[onmyway]

I know this is stupid, and NOT what i should do, but i'm peeved about someting that happened yesterday at my GP's office.. it was health related, the doctor ( a resident ) was a complete idiot and rude, didn't bother listening to me, and now i feel like totally dumping my doctor (even though it wasn't MY dr it was a resident), my therapist (i had an apt with her that i totally forgot about this week and didn't remember until last night.. yet she hasn't called me or anything to say anything about it) and the psychiatrist because i see this psych WITH my GP at the same time, as well as the psychologist becasue she works out of the same clinic as my dr.

I'm also hurt because there's a program i work with and like almost 2 weeks ago there was VERY IMPORTANT information i needed, something she needed to do for me (couldn't do myself, referral needed) AND i was telling her i was falling into one of my down swings where i was having suicidal ideations. She not only didn't even bother to respond to how i was feeling -- and she's from a 'mental health' program, but she said, 'ill call you back in an hour or so.. and still hasn't almost 2 weeks later!

I do have to say, overall, my therapist, psychologist, and GP are good drs, but i'm just feeling right now like they dont give a damn and i feel like running from them all. This is more of a vent than anything, really. I know it would not be a wise thing to do, but still it's what i want to do.

Anyone ever felt this way?

Hello, onmyway. Perhaps you could print copies of your post for the people you are upset with and mail or deliver it to them?

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Originally Posted by onmyway

I know this is stupid, and NOT what i should do, but i'm peeved about someting that happened yesterday at my GP's office.. it was health related, the doctor ( a resident ) was a complete idiot and rude, didn't bother listening to me, and now i feel like totally dumping my doctor (even though it wasn't MY dr it was a resident), my therapist (i had an apt with her that i totally forgot about this week and didn't remember until last night.. yet she hasn't called me or anything to say anything about it) and the psychiatrist because i see this psych WITH my GP at the same time, as well as the psychologist becasue she works out of the same clinic as my dr.

I'm also hurt because there's a program i work with and like almost 2 weeks ago there was VERY IMPORTANT information i needed, something she needed to do for me (couldn't do myself, referral needed) AND i was telling her i was falling into one of my down swings where i was having suicidal ideations. She not only didn't even bother to respond to how i was feeling -- and she's from a 'mental health' program, but she said, 'ill call you back in an hour or so.. and still hasn't almost 2 weeks later!

I do have to say, overall, my therapist, psychologist, and GP are good drs, but i'm just feeling right now like they dont give a damn and i feel like running from them all. This is more of a vent than anything, really. I know it would not be a wise thing to do, but still it's what i want to do.

Anyone ever felt this way?

So, you are feeling really angry, ignored and unheard maybe? But don't know what to do about it, how to express the feeling of anger and let others know that they let you down. You're right about not dumping them, but that's what unspoken and unresolved anger does to us... when we can't speak it directly by saying "I felt disappointed/frustrated/angry/hurt, etc. when you (fill in)". When we really want that hurt to be recognized, and it doesn't seem possible, it can make us want to do something to get the message out in a non-direct way that might also include hurting back/revenge: dumping therapists and doctors (and others) or even abruptly cancelling appointments.

I think it's so understandable that you feel angry. Can you tell the parties involved directly? See how that goes, what it feels like to do it and what it feels like afterwards..?