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#621
I have this weird anxiety migraine chills nausea side effect and it sucks right now. I don't remember covid being like this when I had in 2022. Probably got a different variant.
Ugh I'm trying everything to get rid of the anxiety. But I feel it in my nose and my lungs. So maybe its not legit anxiety. Idk __________________ I'm Blue Last edited by Mountaindewed; Oct 23, 2024 at 09:26 PM.. |
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#622
I’m still waiting for the dietician to ring me back. I rang at 8:45am and again at 10:00am. It’s now 2:45pm and nothing. I’m disappointed……
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#623
And finally I have an appointment with the dietitian on 7 November. Feels like forever away!
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#624
I am having awful dissociation this morning. Really struggling to keep myself in the present.
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#625
The pharmacy is being stupid about refilling my diazepam again and I don't know why because my last refill was on September 23rd. It's the 24th. There shouldn't be a problem! I'm a day late. I'm not early. I hate this. It's like this every month. Makes me so mad. 😡 I don't know why they can't just automatically refill it, like they do with all my other prescriptions. I hate being on a controlled substance. It's such a pain in the booty.
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#626
I'm slowly getting back into the things I enjoyed doing. Everything kind of fell off when I dropped into a really low phase last month.
It's slowly getting better, on its own but also because I got tired of waiting. I gently pushed myself to do stuff and my motivation is very slightly and slowly starting to return. I've also been trying to be more mindful when I'm feeling anxious or depressed. I'm just recognizing that something is happening and not doing anything about it yet. But the recognizing does help me relate to the anxiety and depression differently. It doesn't solve my problem, but it helps me see it differently. My T and I have been talking about giving negative emotions like sadness, despair, anger, etc room to express themselves in healthy ways, instead of trying to turn away from them or suppress them. That's a tall ask! It's not easy but I'm trying. The road into my situation is very long, so I guess the way out will be long too. One step at a time. __________________ * Dx: Unspecified Bipolar and Related Disorder * Rx: Remeron, Prozac, Klonopin My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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#627
Had my yearly woman-bits exam today, so that was fun. There was a sketchy dude on the side of one of the backroads. NJ plates, black SUV, black suit, big bald guy wiping down the side of his ride on a dirt road. Now that I think about it, there's been an increasing number of similar events (MA, NY, and UT plates that I remember).
I am still in that limbo state of wondering if I should be putting all the anti-hypomania measures in place (again). I'm sleeping okay (I wake up in the night and then early in the morning, but I usually fall asleep easily enough and have been getting a solid 6hrs a night). I've been almost paranoid lately. I say "almost" because it's more just distrustful and suspicious. __________________ [Insert thought-provoking and comedic quote here] |
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#628
Been awake since 3:00am. Raining hard on and off. My hair is allergic to rain it goes frizzy lol.
Not sure what I’m going to do today. I should go to the chemist to buy nicotine gum. I normally chew 2mg but they had run out so I’m chewing 4mg but I don’t like it ewwww. You’d think there wouldn’t be much of a difference but there is. |
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#629
So far I’m doing well on the different formulation of the Vitamin D. It’s vitamin D3. Last time when I had a lot of side effects it was vitamin D2 and it was the largest once a week dose (50,000 units). Now I’m on the smallest dose of Vitamin D3 (1,000 units two times a day every day) and I’m not having side effects. I think my doctor was right that my stomach just couldn’t handle the large once a week dose. Also vitamin d2 is plant based and vitamin D3 is animal based so they’re a tad different in their source.
Anyway, hopefully that continues. I went to a nutrition class yesterday afternoon my supportive housing building had done with a nutritionist. It was good and informative. I’m sleeping really good every single night. Doing good with taking my meds. Tomorrow I have a therapy appointment. I think we’re doing. More EMDR. My anxiety has been pretty low. The last time I had coffee was on Tuesday morning. Just one. I think I’m only gonna have it around holidays or special occasions. Like birthdays , holidays, celebrations etc. Like around Thanksgiving I plan on getting a little box of 7 servings packets of instant coffee. Then doing the same around Christmas, and also on new years. And just do it that way. Keep it for special times since it’s my favorite. That way I don’t over do it. But man do I miss it. Water is so boring compared to coffee even though I drink it black. Coffee is just so comforting. Maybe I’ll try decaf at some point. I finished season 3 of The Witcher today. Also read for awhile. __________________ “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#630
I kept myself out of grippy sock jail until at least Monday.
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Grand Magnate
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#631
Today I have been having anxiety or even paranoia that I'm just going to black out and wake up committed in a psych hospital. Ugh. For me, when I get psychosis, it is bad like that in that I black out most everything for days on end like 4, 5, 6 days straight with only brief impressions here & there. It was made worse because I was dissociating a lot. I really hate this.
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#632
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#633
This morning I woke up feeling badly and I was glad I switched therapy to virtual. She said I sounded "very Covidy." I have more energy now so I'm doing laundry. My anxiety has been fine all day since skipping Dayquil and Zofran. I skipped my OTC nasal spray too. I'm still stuffed up and coughing a bit and I'm out of breath, but overall I'm better. I slept really good last night. Crookshanks was at the foot of my bed for awhile. Hes never done that before. I guess he knew I wasn't feeling good.
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#634
Thanks @Nammu I'm doing a bit better now that I'm not dissociating. It's easy to lose myself in those thoughts especially when I'm feeling disconnected from reality and from my own sense of being.
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#635
I'm always scared I'll fall asleep at night and wake up in the ICU with a breathing tube down my throat and no recollection of what happened, unable to speak and with everything blurry because I don't have my contacts in or glasses on. That's the way one of my OD experiences was like. Complete black out and then waking up in an ICU nightmare. I hate going to bed because of this. My anxiety always skyrockets before bedtime.
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#636
i was at wokr for nearly 10 hours today and had to come home and work another hour on notes from group this am. im so tired yet need to be doing stuff. what to do?
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#637
i just about freaked out! i go an email sayin my school acct was on hold due to lack of paymetn adn i coudlnt enroll. ummmm then 4 mins later i had ane email saying my loan HAD disbursed which ive been calling about for 2 months. so thank god i now have some $$ and my loans came throuhg for school. whew! i also got my winter class sheduled. that way i have 3 classes in spring and im done! i can afford gas tomorrow now. ty sweet lord!
sorry about typos. i type all day at wokr and then come home and wokr and my eyes and hands are fatigued __________________ schizoaffective bipolar type PTSD generalized anxiety d/o haldol, prazosin, risperdal and prn klonopin and helpful cogentin |
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#638
I got food today. I eat the same stuff so I have to shop frequently. My mom went to the store this morning and got apples and nuts and then tonight we did a walmart order and I got more sparkling water. I did get a burrito from Sonic and I ordered it without onions. I don't like them anyways, I always order stuff without onions.
We might have to postpone our trip again. I think its my brother. Although I'm not up much to traveling. __________________ I'm Blue |
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#639
I got protein shakes so I don't order as much. I'm still trying to digest the hour of t and how stupid it is that the MH urgent care doesn't email back. I feel like I lied to her because
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#640
I got a new iwatch today. My other one cracked it. It was 7 years old! It functioned fine BUT the battery kept dying at 3pm, unfortunately. Just couldn’t get the battery to last.
Swapped my nicotine gum for the 2mg one. Much much better. Been having almonds for my snack like my gp said to. I’ve lost a slight bit in 2 days but not enough to get excited over. Contrave still makes me nauseous but I was nowhere near as nauseous today as compared to yesterday my first day on it. Man it was rough. Feeling tired from lack of sleep. Tried to sleep but couldn’t. I’ll make the most of this time before I pick up my son from school. |
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