[Berries]

I just read a post that said, you can't just say "STOP IT!" to mental illness.
Touche!
Lately, people--my mom, my pdoc, my T, BFF--are getting so frustrated with me.
But I am trying my best. It may not seem like it to them. But I am honestly trying.
I feel like saying--I'd hate to see it, if I weren't trying as hard as I am. Maybe D.E.A.D. !!!!
But then they'd get all upset, so I don't say that.

[JourneyUpward]

Hello Lbien6,
I've been where you are right now. It takes a lot of time and patience and work on your part and the Pdoc and your T to finally get the meds and everything right and tailored to your situation.

I finally started keeping a journal for my Pdoc about my daily anxiety levels, triggers, moods and thoughts. He found it very helpful because when I would see him, I'd forget much of what happened between visits. The journal has become our most important tool and helped him to find the right drugs and doses for me. I thank God, I am on the road to wellness now and finally feel good most of the time. Don't give up--the sun is shining on the other side of the "hill".
I'm rooting for you---JourneyUpward

[bizi]

What I meant by the stop it.
WE can't stop being bipolar. but we can stop obcessive thoughts by doing something different, start thinking about something else. focus your energy on something new that might catch your interest, play with a pet if you have one, go out side and look at the beauty of nature, reach out to a friend whom may need a comforting shoulder, be honest with yourself and know that you are doing the best that you can be doing right now with the tools that you have.
Know that you can handle what ever comes your way.
You are a powerful person and not a victim of bipolar.
Does this make sense?
bizi