Feeling lost , alone and detatched

I'm glad i found this site, i do have borderline persolality disorder.
I saw my therapist 3 days ago and have been having sessions with her now for almost 2 years. Most of the time i do feel better after a session and i'm gratefull to be able to talk to her. I didn't have a good nights sleep, today i feel emotionally drained , I feel lonely and alone, i don't have any friends and i can only talk to my husband and at times he seems absent an lacks understanding. I try not to hassel him too much about my moods, feelings etc , as i know it must be hard for him at times, i feel fortunate that he has stuck by me and has tried to be supportive, because the reality is, he could have left me a long time ago, we have been married 31 years. Our 4 adult children tend to stay away as they feel it's too depressing for them, they are aware that from time to time i'm not well emotionally, i don't talk to my children about any of my problems or concerns that i may have, but as i said they are aware when i'm not well and not coping. I would so much like to have friends and people in my life that i could talk to and could relate to, as i feel so alone , lonely and lost at times .

((Shazza))) and welcome to PC.

I too am feeling lonely and alone. Even though my SO is here. I also feel fortunate that he's stuck by me (almost 5 years), I hope someday I can say its been 31. I think that its great that you've been in a "stable" relationship that long. My SO has twin 10 yr old daughters. I worry constantly that I'll be affecting them negatively. They pick up on my anxiety and worries.

Please know that you're not alone. The people here are very understanding. We are here to listen.

Welcome! I understand what it is to feel alone. I am sorry you feel that way, but you have come to the right place. There are many of us here with BPD and you will find people here that do understand. I have adult children also and one of mine avoids me totally. The rest do what they can to help and I try to help them too. I am very open with them about what is going on with me. I am also forthcoming with any educational information that might be helpful to them. It is my hope that none of them end up like me. I also try to give them advice on parenting, to prevent this from going to the grandchildren. I do understand completely though why you might want to shield your children from this. That is probably wise. Again, welcome.

....hi shazza,

make yourself at home..

Hi Shazza, I'm also new. I'm so glad you are on this forum and can talk about how you feel. You are not alone in what you're experiencing! We all can relate to you
and how scarey it feels to feel lonely. I'm sorry it's been so tough for you for so long.
Well done in the decisions you have made and try to hold on to that.