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#721
__________________ Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#722
Cutting out caffeine a week or so ago, has brought insane amounts of fatigue. I went from 6-8 cups a day daily for years to none. The past two days I have felt so tired all day both days. Like physically and mentally exhausted. To the point where I feel on the verge of sleep randomly throughout the days. Idk if that’s normal or not
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#723
Yeah I can, I just get paranoid about my meds sometimes and convince myself they’re poisoning me. I think if they were gonna poison me they would have long ago I’ve been on them a long time. The fatigue I’ve been feeling is making me worried my meds are doing something because I’m hyper aware of body sensations. Sometimes I think they’re slowly killing me though
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#725
if i dot get at very least a Bin my research class i will be dropped out of school. those were the conditions set by my school for acceptance. i have to get a 3.0 my first 9 hours. im freaking out yall. if id otn get through this class successfully i will be $45k in the hole for nothing. i will giv eup. i will unalive mysefl.
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#726
Had my emergency appointment with scary psychiatrist lady tonight... Had Husband come with me.
I think I initially misjudged her. She's actually a really nice lady. She was fine with me going back on my previous doses of sertraline and Lamictal. We talked about my shyt sleep and how I ALWAYS wake up after four hours, regardless, so she moved my seroquel doses around a little where I'm taking all 300mg before bed, with a prn 100mg if I wake up in the middle of the night. She recommended I spread out and separate my gabby and diazepam doses throughout the day to help more with my anxiety. We talked a little bit about my weight. She asked me how much weight I wanted to lose and I said 50lbs and she was like, "No. You will be too skinny!" So I'm just going to shoot for losing fifteen for now. She asked if I've been having any paranoia or hallucinations, and I told her what happened with Claritin, and she wasn't surprised. Overall, good appointment! Except now I have to go to the pharmacy again tomorrow. Grrr. __________________ The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "I'm scared. I'm old. I want to go home!" 😁 - anonymous |
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#727
I think I got rid of the last of my covid stuff. I blew out a ton of this gross smelling stuff and now my congestion and stuffed up nose are totally gone.
Glad all that is over with. I have to do some stuff in the morning. Get some groceries and hope a shirt is in stock. __________________ I'm Blue |
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#728
I was so tired this afternoon I crashed and burned on my bed. Flew out of bed when my alarm went off it gave me such a fright because I was in a short deep sleep. Just under an hour before I see my gp. She’s never running on time. Sigh. I found a bipolar support group meeting that meets up once a month near me. I don’t know if I will do the in person meetings but they have zoom ones too. Next zoom one is next week! I think I might try making an appearance.
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#729
Work really shook me up today. I had an experience that was similar to something that happened to me repeatedly when I was in an unhealthy environment. I conveniently had counseling today to talk about it, but it wasn't helpful. Breathing exercises aren't really my thing, especially in front of other people, and that's what she wanted me to do. It's weird, but I feel to vulnerable doing them in front of other people.
I've been thinking about it for awhile and today made it so I'm almost positive I'm going to quit counseling, at least for now. Because I struggle with SI (just had some thoughts today), this makes me nervous. But, in all honesty, I probably wouldn't be completely honest in counseling about this out of a fear of being hospitalized so there isn't really much of a point of going then either. And, neither of the counselors I'm currently connected with have much experience with bipolar disorder so they aren't always the most helpful there either. Plus, part of me just isn't ready to do the work. I'm a little bitter at life right now and that's not the most conducive mentality for effective counseling sessions. I see my pdoc on Wednesday so I'm curious what his thoughts will be when I tell him this. He trusts me so my guess is he won't say much. __________________ Lamotrigine: 300 mg Bupropion: 150 mg Risperidone: 3 mg |
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#730
So I stood on the same scale I stood on last week at my gp and turned out I haven’t lost any weight. Gees. I don’t know what to feel about that when I’ve been slaving away at this diet. Disappointed isn’t a strong enough word.
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#731
When I was 18 I was being told what I was wearing was wrong and the Mountain Dew I was drinking was bad and what I was reading was bad. And its like I was 18. Lol. I remember a mentor took me to the used bookstore and got me a book on poetry. Then I went back the next day with my mom and got some books on folklore I were told were bad for me. Finally the lady who dealt with my case gave up and said "drink what you want, and read what you want." But idk what was wrong to begin with.
Then I got a lot of crap for what I wore. I wore a lot of hoodies. Obviously to cover up. One time my sister took me to the thrift store and got me all these middle age woman clothes. Wtf I was only 20. She said hoodies were "bad" I knew who I was. Idk why people wanted me to be someone else. Now I still wear hoodies but I drink sparkling water instead of Mountain Dew and I don't read anymore. Sorry for the rant. It was just annoying. __________________ I'm Blue |
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#732
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#733
I was so tired at 5 pm yesterday that I laid down in bed and slept for two hours. Talked with Caleb at 8 then went back to sleep. Got up at 630 feeling refreshed.
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#734
I tried brioche bread, for the first time by itself. I’ve had it in the past like in sandwhiches and stuff. But omg it’s so good by itself too! It would be perfect with coffee.
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#735
Hey beautiful people, just a reminder that maybe speeding up to pass a tractor trailer in a no passing zone approaching a red light approaching a construction zone isn’t going to be appreciated by the oncoming traffic that has to swerve off the road to avoid you. Not sure who has to hear that today, but apparently it’s more than zero. Stay safe out there
But yeah, I’m doing alright. Therapy tomorrow (maybe, I don’t know she’s in her countertransference mode or something). I’m gonna make a more in depth post in the ED forum, but struggles on that front. May I present to thee, a swamp donkey!! __________________ [Insert thought-provoking and comedic quote here] |
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#736
I'm doing okay moodwise, just feeling rather quiet lately.
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#737
I got examined again and I still have yeast! She prescribed two tubes of the same cream as last time and said use it twice a day for two weeks. I also had bleeding hemorrhoids from being constipated. Luckily, I still have some Miralax. She was kind of worried about that but was relieved to find that I have a colonoscopy in 2 months. We also talked about irregular and heavy periods. She said my periods will get heavier in perimenopause. We shall see. No period yet.
Other than that, I’m just hanging out at home. Might try to call N3 to see what’s he’s up to between classes. __________________ Ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 1.5 mg, Gabapentin 100 Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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#738
I have this dumb post nasal drip and a runny nose. I'm not sure if I have a cold now. My mom doesn't know either. The post nasal drip is a lot and I'm drinking a lot of water and Liquid Death to try to get rid of it. Overall I'm doing ok. I got my shirt. They only had an XL but I'm hoping it will shrink a bit. I also found this cool pair of orange and white Nikes and a Carhartt hat with the tags still on them.
My anxiety and moods are fine today. I'm just a bit under the weather for some reason. Everything seems to happen in October. Both my surgeries were in October and both times I got covid were in October. All in the last 4 years. __________________ I'm Blue Last edited by Mountaindewed; Yesterday at 02:05 PM.. |
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#739
__________________ The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "I'm scared. I'm old. I want to go home!" 😁 - anonymous |
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#740
Thanks @raspberrytorte. Yeah my gp said there’s many reasons the numbers on the scale might be the same. She’s told me not to put too much value in the numbers. None the less I might go buy a scale this morning that actually works!
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