[Rachie]

im a piece of crap...i should just go away and make everyone happy...

last week I felt the same as you see my post !

This week I am doing better....

Its the nature of the illness so give it time hun it will pass you and I both know this think back to when you have felt like this before and how it passed then.

Hugs to you please type back and keep in contact with us if only to swear and screem then do so please.

Mine did not pass on its own I had to increase meds please get in contact with your Dr and see if this is the case for you !

YOU ARE A NICE PERSON I have read your threads and just see a nice person please believer me I only speak the truth (hence the reason for only a few people in this world liking me lol)

Love Trish.

Hey how are you doing today ?

[Michah]

My sweet, do not go away......

For would miss you....terribly.....


Biggest hugs I can find and much love,

Michah

[shezbut]

((((hugs)))) to you!

I can understand and relate to how you're feeling (as I often have similar thoughts and wishes).

You going away wouldn't make us here feel happy. We'd miss your kind, understanding words of support. I hope that things improve for you very soon, Rachie!


Shez

[Rachie]

Thanks for the kind replies everyone made me feel better i just havent been feeling too good lately. Its nice to know people do care.

Originally Posted by Rachie

im a piece of crap...i should just go away and make everyone happy...

You would pull me from under the covers...

You would not make me happy if you went away .

But I know how you can get in that place and maybe why.

I was bullied by my peers everyday from second grade through Jr, High. called all kinds of names and labels.

I was also called names by my mother . hit by her and my father and brother.

I was intermmitantly sexually abused by men and one woman . I had an eating disorder.that resulted from being made fun of for bieng over weight . and I was as a child.


I built up some self esteme after stopping my ED only to be made out to be more of a problem in therapy.

I had stable relationships and was written I did not . things began to fall apart and get worse sudemly I was not able to be in one anymore to protect myself. and it remaind thi way up untill today.

everythig has made my interactions all about me,

I continued to be bullied by a proffessor in grad school and a couple of students.
I was struggling in school. I fialy dropped out.

I found some online forums that severly bullied the mentally ill made plans to ban them and ostrasize them .

Ive had a few other things happen to me .


this is what you can do.

usually when I feel this way its because there are some other people in my life who think this way about me or treat me in this manner. That life would be better with out me in thier life.

So to list what these thing may be .

and is there something about myself Im doing to contribute
and can I do anything about changing myself.

And does the person who is complaining about me .have a realistic veiw of who I am . and are thier complaints about me valid.

I don't know you very well but your honest , your here working on yourself your in therapy and this does not even cover the little things about you that are special .I know nothing about.

All of the things I see are wonderful and you have spent some time with me and that has meant so very much to me.



You may need to find those who do think you contribute to thier life rather than a bother.

Last night I was at Paneras and one of the cashiers came over to my table and said the management wants to give you a free desert like a cookie because ..

You come in here at night and we love you.

I could not stop crying.

I can't offer you a cookie or speack for a whole group . but I see you here and in your sharing Ive come to Luv you .

Patricia

[Rachie]

Thank you patricia u have brought a smile to my face and i appreciate it very very much

im sorry you have had to go thru so much in your lifetime but i hope things are looking up for you i hope you are doing well

much love to you and everyone here, thank you all