[ScarlettJohansson]

I haven't got many friends. I feel very lonely all the time, I hate myself, I have suicide thoughts, I SI...I know I have a depression since 3 years ago. So, I hate everything...but there's a girl who is my best friend and who I love to talk with, she will always be my best friend, and when I'm with her, I feel happy, I smile..well, she's the only person who always talks to me...but when she doesn't talk to me or doesn't say anything to me on msn when I talk to her, I get really really upset and fell completly lonely (cause she's the only friend I have) and that's when I start cutting myself. wtf is wrong with me? i'm a guy btw

[lisa a]

hi hun x yeh i know exactly what u mean x i get like that 2 x hate it x its just u gettin paranoyed coz u this ur friend isnt there 4 u x its 1 of the symptims so im told x im newly diagnosed n finding all this really hard cuttin myself n even more suicidal than usual x what age r u if u dnt mind me askin ? x

How about you two connecting so each of you have two friends?

[ScarlettJohansson]

Lisa I'm 18.

The Byzantine good idea

[lisa a]

how do u make or add friends on this i cant work it this thing out x been 2 the gym 2nit n eelin gd x goin 2 the gym always cheers me up x

[Molly-red-bracelet]

Originally Posted by ScarlettJohansson

I haven't got many friends. I feel very lonely all the time, I hate myself, I have suicide thoughts, I SI...I know I have a depression since 3 years ago. So, I hate everything...but there's a girl who is my best friend and who I love to talk with, she will always be my best friend, and when I'm with her, I feel happy, I smile..well, she's the only person who always talks to me...but when she doesn't talk to me or doesn't say anything to me on msn when I talk to her, I get really really upset and fell completly lonely (cause she's the only friend I have) and that's when I start cutting myself. wtf is wrong with me? i'm a guy btw

Bordeling personality is a diagnosis that is widely used by doctors / professionals, sometimes wrongly . Often people are misdiagnosed because their behaviour is erratic and impulsive.

If this friend of yours makes you feel loved, wanted or needed then its not 'un-normal' to feel the way you do. Of course you are going to feel left out and lonely even abandoned when she doesn't talk to you , even if it is online or by text. She is someone you depend on and this relationship cannot be truly understood by anyone else other than you.

Are you getting any help from people, such as a counselor or therapist ? Sounds like you need to talk to somebody that is not connected to you in anyway.

Talking about things , especially your true deep thoughts can help. I can tell straight away that you have many qualities that you should like about yourself , because you care so much about friendship !!! Your friend , if she knew your true feelings would treasure you as the friend you are .

Please dont hurt yourself. Nobody deserves it No matter how much you may think it helps to release the pain , in the long term it wont .

Here if you need to chat

Take care

Molly x x

[ECHOES]

The label doesn't matter.
It sounds like you are not happy with your life and you are in great emotional pain at times.
Therapy can help with this and your life can feel much better.