Bipolar Check-in #82

Ouch @Blueberrybook !! I hope you're okay now.

Today, I have a lot going on, trying to work this morning and go through applications to hire some seasonal people for my store. Things are picking up - I booked two candle making classes for this Saturday. Getting ready for my dad's surgery in two weeks, hope he's going to be okay. My bible study is tonight and I am really looking forward to that. I have to chair my AA meeting at noon and then I am having lunch with one of my AA friends afterwards. I am going to try and relax after that because I have to run out again in the evening. Just a lot going on, but it's really good to keep busy.

Had a tough time sleeping last night because my mind was running so much. Since I am going to be joining the Legion of Mary, I think it would really be beneficial to learn Spanish - I know a lot, but not enough for a full conversation. Downloaded the Duolingo app and it's super cute and fun. Having a lot of fun learning, but it's kind of fueling my manic mind.

@LadyShadow
It sounds like you are busy! It's awesome that you are learning Spanish. I took Spanish in high school, but I've pretty much forgotten all of it. I really admire others who are fluent in a 2nd language. My grandmother grew up speaking Czech at home at had to start school without knowing any English. She still remembers Czech but doesn't have anyone still alive to speak it with her. On the other hand, she speaks English just fine though she never lost her accent.

I called the dentist, and they can get me in today at 10 AM so just a little longer to wait. My dental anxiety will be a lot less once I just know what the diagnosis is on my teeth especially the one with the bigger chip that I definitely will want fixed assuming the tooth doesn't die and I need more extensive work on it. I am also changing dentists, and this will be my first visit to the new dentist. The quality of care has just gone way down at my old dentist office, and they have started to have insanely long wait times as well, so I have decided to change dentists. The new one has good reviews on Nextdoor by a lot of people, so hopefully it will be better than the old office.

im feeling overwhelmed and sleepy. i did get some sleep last night. hubby didnt let his alarms go off all morning like usual. work is alot today. planning for my group.

I met with the NP. We tried zoom but I can't get my app to unmute so we did it over the phone. She was really nice. She is decreasing my Geodon by 20mg. She seems to think that is causing my nausea. She says I've been on it for so long and on such a high dose that it could have just like crapped out on me and started making me sick.

She is also wondering about my bipolar diagnosis. I told her I dealt with bad PMDD but once I got my hystrectomy in 2021 my mood swings got a lot better. So she is wondering if it even was bipolar or just PMDD.

She does want me to wait on the Reglan until I meet with my pdoc to discuss it. I guess shes kinda swearing that the geodon and me being on it for 19 years is the issue.

I think? You lose weight when you stop an AP. I'm not sure though.

I’m feeling really down right now. I do have a telehealth therapy appointment in 30 minutes and I’m sure that will get me straightened out.

My anemia is severe again. We can’t seem to keep it up and they aren’t sure what’s causing it. It’s so disheartening. The worst part is fighting for air, not being able to walk and deep ulcers in the mouth and tongue. That’s for the birds I tell you. I’m following instructions exactly. I’ve revamped my diet and everything else. Oh well.

I haven’t felt well enough to get other routine things done so I have like 7-8 appointments in October and November.

I hope everybody has a peaceful day.

I’m upgrading to a better ukulele this week. A good well known brand. Not like the crappy one I currently have. I’ve used it for a couple years but now I feel it’s hindering my progress because the way it’s built isn’t ideal. So I’m upgrading this week. To a significantly better one. My old one cost like $35-$40. It’s a tenor. The new tenor ukulele I’m getting is around $260. Not that price is everything but sometimes you get what you pay for. I told myself I’d use my old one for a couple years and if I still wanted to upgrade after that then I could. And I do. I stuck with it. So I’m allowing myself to upgrade.

Plus it’s really beautiful. I’ve been eyeing it for a few years now but didn’t want to pay for it unless I knew for sure ukulele would be something I’d stick with.

I do love violin and that’s still my main instrument however there’s something about playing a ukulele or any guitar like instrument. Strumming it. Picking. It’s a different experience than using a bow but I love it too.

Anyway sorry for all the music talk.

But I feel good. I took an amazingly cozy nap for a couple hours in some really warm fuzzy blankets and it felt great. Now I’m about to read on my kindle. If I can get myself to take my headphones off. I like listening to music and blocking out the world.

Weight talk

Sunflower,
Have you gotten iron infusions for your anemia or just are you trying to get more iron in your diet & taking iron supplements?

I am prone to iron anemia. I have had to get iron infusions every few years. They are a pain (and can be expensive depending on your insurance) but they were the only things that got my iron back to manageable levels. I know I had terrible fatigue, worse than I get on my normal course of psych meds (which do cause me some fatigue) and I got ice pica as well from it. I was eating so much ice, I'd eat all the ice from the icemaker in the refrigerator, go out and buy bags of ice and go through those fast too. The only thing that helped get my iron up were those infusions. I tried a higher iron diet & iron supplements though the supplements were hard on my stomach and would only nudge my iron up a 2 points. They never did find an exact cause for my iron issues other than possibly my having ulcer surgery in the past and not the best amount of iron in my diet. It is really frustrating when you have anemia and can't find the cause

doing my group on anxiety an dusing cold to decrease it. i have gel packs in the fridge here at wokr to usew ith my group. should be good