[kittychanel]

I was diagnosed with borderline disorder a while ago. When I read the symptoms I have to agree. I mainly see it in RELATIONSHIPS. Specifically with men. Once I connect with someone I can be very needy and attached. I logically know this pushes a person away, but I can't seem to help myself. And jealous? I haven't gotten over that habit either. Ive been known to search through my bfs computers and personal belongings to see if they are messing around or flirting. And some times I did find things. My theory is you find truth by snooping
I really do hate being this way, but I have been hurt alot too and at this point don't trust worth a damn. After all, the guy I moved her eto Wisconsin for from CA is now in jail for talking to underga egirls on the internet. I feel kind of stupid still.

[Midnightmoon]

Originally Posted by kittychanel

I was diagnosed with borderline disorder a while ago. When I read the symptoms I have to agree. I mainly see it in RELATIONSHIPS. Specifically with men. Once I connect with someone I can be very needy and attached. I logically know this pushes a person away, but I can't seem to help myself. And jealous? I haven't gotten over that habit either. Ive been known to search through my bfs computers and personal belongings to see if they are messing around or flirting. And some times I did find things. My theory is you find truth by snooping
I really do hate being this way, but I have been hurt alot too and at this point don't trust worth a damn. After all, the guy I moved her eto Wisconsin for from CA is now in jail for talking to underga egirls on the internet. I feel kind of stupid still.

I do the same thing, I go through my boyfreinds things and I confront him on it and he always has some excuse. And I always belive him. I don't know why I always fall for it. I let him borrow a ton of money and he said it would help our dreams come true and all this, then once I buy him his equipment, he says he wants to leave me! So I understand about your trust issues! So sick of the lies. Then if I freak out for things that he is doing that are horrible, I am the one that is messed up, not him even though he was the one in the wrong. I think the way to solve this is to learn better ways to approach the things we feel are wrong so that it doens't lead to being so needy and attatched. How to overcome is beyond me........

[kittychanel]

The more we are hurt, the less easier it is to trust. IT hurts not to able to trust but I feel like its so hard to find someone that will not mess me over in some way or another.

[peacenluv23]

Hey there. I get super jealous too and I have BPD. Just like you, I snoop through computers, phone logs etc. I have since gotten better though, my mind is the one I need to control now!

[peacenluv23]

Originally Posted by kittychanel

The more we are hurt, the less easier it is to trust. IT hurts not to able to trust but I feel like its so hard to find someone that will not mess me over in some way or another.

I agree with you! Have you found any help with your jealousy? if so, please share!

[sugahorse1]

I don't battle that much with the jealousy - for some reason I pretty much trust my boyfriend implicitly. But at the same time, I've gone through his wallet and phone to try piece together what he did the night before.
But I always feel lonely and abandoned. Even while lying in bed at night together. He's right there, yet I feel so lonely.

I have killed countless relationships by being too needy. I get attached and when the person finally says: enough is enough; my world crumbles.

So my T is busy trying to work out if it's Bipolar of Borderline I actually suffer from; or both.
I haven't held down a job too long, but it's been due to boredom, lack of commission, serious personal issues with a work colleague... Now I'm ready to leave my job, because I feel it's too stressful for my condition and because I'm bored