[perniciousfirefly]

Hya everyone, ive been in a psych ward in the uk revolving door for a year, following postnatal depression and developing a reliance ona alcohol and tablets, when stopped breastfeeding at 5 weeks. ive been on sections, following a liking to overdosing and self harm.
Anyway lately, im hoping to be in me new flat in a week or two, however nursing staff are telling me i havent got BPD, and that then new psychiatrist i will be uinder due to relocation, will likely discharge me.
Ive had two psychiatrists, and two psychotherapist who all think i have emotionally unstable borderline personality disorder with alcohol dependence.
I am so pissed off though cause from reading text books, its like reading a diary. Relationships have been intense and chaotic, i have/ had eating disorders, compulsive skin picking, and suicidality. My emotions are all over the place its like being on a crazy rollercoaster.
im in a new realtionship i met him on psych ward and its been intense, then other day i flipped and pushed him away. but ive sorted it out we a re back on, but i dont wanna mess his head up. i cut myself because i hurt him.
Please I need to network with people with BPD. ive been real good friends with other diagnosed patients, because we have an understanding of each other.
Staff say cause im intelligen?????? that i shouldnt be doing these things lol what a joke.
Qualifications dont meake us immune right.
love t ya all.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[blackhumor]

Wow, I can understand some of this myself. I must say I had to laugh a little when I read that you were in a relationship with someone from the psych ward because I too am dating someone I met in the psych ward. I have been with him for over two years now and sometimes its pretty messy and we have to work really hard at our relationship but we do understand each other. I can also relate to your experience of cutting too. For me it seems when I feel too angry or guilty I don't know how to express it and that is when I cut. Anyway, I hope everything works out for you feel free to keep in contact. This is a good place to be.