[purplebutterfly]

I am going off my meds cold turkey, they do not help anyway and no one really cares if they do or don't. Sorry I'm sorry for everything, I am a total failure at everything. I hate bipolar I hate depression I hate it all, and their is no medication that will make it go away.

[Lenny]

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I am going off my meds cold turkey,

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Your an adult purple so decisions are yours to make...

BUT,,this is not a good one. There is bad and there is worse....coming off meds cold turkey can be very painfull.

Please talk to your physician and explain the feelings your having. Finding the right medication(s) for each person can be a challenge and one with some pain...

I care that they work for you as do many...

Lenny

[RozG]

((((Purplebutterfly))))

coming off your meds cold turkey can be dangerous. physical dangers aside it also makes your bipolar symptoms much worse than they were before you started meds.

please think carefully about this before you do anything rash? talk to your pdoc maybe? as Lenny already said it can take quite a while to find the right meds for you.

and we do all care about you here and would hate to see you do something to make things worse for yourself.

[purplebutterfly]

I feel like I have no control over anything anymore, I can not control my emotions on meds or off of them, so what is the point.

[RozG]

((((Purplebutterfly))))

your pdoc obviously doesn't have you on the right meds. it can take a lot of time and experimentation for him/her to find the right meds for you. it would be great if you could hang on in there til the right meds are found for you.

i'm sorry that's all the advice i have for you.

[purplebutterfly]

I just called the Pdoc and they can not get me in until next week,I even said I want off my meds now and they just said she will get back with you later but all we have available is next thursday. I feel like a number anymore not a real person, like the Pdoc and T don't really give a flip if I make my appointments or not.

[Lenny]

You are a number Purple...and that number is "one".

Please know that.

Lenny

[nowheretorun]

i'll bet at times it can seem that way... i've gone to the doc before and felt like a number too.... and then sometimes there's that human moment, and i recognize and remember that all people everywhere really are people and mere human like me.... i know for certain i make mistakes and hurry at times....

hope you can remember to remember purple.... many here really do care about each other..

dont cold turkey if you can help it... its not the best way i think, but i'm no doc..

[RozG]

((((Purplebutterfly))))


i know myself waiting is the hardest part, especially when you feel you're losing it. but staying on the meds you have for now really is important for your own physical and mental safety.

you said she's getting back to you later? is that later today? if it is you have your chance then to explain it to her properly.

other than that i don't know what to advise as i don't know what emergency facilities are available in your area. but do please keep coming here for support meantime?

[purplebutterfly]

Later is when the Pdoc can find the time to call me today or have her nurse call me. Meaning it's probably not going to happen until late this afternoon. I am suppose to take some meds at lunch, not sure if I am going to take them. Need a shoulder right now to cry on, I want it all to go away, I have been off and on meds since I was 17 for depression and bipolar and I am so tired of it.

[RozG]

((((Purplebutterfly))))

all i can say is when she does call you this afternoon make sure she understands how desperate you are.

fingers crossed she gives you the help you need today.

and if you need a shoulder to cry on please feel free to pm me any time.

[purplebutterfly]

Thanks

[Razzleberry]

I'm sorry that you're struggling so much

Just one bit of advice. Try to wean off slowly, not just cold turkey. Withdrawal symptoms can be really horrible. You can try cutting pills in half, or taking less often (like every-other-day). Just a suggestion. It is, of course, your decision.

[Liberada]