*screams*

Parenting with BPD is really, really hard.

I'm so tired emotionally, mentally and physically.

I love my kids but they are such hard work. I really need a break but it's not going to happen for awhile.

I'm such a burden on my husband. Im not motivated to do anything except feed everyone. Guess that's a positive.

My 6yr old tells me I need to get my brain fixed "very fast" because I'm grumpy.

They all deserve better

From his mouth to God's ear! One time we were all at my mom's, and she sent me to get the dessert out of her "pantry", on the up-stairs. Of course little nephew is pasted to my side at all times. As I lean over, he says, "Auntie Hankster, you have a chubby butt!" He wasn't being rude, just making a CLOSE observation! I go, "Thank you for sharing that with me!" like we used to say in the 80's!

Flooded hugs i can't relate totally due to i don't have kids but i can relate with overwhelmed. Please remember you are trying and like you said you feed them which is a positive you probably do more than you realize too. It's ok- breath in and out. You will make it and like Hankster mentioned it's a child innocent observation. He/she probably knows mom needs a break too
Wish you well flooded.

(((((Flooded)))))

Gentle hugs sent to you.

Are you seeing a T? Hopefully, they can help you work through your emotions, before you see no point in living.

Shez

(((((FLOODED)))))

I know how you feel.... I am having a hard time caring for my daughter also. Thank God for my roommate. When I feel overwhelmed and tired she has to step in. I just wanted to let you know are are not alone in this....

((((Flooded))))

You are not alone. I am having a hard time with my kids as well. Especially my 9 year old daughter who has ADHD.

Some days, I can't even stand to be in the apartment with them, so my husband has to deal with them.

I am right there with you in thinking that my kids deserve so much better too.

Thanks Nic. I had a feeling you'd be riding this wave with me.

I badly need a holiday and ours is booked for Nov/Dec but I don't know if I'm going to be able to hold on that long.

The cracks are getting bigger and deeper.

(((Flooded)))
I understand how hard it is to parent with any mental health issue. Parenting, as you know, is one of the most important "jobs" we have. I know how burned out and exhausted and totally frazzled we get.
If it's any consolation, I survived it and so did my kids, all the while I kept the "secret" of my DID. Not one of them know, even now. I guess that's where having "parts" comes in handy. I also had debilatating depression, which was obvious to the family, but all I heard about that was "how hard it was for THEM to live with someone like ME". HUGS and hang on for your vacation.

You've done well to hide it Calista!

I reckon I'm burnt out because its school holidays here. Kids go back on Monday and not a moment too soon!

I was just wondering how a BPD mother gets by. My girlfriend started getting psychotic early in the month and I don't handle it well. She needs kind, gentle, understasnding support. I have no maternal instincts (paternal either for that matter). I'm impatient and abrasive, It's all I can do to not blow up.

Having kids must be this in multiples.

Kudos to all BPD parents!

Flooded - I can really relate to it being so tough when the kids are not in school. My kids get 3 months off in the summer, and it was a living hell. They get a few days here and there and then a week for Christmas and a week for spring break. Even those week long breaks are tough.