obviously there is some part of my mind that is aware enough to admit it!
it's definitely a borderline thing...hopeless sense of self...virtually no sense of self. it's mentally suffocating being at the mercy of everything going on around me. emotionally I live in another warped dimension and I feel as though I am a year or more late for everything. reality has been crushing me into insignificance forever it seems.
when I do think for myself...it gets me and everybody by surprise...impulsive, violent, self destructive.... day, minute, hour...life changing outbursts.

I hope this year I can learn to think for myself....
I guess thats what mindfullness is about? bleh!

[Lost&confused89]

Youre not alone! I feel exactly the same. But with a new year brings new hope for good possibilites, so maybe we can learn to cope and deal with this disease that is attempting to take over...

Good luck, and keep us posted on ur progress...