[emerylost]

These forums and postings are just as hard as talking to a real person. But I need help. I have BPD, depression ect., I feel like I am about to step off the edge and this is my last chance to know I am not alone. I just need a friend and some support. I feel like a broken record. My family does not understand what is going on in my head. Please tell me someone here understands.

[ChaoticSymphony]

You aren't alone

[Trippin2.0]

You're definitly not alone Feel free to share here, you're among friends.

[bpd2]

I'm back here, myself, today, because people here do understand. Here, now, it's 10:30 pm, I'm grasping at some way to make tomorrow better than today, and I know that my best chance lies in rest. So, I'm taking myself off to bed, even though what I want to do is watch an iPad episode of Justified and the drama and intensity of Harlan County. Oh, to be on the edge and be some sort of savior, emotionally crippled or not (as Raylan Givens, the hero of that show is). I'm getting into Boyd, the bad guy, 'way too much. So, off to bed, no feeding my fantasies of righteous violence. What we borderlines need, especially before bed, is that small list, even one or two things, of soothing things we do for ourselves, small rituals to right the day, give us a little hope for tomorrow--that little reminder that we do have control over some things. And we start there. Brush our teeth. And if tonight, that means no toothpaste because even that is an effort, then, so be it. But, brush our teeth...Rinse our face off, even if waiting for the water to run warm is too much to do, and dealing with the soap is too much to ask. Tonight, I am trying to take care of myself as I would make sure I took care of a very tired child: I would still make sure I put her to bed without a grimy face and with smooth teeth for the morning. Small blessings, just for ourselves. Nobody has to know.

((((Emerylost))))Hope you are feeling ok today.

((((BPD2)))) Bless you sweetheart

[Korana]

EmeryLost - if there were ever a place that anyone could ever understand each of us, it's definitely here.
I feel like I can post every detail of my condition, and it's not shameful for me. I don't feel humiliated when I tell the truth about freaking out over a text message or throwing a tantrum over a broken computer. Because we've all been there, we've experienced such similar things, and we all have different perspectives.
Post your thoughts and your worries - We understand you

[darkmood]

I know how you feel I was the same way on Mon but let me tell you it will get better today iam good it will get better just hang in there There is hop things will get better

[BorderlineBrittany]

Your not alone! Honestly just spend some time reading the forums. You dont need to write anything.. I have learnd so much just from reading others storys. I dont respond alot cause i find it hard to talk once in awhile. My head is like an over filled balloon.. I feel like i just come off confusing some times so i dont respond but listening to others is great. You are not alone!

[Towanda]

What a relief to read these posts and know I too am not alone in finding it hard sometimes to simply brush my teeth or wash my face. I know, little victories count. I am struggling my way through school at the ripe old age of 58, and every day before I get out of my car to go to class I repeat "I will pass, I will succeed, I will graduate". I am learning, although painfully slow, not to freak out over the small things (although I still do occasionally),

Life is a marvelous struggle, isn't it, but so worth it!!

I think the phrase; "Nothing that is worth having ever comes easy," would be rather apt here.

We all feel your pain - and this makes me awfully sad, the knowledge that we are all suffering in this way. It also however inspires me to work with others in the hope that, together, we will succeed in reclaiming our lives