Bipolar Check-in #82

Blue_Bird · Sep 29, 2024, 12:37 PM

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Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Bluebird I LOVE my iPad. I've had it for years, maybe since 2015, 2016? I had another one before that, but on a visit to my inlaws in LA, I dropped it in the Pacific Ocean (along with my iPhone). Needless to say, I had to get both another phone & another iPad. Kinda put a damper on that visit to So Cal.

I'm still in the land of stability, pretty level & sleeping around 8 hr/night. I don't like how stability blunts my emotions (on the happy side mostly) though I guess in reality, I don't feel depressed either & of course, I'm not manic as well.

My life is starting to feel like that song "Every Day Is Exactly the Same" by Nine Inch Nails. I could change it up, drive to the beach or something since there is a nice beach an easy 15 min drive from my house and it doesn't get crowded once school is back in session. Or take my daughter clothes shopping because she needs new clothes. Or clean. I don't know why I tend to keep the same routine.

I really do need to clean, but I still have that scrape healing on my right hand from my face plant into the sidewalk last week. I fell last Monday, and this scrape still hurts like h*ll. So do the scrapes on my knees. I'm taking Tylenol every day for the pain and it dulls it slightly but not much. Really ready to feel better and stop downing Tylenol daily. I don't remember it hurting so much whenever I skinned my knees as a kid (and I skinned them a lot, mostly falling off my bike or jumping off things).

Ah well, all things considered, my life could be worse. At least I'm not depressed about things and reading is still fun & relaxing.

Sorry about your iPad and iPhone falling into the ocean! That had to be really upsetting, I would be so upset if that happened to me. Glad you got new ones though. And it’s awesome that you’ve had your current iPad since 2015 or 2016, so I guess they hold up well then? I was wondering how well they held up over the years since I never had one before. The one I got is a renewed one from Amazon, so it’s refurbished but most of the refurbished tech I’ve ever gotten from Amazon comes looking/working like brand new , so I figured if I could save some money I’d go with refurbished. Amazon does a good job with their renewed products in my experience.

Sorry that things feel like every day is the same. I feel like that sometimes too. Which is why I’m trying to get myself to get out and do more things to kind of add some excitement to my life, since it does feel like everyday is a repeat of the last a lot of the time

Blue_Bird · Sep 29, 2024, 12:51 PM

Had my violin lesson last night. It went well. I have a lot of material to work on between now and my next lesson. Probably gonna wait a month between now and my next lesson to work on stuff. Usually I do 2-3 lessons a month but I think I’ll take a 4 week break cause there’s a lot of material to work on right now and it’s gonna take me some time to do.

I have a volunteer shift tomorrow night with the rescue kitties. Looking forward to it. Always love seeing and playing with the kitties there. The next two Sundays I’m gonna be training someone new to volunteering there. So that should be interesting.

I drew again today, Chimchar which is a character from Pokemon. Pictured below

I have to be somewhere super early tomorrow so I’m probably gonna pull an all nighter. I try not to do that often but I can’t miss this thing so I don’t want to risk oversleeping. So I’m just gonna stay up and watch some shows.

Blueberrybook · Sep 29, 2024, 12:55 PM

Bluebird, assuming you don't drop your iPad into an ocean (or other body of water), they hold up REALLY well. It is super expensive to buy one, but IMO it is worth the investment

I am sure you will enjoy yours!

Sorry your days are repetitive too. It gets old, but then I remind myself, hey, it could be worse. And at least I'm not depressed.

I love your sketches

Moose72 · Sep 29, 2024, 01:08 PM

Waiting for N2 to show up. I don’t know how far she is away but she just texted that she’s leaving now. We are celebrating her birthday which is later this week- 25!!!!

I feel anxious. Probably because my pen pal hasn’t written back since my admission of my psychotic break back in March. I’m afraid his reply isn’t delayed like sometimes but not going to show up at all.

Nammu · Sep 29, 2024, 01:14 PM

I had a 2nd generation iPad for over 10 years. It still worked, but was slow. Then it said it couldn’t upload the new features anymore and I finally traded it in. With iPad you can send in your old one and get credit toward a new one. Mine was so old I didn’t get much credit but at least I didn’t have to pay to dispose of it. I love my iPad.

JaneOnceMore · Sep 29, 2024, 04:34 PM

Hallelujah and rejoicing! I ordered from a meal delivery service and i just had the first one and it was transporting! It was the chickpea bowl. Delicious. They deliver fresh meals. Just heat them up in the mic for two minutes. The only thing is you have to order a minimum of ten meals and there are only four vegetarian options so i had to order multiples. It's okay tho because my diet was pretty limited between the grocery store and ordering-in. Don't know if i'll stick with this service forever, but we are off to a good start! WOWEE!!! Can't believe i had a nutritious and delicious meal in my own home!!!!!

Nammu · Sep 29, 2024, 05:08 PM

Oy! I took my Sunday shower, I like hot, hot showers, had my head under the water and took a deep breath though my nose. Ow, I think I burned the inside of my delicate nose! Oh, that stung. It fine now but oy! Showers should be banned, bring back tubs! 😂 lol

Crazy Hitch · Sep 29, 2024, 05:08 PM

It’s 8:00am and I’ve already showered (hallelujah) been to the grocery store and filled my car with petrol. Feeling anxious, but accomplished!

Moose72 · Sep 29, 2024, 06:04 PM

My early, 4-hour allergy appointment is tomorrow. N1 is taking me there and N3 is taking me home.

HALLIEBETH87 · Sep 29, 2024, 06:27 PM

well another weekend has come and gone. sigh. i like sleeping in lol haldol as been making me sleep and im not as irritable!!!

BeyondtheRainbow · Sep 29, 2024, 06:38 PM

Several months ago I thought my Brita pitcher was leaking. I changed it out last week and there was still water on the fridge shelf. I just took a look at the top of the fridge and it is dripping water all over. I assume the freezer isn't working properly. I have a feeling I'm going to be buying a new fridge. This one is only 10 years old which doesn't seem old for a fridge given the price. i just want to cry....

JaneOnceMore · Sep 29, 2024, 08:43 PM

@BeyondtheRainbow:

I'm so sorry to hear of your fridge malfunctioning. I worry about mine as i've had it for 19 years and who knows how long it was here before that. The thought of replacing it is overwhelming, so i certainly sympathize. You're right, ten years doesn't sound like a long life for a fridge. Hoping it goes as smoothly as possible! Life just seems to be one obstacle after another sometimes... I'll keep a good thought for you!

Mountaindewed · Sep 29, 2024, 09:08 PM

I took a 4 hour nap. I woke up completly confused on what day it was. I ate a banana for dinner and watched the Oprah weight loss episode of this series on CNN. Last week was Murphy Brown. Next week is the Ellen coming out episode. Its a series about TV moments that set the world on edge. I feel a bit better maybe because I didn't take the zofran this afternoon so my anxiety is ok.

June08 · Sep 29, 2024, 10:02 PM

@BeyondtheRainbow sorry about your fridge.

I'm happy with how today went. I got coffee with the friend I was spiraling a little bit about early this week and everything was fine. She also might have POTs so, while I feel bad that she has it, it was also nice to talk with someone who gets it. A different friend, who is hit or miss when it comes to responding to my texts, also responded to something I sent her and we had a nice mini chat so that was also nice.

And, at Mass today I had an older lady (who I've never talked with) walk up to me and say she missed me last week. I had to sit in a different spot last week and, apparently, she noticed I wasn't there and thought I was gone. The fact that this complete stranger noticed I was gone and even came up to say she missed me, even though we've never talked, is wild. Definitely something to reflect on amidst the SI thoughts I've been struggling with-those thoughts haven't been as strong today thankfully.

BeyondtheRainbow · Sep 29, 2024, 10:22 PM

I've decided the fridge thing is ok. Even if (and it's likely) I have to replace the fridge it is so much better now than it would have been if it happened in the middle of the move we aren't doing bc the in spectator found numerous big issues. It's hard to leave a brand new fridge to move away and in that place have to buy a new one. I would have hated spending all that money on something I was leaving behind.

I just hope it's easy and the repairmant comes quickly.

Blue_Bird · Sep 29, 2024, 11:58 PM

Can't sleep so am up sketching

Nammu · Sep 30, 2024, 02:18 AM

Can’t sleep so I’m up watching tv. Can’t settle enough to read.

Must get up in the morning too as people coming to work on the bathroom between 8:30 and ?

raspberrytorte · Sep 30, 2024, 02:46 AM

Woke up laughing maniacally, with my husband holding my hand. Don't remember what I was dreaming about, but how embarrassing! 😳 Wrote in my journal for a little bit and had breakfast at 2am because I had a really bad craving for a piece of string cheese. 🧀 Didn't want to end up giving into my craving so I had my usual breakfast, which was most tasty I must say and now I thankfully no longer want cheese. Going to rest for a bit and listen to some music. 🎶 Husband was hogging all the blankets but I managed to yank them out from beneath his ***, so now I'm just getting toasty warm!

Mountaindewed · 07:08 AM

I woke up feeling like complete crap

Possible trigger:

I barfed up 2 tylenol and 2 dramamine

I am going to call my GI doctor today and ask if I can try carafate again. It worked well. It just caused constipation.

BeyondtheRainbow · Sep 30, 2024, 07:33 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I woke up feeling like complete crap

Possible trigger:

I barfed up 2 tylenol and 2 dramamine

I am going to call my GI doctor today and ask if I can try carafate again. It worked well. It just caused constipation.

Ask if you can take Miralax with it. That should balance things out.

Blueberrybook · Sep 30, 2024, 08:27 AM

Sorry so many of you are having difficulty sleeping lately. I know good sleep is critical for maintaining my mood. In that, I am SO grateful for quetiapine (Seroquel); without it I do not sleep well at all.

Bluebird, your sketches are awesome! Sometimes I think I should try to draw again. I used to be really good at sketching in high school art class, but I haven't really had the desire to try again; I am afraid I will have lost the ability and be upset by it.

Ugh, I think I'm starting my stupid period a whole WEEK early. No wonder my back was hurting yesterday; I often get low backaches around the time I start my period. I'm having cramping & spotting this morning. My mood is OK though my anxiety is up. I am considering taking my prn hydroxyzine which definitely does not help as well as a benzo but it helps a little though it gives me some fatigue.

I had some dissociation jogging this morning, but at least I was circling the park walkway and not running on the road.

I hope everyone has a great day!

HALLIEBETH87 · Sep 30, 2024, 08:35 AM

at work. wishing i could still be home. lol i love my job though. had a weird long *** dream last night. it was bizarre!!!!! my heart is racing and i have chest pain. anxiety?

LadyShadow · Sep 30, 2024, 08:52 AM

Okay, took me almost an hour to read through all the posts, but glad to see you guys, I've missed you all a lot. You've been in my thoughts for days.

So, I have spent the last four days traveling in the Raleigh, NC area when Helene showed all its fury. I stayed in Zebulon on Thursday night, (the rain was really bad), and then Cary Friday night with my sponsor. I had an amazing jam-packed weekend, with friends, my sober sisters, and hosted four candle-making classes which was a lot of fun. My one friend relapsed on alcohol and had to be taken to the hospital because of her bad diabetes - alcohol has way too much sugar for a diabetic.

But, meanwhile in my hometown of Rocky Mount, NC that weekend......

What's left of the only Family Medical Supply store where I get my CPAP supplies from.

What's left of the one of the best Chinese restaurants in town.

My other favorite restaurant El Tapitio got its sign and roof blown off. Apparently it was an E3 tornado that touched down. I never seen destruction like that since 9/11 to be honest - I knew that moving to the southeast was a risk, but damn, I am pretty scared now after going through all that this weekend. Thankful that I wasn't home during all of this, I would have been so scared by myself. I even called my landlord because I didn't even know if I had a home to go home to when I heard the tornado hit. Made sure I got my neighbors numbers though when I got home on Saturday night.

My friends in Asheville, NC have it SO bad, we are doing several fund raisers in the area to get supplies, food and money to them.

Phew! But I survived! My parents are okay too - Greenville, NC wasn't hit too bad, just some heavy rain. Hope everyone stayed safe during this storm.

Moose72 · Sep 30, 2024, 09:26 AM

Good morning! Saw the allergist. We tested for seafood, fish, fruit, clams, crab lobster.... all the stuff I have a tingling burning mouth to and they all were negative! I have an oral allergy to them but nothing that will cause anaphylaxis.

Nammu · Sep 30, 2024, 09:39 AM

@ladyshaddow;. So glad to see you, was very worried about you. Welcome home.

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