[emptybucket]

I guess the proper protocol would to label this post with possible "triggers"
I'm new here

Just wondering if anyone gets really bad episodes of rage and anger?

I get some pretty bad rage.And i'm a pretty irritable person,it doesn't take much.And when i do get angry the thoughts in my head turn pretty violent and at times pretty vivid.And the dialog in my head,that inner dialog carries on conversations by itself,interacts in scenerios be itself,things get so vivid internally i sometimes look around the room and wonder did i just convey that internal dialog externally,then boom! anxiety attack. I know even if i didn't convey all that mental traffic externally i know there had to be some sort of outward sign,a grimace,dead eyes,cause i nodded off to my own little
world.My poker face is horrible theses days.A lot of "head traffic" with no palm trees or rest stops.I'm either horribly depressed or angry as hell and then the angry thoughts get dark and then i have to pretend to snap out of it all quickly cause i'm a caretaker and i don't want that person i'm caring for to think he is a burden.But honestly everything is a burden these days and these days aren't changing anytime soon.

[tracy33]

I've had very bad rage and irritability in the past. I was put on Abilify for it and it helped alot. I still get irritable now and then.
I also had a bad episode of rage on Sunday. I threw such a fit over something minor that the thoughts in my head were taking over and I had no control. I was in the shower, too, and my razor was in my hands and well, I won't say more of what I wanted to do.
It's hard to snap out of it quickly. How do you do it?
I tried really hard not to say any harsh words to my stepdaughter when I was raging mad. I so just wanted to yell at her some nasty things, but I thought to myself, "She'll be telling her therapist this one day." and that's what stopped me.

[raisin70]

My 16 yr. old had a rage at a wilderness camp and threw hot water at a counselor. He is now kicked out. He has recently been diagnosed with bp and is on trilptal which doesn't seem to work at all. I just wondered if this rage is part of bp. we have gotten no answers. It has been a nightmare. I've never posted anything before so I don't know if I am doing this right. Thanks

[emptybucket]

"It's hard to snap out of it quickly. How do you do it?"

Can't say that i do snap out of it all the time,i can pretend though,i got my fake smile.I've snapped at family members,have made some cry,and feel bad about one second after i've done it.I've done this to people who are actually trying to be nice.These mood swings have sabotaged alot of relationships and events in my life.

Yeah,there is also a self destructive mechanism to these thoughts.I find myself telling the T,"i would never,ever harm someone else..." But i have to admit my thoughts contradict what i say.

[emptybucket]

Originally Posted by raisin70

My 16 yr. old had a rage at a wilderness camp and threw hot water at a counselor. He is now kicked out. He has recently been diagnosed with bp and is on trilptal which doesn't seem to work at all. I just wondered if this rage is part of bp. we have gotten no answers. It has been a nightmare. I've never posted anything before so I don't know if I am doing this right. Thanks

I'm in no position to say if rage is always apart of bp,but i can say i remember having these symptoms through most of my teen years,how did i cope? Drugs and alcohol,sadly.I'm not telling you how to parent,i'm not a parent-but do keep an eye out.Drugs and alcohol created a huge empty gap of anti-social behavior to where i'm still having trouble interacting with the public,it's like it stunted my growth in some strange way.

[raisin70]

Thanks for your thoughts. My son is very involved in drugs. He says he smokes pot to calm his thoughts and has also used prescription pills to try and sleep and I'm sure lots of other stuff. That is why we sent him to wilderness. I guess that was a disaster. He is out there on the wrong meds with no psychatrist and I guess no hope.

[emptybucket]

I was a huge pothead.It would mellow me out but in the end made me very anti-social.It also made me too content;no ambition equals no accomplishments equals no self esteem.I look back at the last 15 years of my life and see shallow (drug) friendships and events that would only be recognized my those shallow friends,my past is an inside joke in other words.And while some argue that marijuana is not a gateway drug,i argue it's a network drug,you get high with enough people and you will find someone that can get different drugs,etc.That's been my experience anyhow.

[raisin70]

Originally Posted by emptybucket

I was a huge pothead.It would mellow me out but in the end made me very anti-social.It also made me too content;no ambition equals no accomplishments equals no self esteem.I look back at the last 15 years of my life and see shallow (drug) friendships and events that would only be recognized my those shallow friends,my past is an inside joke in other words.And while some argue that marijuana is not a gateway drug,i argue it's a network drug,you get high with enough people and you will find someone that can get different drugs,etc.That's been my experience anyhow.

Yes I'm sure that D started on pot but went on to much more with the people he hung with. He really has no friends now other than the drug kids. He is now going to a hugely expensive boarding school with help for bipolar. Sure is depressing. I never thought this would happen to him