[Michah]

You have dragged me, kicking and screaming
Through this life
You have invaded my spirit and questioned my mind
You have had me cowering and praying, on my knees begging for mercy and making deals with the Devil
I have seen and inhaled the many faces of you
I have begged you, crying and covered in snot and blood
To leave me be, to be careful with this soul of mine
I have tried to outsmart you, manipulate and purge
You have turned people into devils yet need them to fill your quota
You want me all to yourself
Yet humanity beckons, but you sabotage, maim and destroy all that are close
You wish for me to be alone so that we can have this macabre dance of intimacy and seduction.....how alluring and darkly beautiful you are!
Why do you love and hate me so? What have I ever done to deserve this travesty, this Hell?
I have scars from you that remind me of the war, the physical marks of my battle with the devil
You have turned me against myself in this sea of betrayal and paranoia
You are one smart cookie

But you cannot outsmart me now, my friend. I am too smart for you......

Let us examine our relationship, shall we?
As you have tried to destroy, I have tried to heal
As you have tried to isolate, I have tried to connect
As you have screamed in my mind the unearthly screams of the dying, I have breathed life
As you have wreaked havoc and mayhem, I have brought peace and stillness
You have introduced me to the Devil, and I have brought God
The tables are turning, my love. But do not be afraid. I have forgiven you.
As much as you tried to destroy me, I am a bigger person than you and love you unconditionally, for all that you are
For you are but the terrorised child, acting out in the adults body
I know exactly who you are, and you are loved beyond measure, infinitely
I take you, my borderline friend, and provide you with all the softness, peace and joy
Know that there is plenty of room for you, that you do not need to take and take from me to be noticed
I see you, I hear you and you are not alone
Live with me in peace, borderline, for you do not need to fight for your place
You are already there.......I forgive you
And we shall watch sunsets and sunrises together, knowing that we are together and you do not need to feel afraid.......as terrifying and unpredictable as you are, I am not afraid.....

Anymore. ( My werewolf agrees.....he is having a nice sleep, a sleep of the still and content)

[Rachie]

Thats really really good michah i love it

[JayS]

That is really good... I hope I get to that point someday because right now I feel like cutting it out of me with the biggest knife I can find.

[Michah]

Originally Posted by JayS

That is really good... I hope I get to that point someday because right now I feel like cutting it out of me with the biggest knife I can find.

Ah my sweet, the addictive darkness of borderline, yes? Know it for this.....it is a trick......it will do what it can to dominate......don't fight the illness, that is too overwhelming....but fight the impulse, babe......peacefully. Tell it that you forgive it for its immaturity and destruction, that you LOVE it for its hollowness and darkness, BUT you will not give in to it........start your unconditional acceptance now and KNOW THAT YOU DO NOT HAVE TO GIVE IN!!!

It is infinitely terrifying, defying this demanding mistress, but you shall prevail.......I KNOW you will. Breathe the fear in and breathe the fear out......it will lose its potency.......

Know thine enemy, and it shall become your friend.......you are already practicing it my sweet......you are on your way to that point......and we are with you.....

Take VERY good care Jay.......there is only one

[JayS]

Originally Posted by Michah

Ah my sweet, the addictive darkness of borderline, yes? Know it for this.....it is a trick......it will do what it can to dominate......don't fight the illness, that is too overwhelming....but fight the impulse, babe......peacefully. Tell it that you forgive it for its immaturity and destruction, that you LOVE it for its hollowness and darkness, BUT you will not give in to it........start your unconditional acceptance now and KNOW THAT YOU DO NOT HAVE TO GIVE IN!!!

It is infinitely terrifying, defying this demanding mistress, but you shall prevail.......I KNOW you will. Breathe the fear in and breathe the fear out......it will lose its potency.......

Know thine enemy, and it shall become your friend.......you are already practicing it my sweet......you are on your way to that point......and we are with you.....

Take VERY good care Jay.......there is only one

It already dominates me and is more terrifying then I would like, but I am doing what I can to accept it. You are helping me understand this curse and I truly appreciate all you have done for me.

[Fuzzybear]

I agree with the others, really good, and smart in a good way

[paddym22]

Love it............Thanks Michah....................