Bipolar Check-in #83

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Originally Posted by Crazy Hitch @LadyShadow you are gorgeous!

Awwww @Crazy Hitch , thank you so much!!

@LadyShadow What a beautiful picture!

@Nammu My pdoc used to prescribe me 25 mg Seroquel for anxiety and it definitely does help.

I've been feeling better today and not so dead tired as I was yesterday. I've been able to do pilates this week; exercise always has had a positive effect on my mood.

This morning, my daughter & I got our flu & COVID vaccines. After lunch, I went to the library with my daughter and found some good used books for cheap at The Friends of the Library book sale. We stopped at Starbucks for frappucinos on the way home.

hello everyone new to this thread. hope that everyone is doing okay and wishing you all the best. I am not entirely sure how this works yet. I've been a little mixed today and yesterday, hoping to show myself more compassion and be aware of my patterns

I have a real bad constant cough and my blood pressure is 130/92 and I'm blowing blood out of my nose. I still haven't heard back about the covid test. My mom is making me some tea with honey. She feels much better. She thinks I just need to sleep. I don't think this is an ER situation.

I went to urgent care with a bad cough and a stuffy nose. Tested positive there.

It was a beautiful day and i was stuck inside waiting on a meds delivery, feeling anxiety. They finally came at 7:00pm. Hate that. I stood on my balcony after in the early dark just to get some fresh air and noticed we have a beautiful moon tonight, clear and bright. That cheered me up some.

I went in my support group's ZOOM social hour this afternoon and found it unpleasant and quit. I also found the six o'clock local news unpleasant and quit. So it was a grumpy, cranky day. But i feel some better now. Well, i guess i can't expect much from a day spent waiting inside, feeling anxiety.

ETA: I went for a walk. It was good to get out of the apartment. The cold night air was refreshing. My dog enjoyed it too. It was a full moon last night. Now it is just slightly waning. This phase of the moon is called "Waning Gibbous," pronounced "jibus." It's "The Hunter's Moon," the largest and brightest of the four supermoons, as it is closest to Earth.

LA LUNA!!! LA BELLA LA LUNA!!!!! Now i understand why wolves howl at the moon! I'm going to try howling at the next full moon November 15th!!!!!!!!!!!

Welcome.

@ghostsinthehouse:

Welcome to the bipolar check-in thread! Most of us just drop in here once a day and say how our day has gone re our bipolar. You can start a new thread yourself if you have a specific issue to address. Compassion is good! Welcome!

I did end up practicing violin. Practiced the G major scale, g major scale broken thirds and a couple songs (jingle bells and a song from the anime show Naruto). I’m happy with how those really high quality new strings my friend got me sound. They sound really good.

I also got on the treadmill for 30 minutes and took a shower. Then a laid there on the couch even though I wasn’t tired and went to sleep because I didn’t have much energy and didn’t feel up to actually doing anything so I kind of forced myself to sleep. I kept trying to listen to audiobooks or watch a show or something but I I couldn’t focus. My mood wasn’t bad I just felt kind of numb.

Now I’m up and feeling refreshed and better at almost 9:30pm but I’m waiting on a caffeine withdrawal headache to go away. It actually might not be that. It might be from too much sleep. Often if I oversleep I wake up with a headache.

Tomorrow I have a few errands to run. And doing my typical stuff. Violin, art, treadmill. May have to clean a bit too. Then Sunday I have my volunteer shift with the rescue cats.

Here’s som pics of my cats. Mustachio trying to help with my violin practice and mocha eating his breakfast

Hunters moon has been beautiful and large the last three nights. Wednesday and Thursday the moon appeared in my right window, tonight it was in my left window. Now almost out of sight. Kind of disappointing that it won’t be a full moon on Halloween 🎃 but it’s been beautiful these last couple of days.

I made it up in plenty of time for my trip to the dentist. All that driving and the appointment took 15 minutes. Got back and played a few rounds of 10,000. Got better instructions today on what is entailed on Monday or Tuesdays vist from the electric company. I need to push all my furniture along the wall into the room so they can move the fire detector a few feet. The detector is hard wired into the building so they have to lay wires along the ceiling. What a pain in the arse. This is all in preparation to sweep out the vents in the kitchen. They did the bathroom vents a few weeks ago. The building is about 50 years old so does need it. They do maintain it very well but it’s a pain. This being a senior building it’s really a huge pain as most of us have mobility issues of one sort or another. So this is a huge ask. While I was playing 10,000 there was a heated discussion going on. The president of the building trying to find able bodied people that could help those too infirm to move their furniture. She means well and does get stuff done but some just prefer their presidents to be quiet. I stayed out of the fray. But some people really need the help. The building is in an uproar though.

@Nammu:

Yes, The Hunter's Moon is really spectacular! So glad i stepped out onto my balcony tonight to see it! It was just by chance. Now i'm considering cultivating an interest in astronomy. Problem is i live in a big city and there's so much light the moon is about the only feature in the night sky i can see. Hmm...

My building is a condo apartment building and most residents are seniors. We've had a couple big projects like you and uproars over them too. It really is quite a lot to ask, to turn your home upside down for the various projects. One uproar got so heated management allowed people to opt out.

I was wrong about what my pdoc would do. I'm to get a clozaril level drawn Tuesday when I'm in the city and hopefully that will be low enough to go up on that instead of upping the Seroquel. In the meantime I'm supposed to keep taking my PRN doses in the afternoon and if I have a really bad day I can increase to 25 mg of PRN Seroquel. So help is coming but I have some uncomfortable days left.

I trust her and I'd rather go up on clozaril than Seroquel but on the waiting is hard. It's just a few days but that seems like a long time right now.

Grr h says no tattoos next month because it's concerning.

@ghostsinthehouse welcome!

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I'm struggling today, but was also able to get a few things done after school. Not going to lie though, I'm worried about future me. I just don't know how many more crashes/depressive episodes I can handle, especially now that my physical health is bad too. I don't feel like I have a greater purpose in life so I'm worried one day I'll run out of reasons to fight this. Depression sucks and I long for the day I can tell you guys I'm feeling better and to have it stick for a bit. I'm so grateful to have a med combo that helps keep mania/hypomania at bay (knock on wood), but still am really struggling.

My students saved the day today. My brain was mush because I was so tired, but my students reminding me about things helped keep the class running smoothly!