[Phoenix1985]

I feel like ****. So so sad. Having trouble with the sleeping. Not doing good for the bipolar. Feel like am going crazy, am about to fall off the edge. Something inside screams do it, hurt yourself. Want badly to scratch at my arms, feels like there's something inside. Need relief.

[Slothrop]

Originally Posted by Phoenix1985

I feel like ****. So so sad. Having trouble with the sleeping. Not doing good for the bipolar. Feel like am going crazy, am about to fall off the edge. Something inside screams do it, hurt yourself. Want badly to scratch at my arms, feels like there's something inside. Need relief.

Ugh, that's awful. It sounds a bit like akathisia...or maybe just plain anxiety attack...I dunno...

Are you on any new meds?

It sure sounds like a sleep med, maybe a benzo, would help you get some balance back...can you talk to your doc?

Don't hurt yourself!!

[Phoenix1985]

Originally Posted by Slothrop

Ugh, that's awful. It sounds a bit like akathisia...or maybe just plain anxiety attack...I dunno...

Are you on any new meds?

It sure sounds like a sleep med, maybe a benzo, would help you get some balance back...can you talk to your doc?

Don't hurt yourself!!

Thank you for the reply.

Saw a councellor at uni. She said it would definitely pay to talk to a doc about medication options, because am not on anything for the 'up' side of it. just Epilim and Lexapro. But no, no new meds. Just need to see the doc. But it scares me, admitting to not being okay, to needing help. What if I'm forced into hospital? I don't want to lose my little girl

[Slothrop]

Originally Posted by Phoenix1985

Just need to see the doc. But it scares me, admitting to not being okay, to needing help. What if I'm forced into hospital? I don't want to lose my little girl

Yes, I understand that fear...but hopefully bipolar alone is not a threat to your custody of your little girl (I don't know what your local laws say). I like to think of effective diagnosis and treatment as making me a better parent...I know I need help, and that admission is best for my kids.

I had to try many different meds to really feel better. So don't give up...you probably just haven't found the right cocktail yet.

[Michah]

Hi Pheonix, you are having a bad time babe........I am in Queensland also and you will not lose your little girl........I have had many hospital admissions, single mother and all that and my son was never removed from the home......they assume that you are taking good measures to protect your own safety and that of the childs if you seek help.......it is an act of responsibility.

If you do nothing and get so sick you cannot function, well thats a different story.......

You will only have involuntary commitment if you are considered to be unsafe to yourself or others........you may not have to got to hospital........

Talk about it to someone who can help........there is always other scenarios.......I know how scary it is to feel so "on the brink". As with all things though, this too shall pass.

Get help!!

In safety and stillness.........

[artie]

Lack of sleep is the single greatest, perhaps the only, cause of bipolar illness for me, just one night without sleep I can go manic.

For me the best thing is a little zyprexa/olanzapine every night and more if not sleeping due to excitement or stress.

It's slightly unsual for it to be used for sleep but is proven to be effective according to my Doctor, it works like a tranquilizer but is not addictive (as far as I recall), it's possible your Doc has not considered it.

Good luck

[Berries]

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Nothing wise to say. Just--I've been there too. Thank you for posting. How are you doing now? Keep us posted, OK?

[nirmal]

Hi, Do you have family or a friend that can look after your little girl should anything happen, God forbid? I have 2 boys and I always worry about
them. You may just need a med adjustment, like an anti-depressant. What
is Epilim? It´s OK to feel scared, and that you need help! Boy, if we could All
know when we needed help and got it!! Hang in there, nirmal
Thank you for the reply.

Saw a councellor at uni. She said it would definitely pay to talk to a doc about medication options, because am not on anything for the 'up' side of it. just Epilim and Lexapro. But no, no new meds. Just need to see the doc. But it scares me, admitting to not being okay, to needing help. What if I'm forced into hospital? I don't want to lose my little girl [/quote]

[sweetpea_tx]

I know a little about how you feel right now... I feel quite similar right now myself. I don't have my children with me... I only have my lab pup, and its scary and it hurts. Hang in there... I know that its hard and it hurts and all that, but people are pulling for ya, and it will get better.