Bipolar Check-in #83

and it really calmed me down. Just what I needed because damn was I freaking out. I feel so much better now. I may even be able to sleep tonight. Our daughter is hanging out with her old babysitter tomorrow night so we get to have a date night. 🌙 I'm not sure what we're doing yet. Probably just hanging out, chilling, . Will be nice.

I bought a new notebook and some new pens to write with. Starting anew. I think I need a fresh start. Going to do some novel planning. Maybe work on a flash fiction piece. I like writing flash fiction. They're easy and really get the creative juices flowing. Must work on my new writing project. The time has come.

Seriously though, it's amazing how much better I feel. 😊 If you're stressed out and anxious and feel like you're going to spew, get laid. It'll make you feel a million times better.

That's my piece of advice for the evening. Lol.

Thank you everyone for the kind words/thoughts.

I manage to sleep 8 hours last night. I had nightmares about Mocha though. But at least I slept a good amount of time.

I’m up just listening to music and drinking a coffee right now. Today I need to go to the library to print something, stop at the store, and clean my apartment.

Sleep went okay last night until I woke restless around 3 AM. I couldn't put my finger on just what was causing it. I lay in bed for awhile, but I ended up getting up at 4:20 AM, which is early for me as I tend to get up around 6 AM most mornings. So I'm dragging a bit today. I did pilates to which helped my anxiety while I was doing it, but the anxiety started creeping up afterwards, and I had another panic attack. And the deep breathing never really helps me get through those. Washed & folded a load of laundry, but I am so tired, maybe a nap after lunch.

The election is tomorrow! God, THAT really has my anxiety soaring!!

@raspberrytorte- Glad you & your H are getting time to connect. You are right; that does help anxiety! I also wanted to thank you for starting the separate weight loss thread. It is hard for me to skip over it in this thread, even when it is in trigger boxes. For obvious reasons, I don't read that thread, and that helps me tremendously. You are awesome

@Blue_Bird Are you planning to call your pdoc to let him/her know about your sleep troubles? When do you have your next appt?

HUGS to all having issues with depression & sleep

I feel like crap today. I've been really tired these last 2 days (before DSL) and I've been sleeping through the night and then taking naps during the day. Today my stomach really hurts and I've tried various things but I have a call into my GI doctor. I am so tired right now.

But people can leave me alone about what I drink. I haven't even had any coffee today.

Oooooo Monday

I have things I want to do today. But I feel very unmotivated and flat due to Mocha dying last night. I just feel like laying on the couch doing nothing. I miss him already. I’m so sad. I hope he knew how much I loved him.

I have an appointment on the 13th so I’m probably just gonna hold off till then since it’s not far away

Don't worry. He knows how much you loved him. ❤️

I have an appointment with a therapist today. No idea if this is an intake only appointment to see where I’d fit in or the actual appointment with the person I’m going forward with. He blip doesn’t say much but what’s to say when you are that young? It’s in 3 plus hours.

Plus I need to go to the store and get milk. I’ve pretty much decided to go by bus to the appointment as the bus takes me from door to door. But then I’ll waste time coming back here to pick up my car, but at my appointment time there’s no parking at the hospital it’s packed. So, bus.

I’m trying my darnest to forget what tomorrow is. In more ways that one. A dentist appointment and the men coming to my apartment for duct work, and that other thing! Wish I could stay in bed and skip Tuesday.

@Blueberrybook

About the weight loss thread... oh it's no problem! I don't want people to get triggered.

I’ve been looking at online studies. Anything to eventually get out of teaching lol. My partner says how on earth will I manage with our son and can I afford it because even if I get HECS it’s a lot to pay back. He reckons half the reason he went into debt was from studying. I’ve looked for hours and hours into this and have had many phone calls now it feels like a pipe dream.