[sweetpea_tx]

there has been debate over my diagnosis... bipolar and borderline are the top contenders... the only test I've had done in recent memory was a neuropsych exam, and the results from that hadn't come in 6 months later when I left the state. So here I am, 9 days out from seeing someone, and I am scared. I'm sliding into a pretty black period (who am I kidding... I'm already there, I think), much like the one that landed me in the hospital two years ago at Easter. They wanted to take the slow approach to everything... just loaded me up on anti-dpressants, and within 6 weeks, I was driving everyone around me away because I was, no pun intended, the exact opposite of what I had been when I ended up in the hospital- I was going a mile a minute, constantly. My roommate moved out on me, I drove my boyfriend to the limits. I'm just terrified, that's all. I'm all alone here... my mom lives 45 miles away. I don't know anyone in this town, I lost my job. I don't know what to do.

[skeeweeaka]

Originally Posted by sweetpea_tx

there has been debate over my diagnosis... bipolar and borderline are the top contenders... the only test I've had done in recent memory was a neuropsych exam, and the results from that hadn't come in 6 months later when I left the state. So here I am, 9 days out from seeing someone, and I am scared. I'm sliding into a pretty black period (who am I kidding... I'm already there, I think), much like the one that landed me in the hospital two years ago at Easter. They wanted to take the slow approach to everything... just loaded me up on anti-dpressants, and within 6 weeks, I was driving everyone around me away because I was, no pun intended, the exact opposite of what I had been when I ended up in the hospital- I was going a mile a minute, constantly. My roommate moved out on me, I drove my boyfriend to the limits. I'm just terrified, that's all. I'm all alone here... my mom lives 45 miles away. I don't know anyone in this town, I lost my job. I don't know what to do.

I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. Do what you need to do to get better! Sounds like the medications made you manic, you've really got to talk to them about that so that they can perhaps find something different or lower the dose... I know how difficult it can be feeling all alone, but you've got to have faith that you can get better!

Best Wishes,

TJ