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#261
Hello, I slept good last night. Got 7 hours plus I took a short nap this morning. So far I’ve done yoga, meditated, journaled, walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes, and changed my violin strings to a really high quality set my friend got me as a gift several months ago. Feeling pretty good. I felt like crap yesterday cause I only got 3 hours of sleep the night before. But I feel better after sleeping. I also talked on the phone to my friend for like an hour yesterday and it was nice to catch up and talk about music as he’s also a musician.
Gonna practice violin later. Other than that not much going on. My apartment is pretty organized right now so the only thing I really need to do is the dishes. I will clean thoroughly on Monday and do laundry then too. One of my cats (Mustachio) cuddled up on me last night. It was very calming cause I had a weighted blanket on and she laid on top of that on my lap purring. I had to reschedule yesterday’s therapy appointment, cause I didn’t feel up to doing EMDR on 3 hours of sleep. It just felt like too much. I bought a case for my Nintendo Switch. It arrives tomorrow. Should make gaming more comfortable. Reading a few different books right now. Two fantasy series, one fall romance book, and one biography. And watching a bunch of shows. The Witcher, Naruto, Supernatural and Pokemon Horizons. So I have plenty to do. I might go get a caramel macchiato with the leftover money on my gift card tomorrow at the Italian bakery/cafe. Mostly to get out of the house. Drink it while there and read. __________________ “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#262
I woke up really late this morning at 8:30. I was only up for maybe 20 minutes last night while I dealt with my weird anxiety which is gone now. I tend to sleep in late this time of year until daylight savings ends.
Today I am kinda down, but its not terrible. I just feel tired mainly. I'm lying in bed just eating a bag of apple slices. My stomach feels totally normal nausea and pain wise today. __________________ I'm Blue |
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Silver Swan
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#264
Made myself go to the grocery store! It’s a lovely day out. I have the balcony door open. Dunno what to do. I could clean….. don’t want to.
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#265
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#266
I'm having another of those dizzy/nauseous/rolling carpet/blurry vision/hair growing backwards/sludge for brain episodes again. Ughhh. I feel really hot and it's only about 60F (I mean, I am inside, but even outside I had to strip off the hoodie.)
I think I'm just gonna get into summer sleepy clothes and lay down. I've been slightly go-go-go for a few days so actually just chilling might help. __________________ [Insert thought-provoking and comedic quote here] |
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#267
I'm not feeling 100% physically today. I'm really tired and kinda achy and I just coughed up a bunch of post nasal drip. I've only had one valium though since I'm already so tired and lacking energy, but my anxiety is fine.
I went from staying inside my house for weeks to going out everywhere this week. So idk. My stomach is still fine though and I'm not going crazy for my stomach med. __________________ I'm Blue |
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#269
Making chicken in the air fryer. There’s nobody to do anything with today.
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#270
Going to the tip today so we can get rid of some rubbish.
Then going grocery shopping for the week - my least favourite chore. Then my son has a birthday party at 2:00-4:00 today that I can’t really say I feel like going to but I will put on a happy face just for him (and then likely come home exhausted from faking a smile and making small talk with parents) |
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#271
I've been working on my Facebook group. A little disappointed no one has joined but I can't advertise it.
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#272
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#273
__________________ Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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Silver Swan
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#274
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#275
Gotta celebrate the small victories. I had an upset stomach. I had a disappointment and i headed for the Coke Zero which i use to cheer myself up. I have a terrible Coke Zero habit, which i have tried and failed to quit many times. I got out a glass, took out the bottle, unscrewed the cap... and just thought, NO, this will make my stomach upset worse and put it back! I've abstained for six hours now, except for camomile tea -- it smells so nice and is so healthy. Hopefully i can make more decisions like this from now on. We certainly have the weather for hot tea. Cold pop just makes my chill worse. Yay Jane!
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#276
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Crone
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#278
I’ve been withdrawing, and getting sadder and sadder. I did reach out to my pdoc but otherwise I’ve not been sharing how I feel. It seems so ….i don’t know unworthy. I did confess to my pdoc that I’ve been having brief thoughts of dying. But tonight it was worse. I reached out to 988. I have to say it was successful. I used chat and we talked for over an hour. I realized that I have felt unworthy to share my sadness and depression. I did pick up the new prescription of seroquel. I really need to try it tonight. I really need the sleep. Something needs to change. I’m withdrawing from people both online and irl.
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#279
@Nammu:
I'm glad you had a good long chat session with 988. And hopefully the Seroquel will knock you out. I sleep about ten hours a night on it. If there's any place to share your sadness and depression, it's here. Seems like (just about) anything goes here. I can sort of relate to feeling unworthy tho as i have a lot of blessings others don't and it somehow doesn't feel right to still feel so bad. But it is what it is and we have to deal with the reality of it. I hope you'll feel free to express yourself going forward. |
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#280
I am not longer manicy or irritable. i new haldol would help but pdoc wouldnt believe me. small 5mg dose and a wweek later im good. no more flashbacks either
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