[HALLIEBETH87]

Its been 2 days and I am still soo soo soo mad at my pdoc. I had suddenly remembered an appt with her 2 days after so I paged to beg not to charge me. She said it was ok, but she had been worried and I need to see her very soon.

I explained I would have to wait due to financial issues. Then I asked for some choices when it comes to affordable meds with no insurance. She asked if I still had a job....I dont.

So basically I have been told I either need Vocational Rehab or disability. Ive quit 4 jobs so far this year. SO what? I know Im having a really bad yr but isnt she supposed to be supportive. I am to find a new dr I can afford or she claims I will end up back in the hospital. WTH does she know? I dont even care anymore. I just wanna stop. I want to live in the sticks by myself and not worry about money but just about myself and no one else and not stupid pdocs. Thinks she smart well whatever. So what if Im not feeling myself? Her reasoning is I need a med eval and if I dont Ill end up in hosp again. I have so much I wanna tell her! I WILL NOT GO BACK TO A HOSP AND SHE CANT MAKE ME! haha No one can make me. I donthave to and Ill be just fine without her. Im not cutting or planning suicide so so what if Im angry and hopeless? she doesnt care. **** that.
she has no control over me.

[Schatje]

I'm sorry you are feeling so angry and hopeless. I'm also sorry you are had such a problem with your pdoc. If you are unhappy with the relationship please find a different one that works for you instead. As you don't have a job right now you will probably be able to apply for help to get you into a doctor. As for low cost meds there is Lithium. I think you can get a scrip filled at Wal-Mart for $4.