[Fairy39]

This past month i have been very ill. I've pushed almost everyone away because i just couldn't cope with them any longer. The last person has been my mental health worker last week. I am a bit worried i might push my nurse and psyciatrist away next Does anyone else do this?

((((Fairy))))

Yep I do this too, When I feel ill I just want to be left alone and I shut myself off from the outside world, I am sorry that you feel this way too

[roads]

Hi, Fairy39. If you read around on the various forums, you'll see that pushing people away & shutting them out are continuing problems for a great number of us. By nature I'm a cave person, but I'm getting better.
Currently I'm dealing with hiding behind a mask when I'm in therapy sessions--have a fear that it's all a waste. I wont push him away, but I may never let my T into my world.

So it's not just you by a long shot. Welcome. Join us on the journey.

[Fairy39]

Originally Posted by Buttercup.

((((Fairy))))

Yep I do this too, When I feel ill I just want to be left alone and I shut myself off from the outside world, I am sorry that you feel this way too

Yes i know what you mean. I don't really mean to push everyone away it just happens that i can't cope with them anymore and then one by one i push them away. I think i am really withdrawing now. Hmm sometimes i think i'm better off on my own. That i don't need anyone i can make it on my own. But then it's like suddenly i've got noone again. And why can't people understand?

[Fairy39]

Originally Posted by roadrunnerbeepbeep

Hi, Fairy39. If you read around on the various forums, you'll see that pushing people away & shutting them out are continuing problems for a great number of us. By nature I'm a cave person, but I'm getting better.
Currently I'm dealing with hiding behind a mask when I'm in therapy sessions--have a fear that it's all a waste. I wont push him away, but I may never let my T into my world.

So it's not just you by a long shot. Welcome. Join us on the journey.

Thanks it's a help to know i'm not the only one who does this. I hope you manage to let your T in to your world a little bit at a time

[cboxpalace]

Yes! It's extremely common trait for people with bpd to do this. Unfortunately, I do this all the time with casual friends/acquaintances.. Not so much with healthcare workers.

[become_UNmasked]

i feel this way too, right now. i just want to close myself in a cave. :-(

[beauflow]

I tend to do this, and then tend not to note when I am pushing people away, until after a while---

((Fairy)) hope you get some help on what to do about this as well!

...i have been pushing myself away for a week now....tormented with nightmares of the hurt it cause others ...sleep is just short plays of madness and not really rest..I guess I can keep going...it's happened before...

BUT...I am so tired and need to sleep for real but am dis-allowed meds for that cos I abused them before...this week has been a mess...and somehow...

it defines me..

it is heartening to know others go through not exactly but pretty close..

I sat down and had some soup again before ...the cans I rejected when I was well....and they were not too bad at all...just quietly in the dark with toast..

I have had thoughts racing....I wonder if we are too smart for our own good...

depression helps to care for me

even though I don't like the drama involved