best friend anymore because when my dad was having surgery, she decided that being with her boyfriend was more important even though she promised she was coming to be there for me, and meet my mom. I was so pissed, I just cut her off. I don't need to have a friend that doesn't value me, eff that.

Just really angry and not grateful for anything even though so many wonderful things are happening the next few days. I have to really get my mind straight that I have a lot of freedom and my life is so much better than it was a few years ago. As far as everyone was talking about working again when you're struggling with mental health - I know it all too well - I wasn't able to hold down a job for years, until I went to jail and became homeless. Two and half years of that really shook me into reality, and I won't say it cured me of being bipolar - but it certainly changed things for me both mentally and physically.

I empathize with you all though, I know how hard it can be - definitely don't recommend putting yourselves through anything extreme but for some reason after going through all that I did, it changed my mental health condition forever. I still have horrible days, yes, but they are further apart than the good ones.

I hope all of you have a fantastic weekend ahead - there are two hurricanes brewing off the coast, hopefully they don't set their sights on us this weekend.

I got my second migraine of the week. Kinda unsure now whats going on. Kinda concerned just because I seem to have a slight change in behavior and I've been taking long naps.

Ugh. SO anxious. 😟 I only drink coffee once a week and it's when my therapist and I go to the coffee shop together for my appointment and each time I regret it afterwards because coffee makes me so damm anxious! I even took my prn Seroquel and had a nap, and I just ate some vegetables and am chilling in the bedroom listening to Sleep Token trying to calm down. Jesus Christ. That latte was poison! I knew I should have just gotten a diet coke this week.

We talked about my appointment Monday and mostly about the sertraline side effects I've been experiencing, and we decided we're going to ask scary psychiatrist lady about latuda.

People who have or are on latuda, what was or is your experience with it? I guess I wouldn't mind tapering off seroquel. I'd probably lose weight. That would be nice. I don't know though. We'll just see what scary psychiatrist has to say.

I'm really uncomfortable talking to her about my sexual dysfunction on sertraline, but my therapist assured me that it's nothing she hasn't heard before, so it's fine.

I'm so anxious about this appointment!!! 😫 I think I'm going to have anxiety diarrhea just thinking about it (of course, I'm already anxious from the latte I drank at 9AM!!!!).

I got my second migraine of the week. Kinda unsure now whats going on. Kinda concerned just because I seem to have a slight change in behavior and I've been taking long naps.

Idk when you get help for a really bad headache.

Is this site blurry or is it just me?

I must really be losing my marbles because I just posted this like half an hour ago on the other page.

I've puked twice from.this migraine.

@BeyondtheRainbow

I don't remember how long it took to hear back. Maybe a month? I wasn't paying attention. Don't stress though. I'm sure you're fine. My therapist helped me fill mine out because I had no idea what the hell I was doing!

Dr was super nice. He’s an old hippy type and owns a sheep farm and horses out right by where I grew up. He’s super chill and kind. He Increased myhaldol to 5mg. Said I can keep the klonopin to take as I need. I like him.

When I first started taking latuda I got the jitters and jumpy ness, they want you to take it with your meal. But I started taking it at bedtime with the ambian and sleeping though the jitters. It was fine for me that way. I do eat cheddar cheese with the med. despite what it says about being weight neutral both my daughter and I gained weight on it. She does take it with her evening meal, never got the jitters. Both of us have been years stable on it. Slight up and downs but nothing that required med changes or hospitalization. We both like it very much. I think there’s a genetic thing at work since we’re related and it works so well for both of us.

Oh, I’m so exhausted. I pulled a muscle in my calf yesterday so today’s walking around was tough. The dentist was like 5 minutes then come back next week! Went to the dealership and learned more about my car. It’s a computer on wheels. Made an appointment for next week to get it winterized and an oil change. Then stopped at target but my leg kept me from really looking around. Just got Halloween supplies and got out. Skipped my sisters and drove home. Stopped at Walmart for milk,…geez, they put it all the way in the back! I drink soy milk so it’s either Walmart or the big grocery store, can’t stop at the convenience stores. Then because I hadn’t eaten anything yet I stopped at Pizza Hut for a melt. Oof. It was after 5 when I got home. But I must say, driving wasn’t bad.

What kind of a pdoc can't prescribe anti nausea meds! I'm so ****ed

Time for a new check-in thread!


Bipolar Check-in #83

I'll request that this one be closed.