I'm stuck at home and can't do anything. I have no where to go. Parents are trying to force me to get a job because they say nothing is wrong. But the fact is, I want to die. I don't want to do anything anymore. I'm tired, and I'm angry that long term places won't accept me (reasons why in my last thread).

I don't think I'll kill myself today, but I no longer want to live. And I don't know how much longer I can hold on here. The mere sound of my mother wandering around the house makes me want to jump off a bridge.

I'm sorry, I guess I don't have a question. I'm just lost.

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i have thought about taking my life to, but after i get through what is bringing me down i am glad i didnt, is there anything you can concentrate on? what gets me through is my dad, i know if i go he will have no one to support him as he has cancer. look really deep, you will find a reason to keep going! i promise

[ECHOES]

I'm sorry you are feeling so badly.
A wise person told me once that wanting to die is a way of saying "I am in *this much* pain". I agree and I have found that it's often a fear of living.

Can you imagine a job that is meaningful to you, that is enjoyable to go to, so that it becomes your 'somewhere' to go? Can you imagine what it would feel like to get past your fear/s and be freer to live the way you want to live? Maybe you could start with a job with a few hours and work up from there, to ease into it.

Have you worked before at something you enjoyed?

I loved working at the bar I worked at...but I'm not allowed to work there anymore.

Apart from that, no I don't enjoy anything. I just want to go away forever

Sorry you're in so much pain.

[gashly]

That's a sucky place to be in. I have been feeling pretty down myself lately, was feeling suicidal last week, but managed to pull out of that, fortunately my roommate talked me out of it. I know I should be employing dbt skills, such as opposite action (get out of bed) and opposite emotion (watch a funny show or movie) to get myself out of this mindset. But I really want to throw the workbook at someone. I hope you feel better.