[Rachie]

im sick of having BPD & ADHD I want to be normal. I'm sick of my impulsiveness and big mouth getting me in trouble. I'm forever making a fool of myself. I can't handle it anymore. I'm sick of being ****ef over by people who re meant to be my friend. And worst of all im sick of being alone and i miss my ex would someone put me out of my misery please!

[sedahia]

I Hate having BPD to

[paddym22]

Rachie

I am sorry you are feeling so badly, I didnt know about the ADHD as well, that is some cross to have to bare. I cant remember but are you doing DBT yet? well if not there is a section in it that is very valuable that is called ""Radical Accpetance". Basicaly there are two major strategies for accepting your state of mind, your emotions

A - Discovering the Observant mind

Remember that the observant mind accepts whatever is around you and merely describes what is there, in other words you are not yout thoughts, they are just thougths. The more you use your observant mind and accept whats going on around you and inside you, the less distressed you are likely to be. Having an observant mind doesnt rid you of all your distressing feelings. However it does help you reduce the stranglehold those feelings have on you by allowing you to accept what is rather than making things worse by judging your feelings. Strangely enough giving yourself permission to have negative feelings softens their overall impact.

B - Playing with your judgemental mind

one strategy which sounds corny is to thank your mind for using the power of sarcasm to diffuse the emotional turmoil that negative thinking causes. When you hear harsh, critical thoughts running through your mind , you literally thank your mind for being so helpful

For Example

Negative Thought : Im hopeless

Sarcastic Thankful Thought: Thank you mind, that was such a helpful thing to say.

It may seem silly for a while but after a period of time you will realise that you relate to your thoughts differently. With practice you will see that thoughts are truly just thoughts and dont reflect reality straight up. Thanking your mind is another way of cooling the emotional fires caused by hot thoughts that we with BPD get a lot of.

I learnt the above from the book BPD for Dummies and it has really helped me in times of distress and intolerance. I hope it can be of some assistance to you.


Hugs

Paddy

[shezbut]

(((Rachie)))

I can only imagine how frustrating it is for you. Both are struggles within themselves.

You are in my thoughts, Rachie, (((hugs))) to you!

[Rachie]

sedahia its a pain in the behind and im over it!

Paddy, i'm on a 12month waiting list to start DBT so for now i pretty much have to deal with it! But thank you so very much for your help, i'm definately going to try what you have said

Thanks shez, it's extremely frustrating and am so very over it! I just wish my mother listened to teachers when i was younger and they said that they thought i may have ADHD and maybe my problems wouldnt be as bad today, but hey what can you do! I just hope things start to look up soon cos i dont know how much longer i can handle all of this. I seem like im getting crazier by the day!

Thanks heaps for the support everyone it feels nice to know people do care

[paddym22]

GLad you are back Rachie, you have been missed, considering you have such a long time for the waiting list maybe it will be a good idea to keep on posting here and getting support and not feeling so isolated. We are all here for you and love you loads.

Paddy

[Michah]

(((((Rachie)))))

Sorry for not replying sooner, dear one......

How are you now?

Biggest hugs ever

Mics

[Rachie]

thanks paddy, i will start posting more and i love everyone here too, its good to know i fit in somewhere

Michah its lovely to hear from you im not doing so well, everything i swear just keeps getting worse and worse...but i dont know whether it actually is as bad as i think as i tend to let my thoughts get out of control. But my lord when i blow im gooing to blow good!! I have that much built up rage in me at the moment thats its not healthy at all ... I just want to un away and hide...nice to hear from you lovely

I have the same sufferings and concerns.thank you for sharing.you have validated what goes on inside me,and made me not feel SO alone.I hate having bpd,and watching it affect so many and so much, but at least we are a work in progress,and seeking recovery and wellness.

[Rachie]

treesa you're not alone i'm sick of being the way i am! I wish i could be 'normal' but i highly doubt thats going to happen anytime soon...if anything im getting worse and thank you for letting me know im not the only one going thru these struggles at this very moment