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Poohbah
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Location: Toronto, Canada
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#961
It's a very long day of traveling tomorrow for me. I have to get up at 4am, pack, and then drive for 2 hours.
After that, I need to return the rental car, get to the airport, take a 5 hour flight, go through customs, and finally get home by about 8pm. Long day. I hope things go smoothly. They didn't go so well on the trip in, some really wild things happened and I really don't want a repeat. My depression is still doing its thing so I'm feeling low, but I'm hanging on. This too shall pass. I did have a chance to get into a really deep thought place. I focused on how I was feeling and for an hour, just let my thoughts pass by without feeding them. My mind eventually became much quieter and my body felt like jello. __________________ * Dx: Unspecified Bipolar and Related Disorder * Rx: Remeron, Prozac, Klonopin My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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BeyondtheRainbow, Crazy Hitch
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#962
I really want my therapists attention. I know theres the whole dress to impress thing. I could legit use a haircut too. I don't really need to do anything, I already have a lot going on that will get her attention.
I just want to know what is wrong with me. Why I sleep so much and have all these strong feelings all of a sudden.
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#963
It's 4:15 and I'm still awake. I know that I'll get to sleep eventually but I hate this. I hate this time of night. I hate the anxiety to get to sleep before daylight. I hate the fear that I won't sleep at all (I will, even if it is in the morning) because that certainly has happened but not when I was on these meds.
I don't know why I'm still so anxious. I thought it would go down when my therapist came back. It did some but I'm still quite anxious and still taking PRN Seroquel (just 12.5 mg twice a day) most days. Of course now it may be because of my SSDI review. I took that to the post office today so I've done everything I can. I just hated that I was filling it out without my normal amount of therapist of pdoc visits. i put a note on the form that explained my therapist who I usually see weekly had been on medical leave and my psychiatrist who I see monthly had cancelled on me so the form was representative of normal but who knows if they'll accept that. Does anyone remember how quickly they heard back? I don't even remember my last review apparently so I certainly don't remember the time frame. Thanks! __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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#964
My SSDI form had a place to list all recent appointments and then a comment section where I explained that my therapist was on medical leave and my psychiatrist cancelled on me, changing my usual routine appointments. But I can't remember if I filled out all of the top lines. I know I used my calendar to be sure I was accurate and I know I got my pdoc appointment on there but I can't remember if I went back through all of August or July if I had enough lines.
This is agitating me. I still haven't slept and I've had all the PRNs I should take (I can have more gabapentin but it's not ideal). It's now 6 AM. I feel like I should just get up but I've taken so much medication that eventually I'm going to crash. I can't spend the next month freaked out about this. Somehow I have to make peace with not knowing for sure that I filled the form out fully. I'm 95% sure I did but the 5% is powerful. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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#965
@BeyondtheRainbowI know it is awful not being able to sleep. Is the anxiety over the SSDI form keeping you up? Can calling your pdoc's receptionist or having them print out a form of your past appts help with filling out that portion of your SSDI form? Have you taken your prn Seroquel? 12.5 mg is a TINY dose. Heck, you could take 25 mg and that is still very small. Not that I'm advising you to take 25 mg without your pdoc's consent. You know, in the past, my pdoc used to prescribe my 25 mg Seroquel not for sleep but to help with anxiety & panic attacks. It doesn't work as well as a benzo, but it did help some. At night I'm on 300 mg Seroquel & that usually knocks me out a good 8 hr. unless I'm manic. Seroquel + trazodone is the best formula I've found for sleep. Are you on a med that usually makes you sleepy? What is your dose of gabapentin? I'm on gabapentin too and it doesn't do a thing to help me sleep. Have you gone awhile without good sleep or is it just last night (sorry, I can't remember)? When do you next see your pdoc?
__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Grand Magnate
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#966
I'm speeded up a bit this morning. I hope it's just having coffee.
__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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