hopes & dreams, or mania?!

i have hopes and dreams for myself...
i hope to have a lot of money
i plan to become successful on my own
i will buy a house on a large property in this expensive city i live in
i daydream of complete happiness, joy, and satisfaction
i daydream of being remembered for my great compassion, insight, and accomplishments
i hope to be featured in a biographical story one day only ill be long gone by then
i have plans.... of opening my own business (a tanning salon)
i also have whims.. of being a poet, or an artist
another whim is to work as a bartender and have multiple facial piercings
sometimes i plan to study psychology so i can disprove the existence of mental illness, and to prove that hot sauce will cure it.
i dont want to be average i want to be elite
i want every man in the world to want to have sex with me,
and i want to be wanted for more than just sex.
i want to be on an advertisement on the side of a MTA bus.
i want to be a fitness celebrity and featured in fitness magazines.

for all these hopes and dreams, i can blame several causes... my mania, my ego, and the words of my 5th grade teacher "you can do whatever you want to do when you grow up".

all these plans... what i only need now is focus, and unlimited life span.