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So, I have noticed this a lot lately, and was wondering if anyone else ever experiences this. I am a supervisor in an organization that works with kids with special needs. This afternoon, I was out training one of our direct care staff with a kiddo that I have worked with for a little over a year. I know this child very well, and I enjoy working with this child. I told the direct care staff all about the kiddo, showed her how I work with her and what I know the child will respond well to, and then let her do it. I was impressed at how well the staff took my advice and worked with the child (this child can have difficult behaviors, and like most kids, tried to push the limits since the child knew the staff was new). I believe that this staff will work very well with this child. So, why do I feel so aweful about myself now? I feel like I failed I hate myself.....I keep thinking about everything I told her, and then I think that I should have worded it differently, or I am thinking of things that I might have forgot to tell her (I honestly can't remember if I told her or not). This always happens after I try to train anyone or even just explain something to someone. It also happens after I do something new. I am constantly feeling like a failure, like I didn't do all or part of it right......even if my supervisor tells me I did a good job. These emotions are so severe that I feel like I need to go injure to make them stop. I am starting to feel it now about this post.....I feel like I am rambling and not explaining myself very well at all. Will this ever improve?
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Jul 05, 2011, 07:03 PM
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