[ChaoticMind80]

So, I just started using this forum, and I posted a few times, and then disappeared. Im back on today, because I have nothing to do as its the weekend. Im off from work on FMLA. I took 2 weeks off from work, per my p-doc. He said he doesnt think I am in need of inpatient @ this time, so Im doing partial program which is partial hospitalization. 10 days, 5 days a week for 2 weeks, 4 hours a day. Intense therapy, coping skills, med changes & what not. So far Ive done my first 5 days. Its been a lil helpful to understand where my anger, paranoid thoughts & irritability are coming from. My childhood. Lack of attention, lack of positive reinforcement & being blamed for pretty much anything and everything.....anyways, on thursday night, I had flipped out as I came home to find my bf hadnt turned the porchlight on. Petty thing to get so angry about, but it is what it is. I cant change what happened. In the end, the cops came as the neighbors mustve called em, the aptment was a mess due to the fact that I had thrown some things. What an exhausting mess. So, I go to therapy the next day, exhausted, upset, anxiety @ its highest, paranoid....I tell them in group what happened the night before, they tell me I need to see the p-doc because I had a "flare up" and I may need a med change. SO, I go to see the doc, and he says he putting me on another med because not only am I BPD but I am now what he believes to be bipolar as well, he said after looking through my chart from my routine p-doc & my routine therapist, & also from my eval with him, he feels that I have both and he will be treating me for both, and once Im out of the partial program, he said he will fax everything to my routine therapist & pdoc. ugh, double whammy!

Im now on
*Prozac-40mg(until I see MY routine p-doc)
*Lamictal-increased to 150mg(still low dose, slow increase)
*Risperdal-increased to 2mg (still low dose, slow increase)
*Lithium-300mg 2x's a day(new med given that day I saw p-doc)

[shezbut]

((ChaoticMind80))

Hope that things are going better for you now ~ that you've successfully made a good addition in medications. Med switches can be so tough sometimes! I'll be thinking hopeful thoughts that you gain better control over your behavior.

[bpd2]

I hope your treatment is progressing well, CM80. It sounds intense but very supportive.