[MSUKate]

Last night I went out to a bar and brought a guy home, and slept with him.

I feel so horrible. I dont know why I do these things, I miss my meds, or I take too many, not caring what I do.

How do you handle these impulses?

I'm Dx'ed bipolar I and i have mixed episodes.

Help Please.

[bizi]

hi there and welcome to the bipolar forums here.
YOu are not alone,
there are many of us who have had "risky" behavior when manic or even hypo manic.
What gets me is the impulsiveness.
I am not thinking clearly when I am like this.
Many people take men home and are not bipolar too.
Learning what are our issues helps us to figure out our motives.
Maybe you were lonely....
bizi
don't be too hard on your self....jsut figure out why you did this and you will feel better, more in control. WE can't be a victim to our bipolar.

[Moose72]

I've done that. I'm also bipolar I. But I met these guys online and had sex on the first date(s). I've also had too much to drink and not cared. I don't know what to tell you except try to stay on your meds or get them to a good level. I can't count on my brain's judgement when I'm manic. It just doesn't happen.

[Direction]

Mixed seems to be my hot button for impulsiveness...place where you are just wanting something...not caring about consequences...even if you rationalize it out...mixed puts you into dark thoughts also that make consequences even less worth thinking about...

I would agree not to be too hard on yourself...not to push on the issue...do you think you need any particular tests done regarding having intercourse?

[vrba44070]

Please hang in there & try to take your meds. It makes a huge difference to take them.
I get mixed, impulsive episodes as well. I get into arguments. When I drank (I haven't in many years), I got into fights. I know it's hard, but try to take your meds & commicate with your doctor honestly.
vrba

[MSUKate]

Thanks guys.

Also the question about wether I should have tests because of the anonimity of the sex.

The answer is I dont know. we used condom for intercourse, but nothing during foreplay.

Do you think I"m at risk for something?

[Direction]

Risk...I guess there is always the risk of pregnancy and std's present. "I don't know" is the answer I can give...