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#1
Dec 07, 2011, 07:09 AM
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wave upon wave of demented avengers march cheerfully out of obscurity into the dream.... pink floyd.. to me it means like the loveliness of surviving intense sickness ....followed by the deliberate vague realisation...it's...probly gonna happen again that I go through the pain... and I could better explain when I'm well....but would I bother then? the racing mind makes very little room for real time |
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#2
Dec 09, 2011, 08:53 PM
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"I Hate Everything About You"
Every time we lie awake After every hit we take Every feeling that I get But I haven't missed you yet Every roommate kept awake By every sigh and scream we make All the feelings that I get But I still don't miss you yet Only when I stop to think about it I hate everything about you Why do I love you? I hate everything about you Why do I love you? Every time we lie awake After every hit we take Every feeling that I get But I haven't missed you yet Only when I stop to think about it I hate everything about you Why do I love you? I hate everything about you Why do I love you? Only when I stop to think about you, I know Only when you stop to think about me, do you know? I hate everything about you Why do I love you? You hate everything about me Why do you love me? I hate You hate I hate You love me I hate everything about you Why do I love you? |
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#3
Dec 28, 2011, 08:24 AM
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I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything What have I become? My sweetest friend Everyone I know Goes away in the end You could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt I wear this crown of **** Upon my liar's chair Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair Beneath the stains of time The feelings disappear You are someone else I am still right here What have I become? My sweetest friend Everyone I know Goes away in the end - Trent Reznor (NIN) |
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Dec 28, 2011, 09:49 PM
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You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go You put your arms around me and I'm home How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown I hope that you see right through my walls I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling I'll never let a love get so close You put your arms around me and I'm home The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone |
| delicatefade26
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Dec 29, 2011, 08:01 PM
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Never win first place, I don't support the team
I can't take direction, and my socks are never Clean Teachers dated me, my parents hated me I was always in a fight 'cause I can't do nothin' Right Everyday I fight a war against the mirror I can't take the person staring back at me 'cause I'm a hazard to myself Don't let me get me I'm my own worst enemy It's bad when you annoy yourself, so irritating Don't wanna be my friend no more, I wanna be somebody else I wanna be somebody else, yeah LA told me, "You'll be a pop star, all you have to change is everything you are." Tired of being compared to damn Britney Spears She's so pretty, that just ain't me So doctor, doctor, won't you please prescribe me something? A day in the life of someone else 'cause I'm a hazard to myself Don't let me get me (ooh) I'm my own worst enemy (noo) It's bad when you annoy yourself So irritating (no) Don't wanna be my friend no more I wanna be somebody else Yeah Don't let me get me (don't let me) I'm my own worst enemy (oooh) Its bad when you annoy yourself So irritating Don't wanna be my friend no more I wanna be somebody else So doctor, doctor, won't you please prescribe me something? A day in the life of someone else Don't let me get me (oooh) I'm a hazard to myself (yeah) Don't let me get me I'm my own worst enemy Its bad when you annoy yourself (yourself) So irritating (so irritating) Don't wanna be my friend no more (don't, don't) I wanna be somebody else Don't let me get me (don't let, don't let, don't let me get me) I'm my own worst enemy It's bad when you annoy yourself (yourself, it's so bad) So irritating (oooh) Don't wanna be my friend no more (aah) I wanna be somebody else Don't let me get me (Don't let me get me) I'm my own worst enemy It's bad when you annoy yourself... - Pink
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#6
Dec 29, 2011, 08:12 PM
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wow.. yeh this reminds me of a conversation I had with my psych about 3 months ago. he said "whats goin' on?" as usual. I said..."well, a difficult time...I'm going through a break up" and he remarked..."I didn't know you were with anybody" and I said "I'm breaking up with myself!"...."I am so sick of me...I'm so horrible to me...all the time giving me crap!...pickin' on this, pickin' on that...can't remember the last time I enjoyed bein happy together with myself....." and it went on and on...you get the picture it was just really damn hard because I had moved in with myself and everything |
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#7
Dec 29, 2011, 10:34 PM
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TWISTED by Joni Mitchell
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature...&v=IKIQSo7JbKQ By Ross and Grey My analyst told me That I was right out of my head The way he described it He said I'd be better dead than live I didn't listen to his jive I knew all along That he was all wrong And I knew that he thought I was crazy but I'm not Oh no My analyst told me That I was right out of my head He said I'd need treatment But I'm not that easily led He said I was the type That was most inclined When out of his sight To be out of my mind And he thought I was nuts No more ifs or ands or buts They say as a child I appeared a little bit wild With all my crazy ideas But I knew what was happening I knew I was a genius... What's so strange when you know That you're a wizard at three I knew that this was meant to be Now I heard little children Were supposed to sleep tight That's why I got into the vodka one night My parents got frantic Didn't know what to do But I saw some crazy scenes Before I came to Now do you think I was crazy I may have been only three But I was swinging They all laugh at angry young men They all laugh at Edison And also at Einstein So why should I feel sorry If they just couldn't understand The idiomatic logic That went on in my head I had a brain It was insane Oh they used to laugh at me When I refused to ride On all those double-decker buses All because there was no driver on the top My analyst told me That I was right out of my head But I said dear doctor I think that it's you instead Because I have got a thing That's unique and new To prove it I'll have The last laugh on you 'Cause instead of one head I got two And you know two heads are better than one © 1965 Prestige Music Last edited by ECHOES; Dec 29, 2011 at 10:55 PM. |
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Dec 29, 2011, 11:24 PM
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..thanks so much
becomeUNmasked summeryoga Aanga athena2011 and ECHOES...for your choices of song lyrics here. I have had to read them several times and there are so many meaningful words that I can identify with..and the fact that they are real music is encourageing...sad and inspirational all at once. my small cryptic contribution at the beginning clearly reflects my simplistic twisted predicament and you have all helped me very much. thankyou  I should mention the reason I asked this thread was because I cannot listen to music. The stuff I have been listening to for so long now has made a heap of sense to me for sure, but nowadays I fall into instant psychosis when I hear any of it. It's unbelievable but who knows what goes on in the brain? I was messed up when I started listening to it....stayed that way ...kept listening to it. Now as I make efforts to un-mess up myself ...I hear those sounds again from any of my 'preferred' music....and psychosis...personality switch...addictions and nuthouse! Music is a powerful trigger...it's like some harmonic hypnosis to me. anyway...I miss listening to music that I can relate to...and to get some fresh sounds that have no past reference to me has been good. Last edited by Anonymous32912; Dec 29, 2011 at 11:43 PM. |
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Dec 30, 2011, 10:14 AM
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I also know how music can be triggering. I can't listen to Alicia Keys anymore because I put her on when I was in a rage. All it would do is make me worse. For some reason though I find Pink inspiring. Maybe 'cause I know her family life was awful. And she most definitely sounds like somebody suffering from BPD but who's found a helpful outlet that works for her. There seems to be a hopeful message in some of her songs. She's got kind of a "F*** the world, I'm going to succeed in spite of you" attitude. Anyway, here's another one. I hope it doesn't trigger you. Leave Me Alone (I'm Lonely) lyrics Go away Give me a chance to miss you Say goodbye It'll make me want to kiss you I love you so Much more when you're not here Watchin all the bad shows Drinking all of my beer I don't believe Adam and Eve Spent every ******* day together If you give me some room there will be room enough for two Tonight Leave me alone I'm lonely Alone I'm lonely I'm tired Leave me alone I'm lonely Alone I'm lonely tonight I don't wanna wake up with another But I don't wanna always wake up with you either No you can't hop into my shower All I ask for is one ***kin' hour You taste so sweet But I can't eat the same thing every day Cuttin off the phone Leave me the ***k alone Tomorrow I'll be beggin' you to come home Tonight Leave me alone I'm lonely Alone I'm lonely I'm tired Leave me alone I'm lonely Alone I'm lonely tonight Go away Come back Go away Come back Why can't I just have it both ways Go away Come back Go away Come back I wish you knew the difference Go away Come back Go away Give me a chance to miss you Say goodbye It'll make me want to kiss you Go away Give me a chance to miss you Say goodbye It'll make me want to kiss you Go away Give me a chance to miss you Say goodbye It'll make me want to kiss you Tonight Leave me alone I'm lonely Alone I'm lonely I'm tired Leave me alone I'm lonely Alone I'm lonely tonight Tonight Leave me alone I'm lonely Alone I'm lonely I'm tired Leave me alone I'm lonely Alone I'm lonely tonight Tonight Go away Give me a chance to miss you Leave me alone I'm lonely Alone I'm lonely Say goodbye It'll make me want to kiss you I'm tired Go away Give me a chance to miss you Leave me alone I'm lonely Alone I'm lonely Say goodbye It'll make me want to kiss you Tonight Go away Give me a chance to miss you Say goodbye It'll make me want to kiss you
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#10
Jan 16, 2012, 06:23 PM
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This song is called Sleepwalking by A Fine Frenzy. I think it describes the lost feelings BPD usually brings along. I know for me this is true. Sometimes it feels like I'm looking for something and I can't find it, and I don't know what it is or how *to* find it. But I know that I'll be better once I have it. Sometimes this feeling makes me feel inspired, and sometimes it makes me feel hopeless. This song makes me feel a fine mix of both... Hope that makes sense
 Houses to houses, Sinks and walls and floors, Windows to hallways, Closed and open doors. Softly, They creep softly. Lost, we Now have lost these. Cover your eyes with the paper clothes That you stole from paper sheep. Tracing their jumps on the paper sky Where the fallen paper sleep. Fallin', We're always fallin'. Callin', "Hey come back, lost things!" Ahhh, oh my God! Ahhh, oh my God! Summer was once where the widest winter breeze. I know it's somewhere, hidden right behind our teeth. Come and, Come and call it. Caught it And then we lost it. The song has a COOL stop-motion music video. Unfortunately I can't post links yet since I'm new, but you can search 'Lost Things' on Youtube and it should be the first video. |
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Jan 16, 2012, 07:17 PM
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lmao....I can think of a ton of them...the first one I thought of was..."Bow down before the one you serve you're going to get what you diserve." And the "Head Strong" lyrics. This is a good one!!
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Jan 16, 2012, 07:24 PM
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don't know whether to say thanks or run away! 
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| Forgive77
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Jan 16, 2012, 07:27 PM
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Much love!!!
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Love, Forgive I'm writing in my blog again! www.butterflyamongthorns.com Bipolar II Borderline Personality Disorder OCD (Thoughts) ADD (can't take meds for it) PTSD Cymbalta 90mg Lamictol 200mg Geodon 40mg Xanax XR 1mg |
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Jan 16, 2012, 07:33 PM
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Love, Forgive I'm writing in my blog again! www.butterflyamongthorns.com Bipolar II Borderline Personality Disorder OCD (Thoughts) ADD (can't take meds for it) PTSD Cymbalta 90mg Lamictol 200mg Geodon 40mg Xanax XR 1mg |
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Jan 16, 2012, 07:48 PM
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...reckon I'm gonna' be gatecrashin' someones CBT today after that one! lol |
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Jan 17, 2012, 04:52 PM
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Trouble Child by Joni Mitchell:
Up in a sterilized room Where they let you be lazy Knowing your attitude’s all wrong And you got to change And that’s not easy Dragon shining with all values known Dazzling you-keeping you from your own Where is the lion in you to defy him When you’re this weak And this spacey... So what are you going to do about it You can’t live life and you can’t leave it Advice and religion-you can’t take it You can’t seem to believe it The peacock is afraid to parade You’re under the thumb of the maid You really can’t give love in this condition Still you know how you need it They open and close you Then they talk like they know you They don’t know you They’re friends and they’re foes too Trouble child Breaking like the waves at malibu So why does it come as such a shock To know you really have no one Only a river of changing faces Looking for an ocean They trickle through your leaky plans Another dream over the dam And you’re lying in some room Feeling like your right to be human Is going over too Well some are going to knock you And some’ll try to clock you You know it’s really hard To talk sense to you Trouble child Breaking like the waves at malibu
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Jan 18, 2012, 10:28 AM
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mine would be
Lost in Paradise by Evanescence |
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