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I lie to myself so much, that i can barely distinguish what parts of my thoughts, feeling or opinions are real, and what events have happened, what i have dreamt and what i have just made up. I will lie to other people and believe it so much myself that i am sure i could pass a lie detector.
In fact as its so hard for me to write this, because i believe my lies so much that i feel like i am betraying myself by writing this, like i have just let the secret out.

I'm diagnosed Bipolar not BPD, and i know this isnt an actual BPD characteristic (well i think its not), but my T thinks i may be BPD and i just wanted to come on here and ask you.

I wouldnt say i am a compulsive liar, but then i dont think i'd know if i was

[missbelle]

I don't really lie to myself but I try and convince myself things are better then what they are so I can tolerate them.......acceptance....thats a hard word.......when is it acceptance or throwing in the towel...I'll let you know when I find out!!

[tattoogirl33]

LOL.. I love this thread!! REALLY!! I do the exact same thing! Never to betray anyone, sometimes I just wanna sound "smart".. IDK.. I'm Bipolar 1 and Borderline and most days I have no clue which one I'm dealing with... but yeah.. the lying thing is soooooo me!

[Fit1]

Apparently lying, especially to ourselves is nothing new. I have been lying to myself for years. I am with Missbelle in that I consistently tell myself things are better than they really are. Hope I figure out a way to be honest with myself or more observant or both.

[LatinTigress]

I do the exact same thing! Definitively a BPD characteristic. Sometimes I tell a lie, or "twist the truth" in a way that I end up believing it myself. I think it has a little to do with the fact that borderlines can be very manipulative people. I must admit that it's gotten me out of a lot of situations where the truth could have bring me a great deal of trouble. I'm not proud of it, but it comes so natural to me now that it's hard for me to stop.

[dirt69juggalo]

I've lied to myself for so long that I don't think I could tell which ones were lies even if I tried

[Irine]

I think society lies to itself all the time - the problem is no only yours. In the end it is your choice - even if you feel you developed a habit of lying. You can take time, every day or every week or every once in a while, to site alone. Where you can isolate yourself from everything else. You can try to write your thoughts down. Then read them. Then listen to your feelings closely. For it is not in your mind but in your heart - that you know better - if its a lie or truth.

You can also do this:
Write down a few subjects you suspect to be lying about on pieces paper, fold them and throw them in a way you don`t see what you wrote. Then you pick up one and read it. Then try to see if this is not the most lied about, or one of the main reasons.

[tattoogirl33]

Originally Posted by ladymacabethadmunsen

I think society lies to itself all the time - the problem is no only yours. In the end it is your choice - even if you feel you developed a habit of lying. You can take time, every day or every week or every once in a while, to site alone. Where you can isolate yourself from everything else. You can try to write your thoughts down. Then read them. Then listen to your feelings closely. For it is not in your mind but in your heart - that you know better - if its a lie or truth.

You can also do this:
Write down a few subjects you suspect to be lying about on pieces paper, fold them and throw them in a way you don`t see what you wrote. Then you pick up one and read it. Then try to see if this is not the most lied about, or one of the main reasons.

Ummmm.... yeah.. this is like telling me to quit thinking that everyone good that comes into my life is not going to abandon me...